Sorry I haven't written in so long, but I've had a writers block the size
of Texas. Hope you enjoy!
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Aria became almost an extention of Usagi as she sat in her wheel-chair and played. She stared off into space, and did nothing but strum on the strings, and sing her emotions into a strange, unearthly song. She didn't worry about her past, or her future. She was wholly in the present, and nothing else mattered. She completely forgot for those few moments of anything else but the trance she was in, and even though she knew it would end, didn't want to face that truth.
**
Sonya couldn't look away from the X-rays that she had just finished The diagrams she had studied all of her medical career made her capable of reading them, but that didn't help brace her for the truth on them. The truth that she didn't want to face. Even though Amei had been silent, and unwilling to become close to anyone, least of all her, Sonya had developed a genuine liking for the small girl. She seemed to real in this world of liars, and her plight made Sonya feel sympathy for her. And that's why she hated having to go in that room and tell her what she didn't deserve to have to face. The truth.
**
A soft knocking on the door started Usagi out of her trance, and she tried not to feel irritated at it. "Come in!" She called, wanting to get this over with as soon as possible so she could go back to playing…just for a few more minutes…
Sonya walked into the room, her brown hair was tousled, and she looked in pretty bad shape, like she had lost sleep or something. "Sonya, are you alright? What was it you wanted?" Usagi asked, wanting to know what it was hat her nurse wanted. It wasn't time for one of her torture meals, so what could it be. Sonya was normally in the background, and never came unless she was needed. It wasn't her fault that they hadn't spent much time together. Usagi just hadn't wanted to get to know anyone after her trust had been broken by one person that she thought she loved, and the person she knew she did. She was closed up in herself, like she was before only she wasn't pretending to be Ok. She didn't want to get to know these new people for fear of being hurt. Usagi smirked slightly at the irony. So different from the cheerful loudmouth who thought no one could do wrong, and whose highlight of her day was to meet someone knew. Another person entirely…
"I hate to be the one to tell you this, but I'm afraid I have some bad news." Those words got Usagi's attention better than anything else could. Bad news was something she had become used to for the past couple of weeks, but what else could possibly go wrong? Part of Usagi was curious to find out what it was, but another part of her wished to be oblivious to just another thing that would go wrong with her life. She didn't have any option to whether she would find out or not.
"It wasn't just this last knife wound that hurt you. You've suffered severe muscle damage prior to this relatively new injury, none of which have had time to fully heal. Your entire body is one big mess, and I don't think that you will ever be completely better in that way. But that's not all. You had quite a large knife, and when it entered your body is scraped against your spinal cord, rendering you paralyzed from the waist down. I'm so sorry that you have to hear this, but you will never be able to leave your wheel-chair. On the up-side, I do hope you have your internal organs healed enough for you to eat sometime in the future. It will not be for quite a long time though." She words hit Usagi like a ton of bricks. When she heard bad news, she expected to hear something she didn't want to…but this….To be stuck in her wheel-chair for the rest of her life, never to run or play again…it was just horrible! She knew Sonya had given her all of the bad news, and hadn't given her any false hope…and Usagi mentally thanked her for that. It didn't make it any easier though…
Usagi forcibly reigned in her mind, to keep herself from succumbing to total panic. She almost didn't realize it when she said.: "Sonya, do you think I could be alone for a while? I'd really appreciate it." And she almost didn't see Sonya walk out the door, she was so busy keeping herself from going into a total panic. That was the last thing she needed. The last time she had paniked, she had managed to completely ruin her life, by trying to end it. She never wanted to lose control of herself like that ever again.
But it was just so hard! It seemed like everything that could of gone wrong…had. She had this empty life, where she was nothing but a shell ever since she had been born. Part of her cut off from her, a piece of her soul missing. And then when she was only 14 years old she had this life thrust on her, that she never wanted, and for the sake of everyone she loved she had to live. And if it seemed like it couldn't get any worse she thought she fell in love with this guy, and had found her soul mate, but her had turned into a abusive bastard who gained a small amount of pleasure from hurting her, and she couldn't get out of it for fear of being trapped in lifetimes of misery. But she found someone who she really DID love, and she have her entire heart and soul too. But he had LEFT her, and she tried to kill herself. In a whirlwind of events she found out about her physical change where her entire appearance was completely transformed. And THEN she found out that when she thought she was just imagining the shadow world it was real, and her ability to go there had something to do with her mother. And THEN she found herself in this house, with all of these crazy people…and she was forced to face the fact that she would never walk again….
But the worst of all of it was she could of prevented all of this from happening, if she hadn't been so physically weak. If she could of just protected herself, she could of stopped Mamoru, she could of protected herself. When she was Sailor Moon her friends were always putting themselves in jepoardy in order to protect her, because she couldn't do it herself. She was too slow, and not nearly strong enough. And she would never be able to change that because now she would never be able to walk…
Or could she…
But she couldn't do that! She might be able to use the silver crystal in order to heal herself…but she wasn't strong enough to try. Every time she used the crystal…she nearly died. And that was when she was in relatively good health. To even try it now would most likely hurt her more than it could ever help…but what did she have to lose?
