CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! THE BIT 2 0 I DECIDED TO MAKE IT ESPECIALLY SPECIAL FOR
YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!
Authors Notes- You know…as I was reflecting on my story, I realized one important thing. In the first chapter, I said the Usagi fell in love with Heero, after meeting him in the Shadow world. What I never said was how this happened. All I said was that She loved him, but I not only never said any details on their romance, but I never even said how they met! This chapter is just pure mush to fill in those empty spaces. I hope you enjoy it!
This chapter is dedicated to the reviewers who told me to get off my ass, and that I needed to get the chapter out NOW. I love it when people like something I did enough to be so forceful! Most especially to those who wrote the long ones that I look so forward to reading. I would say their names, but it seems that whenever I do that, I never hear from them again so I'll just avoid doing that…
ENJOY!
**
Kaninisha felt his daughter enter his world for the first time, and could barely contain his joy. Now that she was here, there was a chance that she could be saved. There were simply a few rules that he had to follow…
Appearing behind the now excited Heero, he firmly gripped his shoulder. Whispering in his ear so the girl so close couldn't hear, he told Heero some rules he had to follow, for the sake of them all.
"Under no circumstances are you to let her see you, tell her your name, or explain where we are. You can't tell her about your life, but be aware of one thing."
He saw Heero listening to him with a mixture of joy, anger, and wonder. "In her body, in case you haven't noticed, she is incomplete. That means there are parts of her personality that are blocked. Those blocks are only evident in her physical body though, so she no longer has those limitations when she's here. You can teach her things she never would understand, and most importantly, you can be here for her." He gave Heero a light shove in the direction of his daughter, and watched with a slight smile on his face as he saw the only hope for his daughter sanity slowly approaching her.
**
Usagi sat in her wheel chair, pausing from her tinkering on the remote. Suddenly one of the happiest moments in her life came back to her, the memory so strong, all she could do was revel in it.
**
She had been trapped in her depression for so long, her bruised and battered body a cage she couldn't hope to escape, and her life something she had no choice but to continue.
She had been seeking an escape from her body for some time now, and because of that she daydreamed often. She dreamed of what she would do if she could live her own life, and what it would be like. She explored her every imagination, like someone else would pour over the books in a library. She crept deeper and deeper inside of herself, until she was further in her mind than ever before.
(AN: OK OK! So her mind is different than others. She has a maze of a mind, like I said before. There are tunnels, and walls. WORK WITH ME HERE!)
She had no idea how it happened, but suddenly she was no longer sitting in her chair. The awareness of reality vanished like it had never been there, and like never before she was actually INSIDE her mind, and not just thinking. It was an invigorating and scary experience at the same time. At first she was frightened that she had gone insane, but then she decided that it didn't matter anymore…all that mattered was escape.
While before her mind had been full of color, and she pictured scenes in her head, it was now a misty gray. It wasn't depressing, like some might have thought it to be. No, instead the shadows seemed comforting, like a blanket wrapping around her, keeping her safe and warm.
In this new place, that wasn't really anywhere but her mind, she decided she might as well call out. See if she had imagined anyone in this place of hers.
She started faintly at first, not really expecting an answer. As she expected, there was no one, this place must just be the empty part of her mind, where nothing could exist. Just waste place, where nothing could exist. So deep in the recesses of her mind, that none of her dreams could exist in its peaceful shadows.
Just when she was about to wake up from her daydreaming, and go to a scout meeting, she felt more than saw or heard something, or someone else there.
"Hello! I know someone's out there. Don't think I don't! Why don't you just tell me where I am!" she called half-heartily called, not really expecting an answer, and wondering immediately why she had even bothered to ask such a silly question. She already knew where she was, so why bother asking?
She waited there, hands on her hips, and tapping her foot until she could get an answer. Once again she was quickly getting impatient, but she just couldn't bring herself to leave this place. It was just so peaceful, and she felt that if she were here, she could forget all of her worries.
Finally! Out of the darkness stepped what looked like a man. She wasn't really sure, because like the world around her, he was wrapped in shadows as well. Sometimes, she could almost swear she caught a glimpse of him, but it was gone as soon as she recognized it what she almost saw. He was slowly walking towards her, his every step seemed hesitant, like he was forcing himself to walk to her.
When he was only feet away, she the stupor that had come over her finally went away. Stepping a little closer, and holding out her hand, she said.
"Hello." And that was it. She didn't ask for his, or anything else.
"Hello…Usagi" She heard as an answer. She shouldn't have been surprised that he knew her name; after all, he DID live in her head. For some reason she found that she was. After all, she didn't know his, and he didn't seem to want to give it either.
**
Heero couldn't stop staring at that hand. Usagi could have no idea how hard it was not for him to grab it, and enfold her in a tight embrace that he would never release her from. His entire body shook, as he realized that YES she was here, and after all of the years of only being able to watch her, he could finally meet the angel that had stolen his heart.
Carefully, so as not to lose control, he shook her hand. Her skin was so soft…even if it was only an image of her soul, meeting up with an image of his. It didn't matter. All that did was that she was here.
**
End Flashback
**
He never told her his name, but he was able to get to know another side of her. She side that could talk to him, and tell him of her hopes and dreams. They quickly formed a bond, faster than he could have imagined, she came to know him, even without REALLY knowing about his life. He could share his hobbies, and his loves (he didn't share his biggest one yet) and he found himself falling even more in love with her than he could have though possible. He thought he couldn't fall any farther for the girl, but she proved him wrong. What was the most important to him though, was that when she was here, he was finally able to comfort her. She finally knew she wasn't alone, and he was able to give her that.
**
Flashback
**
She was late. It didn't matter that it wasn't her fault, and she had passed out on her 'date' with her 'boyfriend'. Her parents would be angry with her that she was getting home over an hour late from her curfew, and she would have to listen to them.
Just like she had though, she received quite the 'lecture'. She just couldn't bring herself to care. All she could think about was going up to her room, so she could once again spend time with Heero. He didn't need to know about her life to be her friend, and she loved him for it.
WAIT A MINUTE!! Did she just THINK that she LOVED him!? No way! She can't possibly love someone who only existed in her imagination, even if he is kind, and sweet, and smart, and NO STOP IT! I can't think like this!
But, as much as she tried to deny it, she knew that it was true. She had somehow fallen in love with the man who's face she had never seen, and who had no name either. She had fallen so completely, so TOTALLY that she knew there was no way she could deny it. Her every minute, of ever hour, was endurable because she knew that at the end of the day, she could always go to her one source of comfort.
She rushed up to her room, and sat on her bed. As she stared off into space, she couldn't get to her gray world fast enough. She had so many emotions welling up inside her. Love, anger, hurt, pain, and hope. She needed to share these emotions with someone soon, or she would explode.
**
Heero was once again waiting for Usagi. He just couldn't wait to see her again. Her very presence was joy in itself.
When she finally arrived, he noticed she had the strangest expression on her face. He couldn't quite place it, and he had never seen it on her before.
"Usa…are you ok? He asked. He knew that she had just gone once more through torture, because when she was, he was with her. Only her body was experiencing the pain, no longer her soul.
Totally and completely unexpectedly, he saw her burst into tears. It was shocking in and of itself, because he had never seen her cry here, and when she was in her body she was never able to cry either. He had been hoping she would let out the soothing tears soon, or else she would have no release for the pain she was in. Bottling pain in oneself never worked, but she had been stubborn, and hadn't allowed anyone to ever see her cry.
But he wasn't thinking about those things then. He was just shocked, that as soon as she burst into tears. She threw her arms around his neck, and buried her face in his shoulder.
They hadn't touched since they had first met, and the contact was like lightning on his senses. Slowly he did what had wanted to for so long, and wrapped his arms around. Heero started to make soothing sounds, and telling her that it would all be all right, and he would protect her. Nothing would be able to hurt her when he was around. He wasn't even aware of what he was saying, but just of the feelings the made the words come out of his mouth, trying to make her feel better.
He felt her slowly relax in his arms, as she shuddering sobs stopped. He was reluctant to let go, but when he started to move away, Usagi just clutched on tighter.
"Don't move…for now…just hold me." She quietly whispered in his ear, sending shivers up his spine.
And he was more than happy to oblige. They sat like that for what seemed like minutes, but was most likely hours. Heero knew that Usagi would have to leave soon, because the day was about to begin. He couldn't believe they had been there that long, but it was about to come to an end.
As Usagi got up to leave, he gently grabbed her wrist, so she couldn't walk away. She looked at him, curious as to what he would want to say. Finally knowing that it was time to tell her the words that had been in his heart for so long, he quietly said them. "You know I'd never do anything to hurt you Usa. I could never cause you pain…I love you." He had avoided saying those words for much to long now, because he wasn't sure how she would react.
The look on her face made her nervous. He couldn't really read the expression. Needing something to acknowledge his words, until he finally got his answer.
Usagi knelt down on her knees, and took his face in his hands.
**
Usagi couldn't believe what she had just heard. It was just so impossible to her ears, that someone, even in her imagination could ever love her. She didn't know what to say.
Kneeling down in front of the man she loved, she took his face in her hands. She tried to stare into his eyes, but like he had always been, all she saw was shadows. She tried to peer through them at the person underneath, but couldn't see anything. For a moment she thought she saw a flash of blue beneath the shadows, but she quickly put it out of her mind.
Here in front of her, was a man who was not real. She had no idea what he looked like, or even what his name was. Yet despite all of that, she felt like she knew him better than she had ever known anyone.
"You know, before I came here, I was about to give up on my life." She quietly whispered, pain echoing in her words. "I had no idea what to live for, so I tried to escape my life by coming here. I though I wouldn't find anything, but against all odds I found you. I feel I know you…even if I have never seen you, and I don't even know your name. You're the knight in shining armor from the old stories that saved me from my life. You're my hero…and that's all that matters. I tried not to, but I found that I couldn't help but fall in love with you. I love you my hero." She said, and then putting those words together to come up with something to call him she said. "I love you…Heero."
**
Heero felt shivers run down his spine, as he heard not only the words he had dreamed of hearing, but never thought he would. It was also the way she said his name, even without knowing that it wasn't just something to call him. He had wanted to hear that word come off her lips for so long, and it finally, in the most miraculous way had. And she had said she loved him.
As Heero watched Usagi walk away, and vanish into the mist, he only had one thought on his mind.
SHE LOVED HIM!!!!!!
**
I know, it's kinda corny, but I felt I had to put it in there SOMEWHERE.
REVIEW FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER!
Email me at sirencalling@yahoo.com if you have ANYTHIGN TO SAY! I want to hear from you! Here you have a perfect opportunity to criticize a writer, and actually have her listen to you! DON'T MISS OUT ON THIS!
Authors Notes- You know…as I was reflecting on my story, I realized one important thing. In the first chapter, I said the Usagi fell in love with Heero, after meeting him in the Shadow world. What I never said was how this happened. All I said was that She loved him, but I not only never said any details on their romance, but I never even said how they met! This chapter is just pure mush to fill in those empty spaces. I hope you enjoy it!
This chapter is dedicated to the reviewers who told me to get off my ass, and that I needed to get the chapter out NOW. I love it when people like something I did enough to be so forceful! Most especially to those who wrote the long ones that I look so forward to reading. I would say their names, but it seems that whenever I do that, I never hear from them again so I'll just avoid doing that…
ENJOY!
**
Kaninisha felt his daughter enter his world for the first time, and could barely contain his joy. Now that she was here, there was a chance that she could be saved. There were simply a few rules that he had to follow…
Appearing behind the now excited Heero, he firmly gripped his shoulder. Whispering in his ear so the girl so close couldn't hear, he told Heero some rules he had to follow, for the sake of them all.
"Under no circumstances are you to let her see you, tell her your name, or explain where we are. You can't tell her about your life, but be aware of one thing."
He saw Heero listening to him with a mixture of joy, anger, and wonder. "In her body, in case you haven't noticed, she is incomplete. That means there are parts of her personality that are blocked. Those blocks are only evident in her physical body though, so she no longer has those limitations when she's here. You can teach her things she never would understand, and most importantly, you can be here for her." He gave Heero a light shove in the direction of his daughter, and watched with a slight smile on his face as he saw the only hope for his daughter sanity slowly approaching her.
**
Usagi sat in her wheel chair, pausing from her tinkering on the remote. Suddenly one of the happiest moments in her life came back to her, the memory so strong, all she could do was revel in it.
**
She had been trapped in her depression for so long, her bruised and battered body a cage she couldn't hope to escape, and her life something she had no choice but to continue.
She had been seeking an escape from her body for some time now, and because of that she daydreamed often. She dreamed of what she would do if she could live her own life, and what it would be like. She explored her every imagination, like someone else would pour over the books in a library. She crept deeper and deeper inside of herself, until she was further in her mind than ever before.
(AN: OK OK! So her mind is different than others. She has a maze of a mind, like I said before. There are tunnels, and walls. WORK WITH ME HERE!)
She had no idea how it happened, but suddenly she was no longer sitting in her chair. The awareness of reality vanished like it had never been there, and like never before she was actually INSIDE her mind, and not just thinking. It was an invigorating and scary experience at the same time. At first she was frightened that she had gone insane, but then she decided that it didn't matter anymore…all that mattered was escape.
While before her mind had been full of color, and she pictured scenes in her head, it was now a misty gray. It wasn't depressing, like some might have thought it to be. No, instead the shadows seemed comforting, like a blanket wrapping around her, keeping her safe and warm.
In this new place, that wasn't really anywhere but her mind, she decided she might as well call out. See if she had imagined anyone in this place of hers.
She started faintly at first, not really expecting an answer. As she expected, there was no one, this place must just be the empty part of her mind, where nothing could exist. Just waste place, where nothing could exist. So deep in the recesses of her mind, that none of her dreams could exist in its peaceful shadows.
Just when she was about to wake up from her daydreaming, and go to a scout meeting, she felt more than saw or heard something, or someone else there.
"Hello! I know someone's out there. Don't think I don't! Why don't you just tell me where I am!" she called half-heartily called, not really expecting an answer, and wondering immediately why she had even bothered to ask such a silly question. She already knew where she was, so why bother asking?
She waited there, hands on her hips, and tapping her foot until she could get an answer. Once again she was quickly getting impatient, but she just couldn't bring herself to leave this place. It was just so peaceful, and she felt that if she were here, she could forget all of her worries.
Finally! Out of the darkness stepped what looked like a man. She wasn't really sure, because like the world around her, he was wrapped in shadows as well. Sometimes, she could almost swear she caught a glimpse of him, but it was gone as soon as she recognized it what she almost saw. He was slowly walking towards her, his every step seemed hesitant, like he was forcing himself to walk to her.
When he was only feet away, she the stupor that had come over her finally went away. Stepping a little closer, and holding out her hand, she said.
"Hello." And that was it. She didn't ask for his, or anything else.
"Hello…Usagi" She heard as an answer. She shouldn't have been surprised that he knew her name; after all, he DID live in her head. For some reason she found that she was. After all, she didn't know his, and he didn't seem to want to give it either.
**
Heero couldn't stop staring at that hand. Usagi could have no idea how hard it was not for him to grab it, and enfold her in a tight embrace that he would never release her from. His entire body shook, as he realized that YES she was here, and after all of the years of only being able to watch her, he could finally meet the angel that had stolen his heart.
Carefully, so as not to lose control, he shook her hand. Her skin was so soft…even if it was only an image of her soul, meeting up with an image of his. It didn't matter. All that did was that she was here.
**
End Flashback
**
He never told her his name, but he was able to get to know another side of her. She side that could talk to him, and tell him of her hopes and dreams. They quickly formed a bond, faster than he could have imagined, she came to know him, even without REALLY knowing about his life. He could share his hobbies, and his loves (he didn't share his biggest one yet) and he found himself falling even more in love with her than he could have though possible. He thought he couldn't fall any farther for the girl, but she proved him wrong. What was the most important to him though, was that when she was here, he was finally able to comfort her. She finally knew she wasn't alone, and he was able to give her that.
**
Flashback
**
She was late. It didn't matter that it wasn't her fault, and she had passed out on her 'date' with her 'boyfriend'. Her parents would be angry with her that she was getting home over an hour late from her curfew, and she would have to listen to them.
Just like she had though, she received quite the 'lecture'. She just couldn't bring herself to care. All she could think about was going up to her room, so she could once again spend time with Heero. He didn't need to know about her life to be her friend, and she loved him for it.
WAIT A MINUTE!! Did she just THINK that she LOVED him!? No way! She can't possibly love someone who only existed in her imagination, even if he is kind, and sweet, and smart, and NO STOP IT! I can't think like this!
But, as much as she tried to deny it, she knew that it was true. She had somehow fallen in love with the man who's face she had never seen, and who had no name either. She had fallen so completely, so TOTALLY that she knew there was no way she could deny it. Her every minute, of ever hour, was endurable because she knew that at the end of the day, she could always go to her one source of comfort.
She rushed up to her room, and sat on her bed. As she stared off into space, she couldn't get to her gray world fast enough. She had so many emotions welling up inside her. Love, anger, hurt, pain, and hope. She needed to share these emotions with someone soon, or she would explode.
**
Heero was once again waiting for Usagi. He just couldn't wait to see her again. Her very presence was joy in itself.
When she finally arrived, he noticed she had the strangest expression on her face. He couldn't quite place it, and he had never seen it on her before.
"Usa…are you ok? He asked. He knew that she had just gone once more through torture, because when she was, he was with her. Only her body was experiencing the pain, no longer her soul.
Totally and completely unexpectedly, he saw her burst into tears. It was shocking in and of itself, because he had never seen her cry here, and when she was in her body she was never able to cry either. He had been hoping she would let out the soothing tears soon, or else she would have no release for the pain she was in. Bottling pain in oneself never worked, but she had been stubborn, and hadn't allowed anyone to ever see her cry.
But he wasn't thinking about those things then. He was just shocked, that as soon as she burst into tears. She threw her arms around his neck, and buried her face in his shoulder.
They hadn't touched since they had first met, and the contact was like lightning on his senses. Slowly he did what had wanted to for so long, and wrapped his arms around. Heero started to make soothing sounds, and telling her that it would all be all right, and he would protect her. Nothing would be able to hurt her when he was around. He wasn't even aware of what he was saying, but just of the feelings the made the words come out of his mouth, trying to make her feel better.
He felt her slowly relax in his arms, as she shuddering sobs stopped. He was reluctant to let go, but when he started to move away, Usagi just clutched on tighter.
"Don't move…for now…just hold me." She quietly whispered in his ear, sending shivers up his spine.
And he was more than happy to oblige. They sat like that for what seemed like minutes, but was most likely hours. Heero knew that Usagi would have to leave soon, because the day was about to begin. He couldn't believe they had been there that long, but it was about to come to an end.
As Usagi got up to leave, he gently grabbed her wrist, so she couldn't walk away. She looked at him, curious as to what he would want to say. Finally knowing that it was time to tell her the words that had been in his heart for so long, he quietly said them. "You know I'd never do anything to hurt you Usa. I could never cause you pain…I love you." He had avoided saying those words for much to long now, because he wasn't sure how she would react.
The look on her face made her nervous. He couldn't really read the expression. Needing something to acknowledge his words, until he finally got his answer.
Usagi knelt down on her knees, and took his face in his hands.
**
Usagi couldn't believe what she had just heard. It was just so impossible to her ears, that someone, even in her imagination could ever love her. She didn't know what to say.
Kneeling down in front of the man she loved, she took his face in her hands. She tried to stare into his eyes, but like he had always been, all she saw was shadows. She tried to peer through them at the person underneath, but couldn't see anything. For a moment she thought she saw a flash of blue beneath the shadows, but she quickly put it out of her mind.
Here in front of her, was a man who was not real. She had no idea what he looked like, or even what his name was. Yet despite all of that, she felt like she knew him better than she had ever known anyone.
"You know, before I came here, I was about to give up on my life." She quietly whispered, pain echoing in her words. "I had no idea what to live for, so I tried to escape my life by coming here. I though I wouldn't find anything, but against all odds I found you. I feel I know you…even if I have never seen you, and I don't even know your name. You're the knight in shining armor from the old stories that saved me from my life. You're my hero…and that's all that matters. I tried not to, but I found that I couldn't help but fall in love with you. I love you my hero." She said, and then putting those words together to come up with something to call him she said. "I love you…Heero."
**
Heero felt shivers run down his spine, as he heard not only the words he had dreamed of hearing, but never thought he would. It was also the way she said his name, even without knowing that it wasn't just something to call him. He had wanted to hear that word come off her lips for so long, and it finally, in the most miraculous way had. And she had said she loved him.
As Heero watched Usagi walk away, and vanish into the mist, he only had one thought on his mind.
SHE LOVED HIM!!!!!!
**
I know, it's kinda corny, but I felt I had to put it in there SOMEWHERE.
REVIEW FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER!
Email me at sirencalling@yahoo.com if you have ANYTHIGN TO SAY! I want to hear from you! Here you have a perfect opportunity to criticize a writer, and actually have her listen to you! DON'T MISS OUT ON THIS!