If she did die in the attempt, what would she lose? Her family and all of her friends already thought she was dead, and if she really did die here, who would tell the difference between the 2 ways she died, all that would matter was that she was gone. And then there were these people, they might mourn her loss at first, but they didn't know her nearly enough to care about her death for more than a few minutes. Then they would go on with their daily life.
It wasn't that she WANTED to die. She had gotten over that days ago, but she didn't want to live like she was now. She couldn't go on not able to do anything for herself. Not even able to walk…especially when there was a chance, as slim as it might be to heal herself.
She wasn't worried about anyone finding her with the silver crystal. Sonya would keep them out, so thinking she needed them time to come to terms with the news she had just been given.
Usagi closed her eyes
Usagi carefully activated her sub-space pocket, where she had put the Silver Crystal when she came to this dimension.
It looked just like it had last time she had seen it. Beautiful and glowing a pure white. It was strange to think that such a beautiful thing could have the potential to cause so much destruction…so much pain. But in the end it wasn't the fault of the crystal that people were willing to kill to obtain the power it contains. It was just a tool to channel and magnify whatever power the user put into it.
Usagi's eyes snapped up, surprise on her face. 'Where did that come from!' she frantically thought. She had never even considered that it could magnify power that was put into it before now; she always assumed that it was made of energy, and that was why it would work. But it just seemed so right that they power came from inside…almost like she had heard it before…
Usagi shut her eyes, and prepared herself to try to use the Crystal. She reached inside her, like she had so many times to access to strength to do so.
Before she knew it, she was in front of a door…and it was shut.
'What the hell is going on! I already know how to use the silver crystal…why would I go to a part of myself that was blocked off? This doesn't make any sense!' She thought as she stood in front of the door. What on earth could be behind it…and would she want to know?
'What the heck.' She thought, and pulled the key out of midair. Slowly and with infinite care, she placed it on the door, and it opened. As soon as it did, the hallway fell away and she surrounded by white.
A few feet in front of her, suspended in mid-air hung a small glowing orb. It radiated a pure white, much like that of the silver crystal, only much more bright than it had ever shone. It seemed to pulse with an energy all it's own, and Usagi ached to touch it.
Cautiously she took one step, and then another. Before she had time to prepare herself she was in front of the orb, and her hand was already inches away from touching it.
Treating it like the smallest breath could shatter it into pieces, Usagi placed her right index finger on it.
As soon as she made physical contact with the orb, she was back in her body again. She was sitting in her wheel chair, just like she had been minutes before…except for one thing.
Now she radiated the same white energy that the glowing orb was. Her entire body was tingling, from her fingers, all the way to her toes. She felt like she was on fire, a mixture of the most exquisite pleasure, but also the slightest bit of pain. She had managed to access part of her that had been kept from her for so long, and she felt like she could do anything.
Sometimes she wondered why it was that the other scouts could use their powers without any physical strain, and the only time they ever came even close to dying was when they were physically hurt. Jupiter could shoot lightning, and Mars could shoot fire…but their energy was never depleted. They must have something in them much like she had just found. An inner power that they could manipulate and control, and use for their benefit. But it was only the power they were using, and when it was depleted, or used, it wouldn't hurt them because all that would happen was that the power would be temporarily used up, and not hurt them physically. So unlike her who could use the silver crystal, or shoot moonbeams…but the strain would nearly kill her.
But one question stood out in her mind. 'If I didn't have access to this power…how was I able to do anything? How was it possible for me to destroy meteorites, or to defeat powerful foes…if she didn't have the power in which to do it? Where did it come from?'
Usagi thought about it for a few minutes, knowing that the answer was incredibly important. If she couldn't use the well of light energy she got from her mother, what was it she used?
One option stood open, but Usagi didn't want to accept it. It would make so much sense, but it was just so horrible to even consider. The only other energy, or power she possessed…was her life energy…
But how could she do that? Use the power she needed to live to use the silver crystal, to throw a tiara…it seemed impossible to even suggest. It just made so much sense. If she used her life force whenever she fought, it would explain why it was so tiring on her. Every time she used the silver crystal, she wasn't using it like it was meant to be. She wasn't using a power inside her, but still not needed to survive. She had used the power that kept her alive, and every time she used it…it would kill her. Once it as gone, gone for good, she couldn't heal and have it come back like she did before. She would have killed herself, and that would be the end. All because it was locked away. She could have defeated those enemies with ease if she had access to this immense power she had in her hands right now. With a mere thought she could do what was so hard before.
And it could also explain why she was always stumbling over her own feet when she tried to fight, and why she was always so tired after she became Sailor Moon, she was in a constant state of being drained, and she was lucky her body didn't completely shut down!
Usagi couldn't believe all of the thoughts and new ideas that were swirling like a tornado through her brain. Answers to questions she had never asked, and it all made so much sense now. If only she had known sooner.
But all of this could wait. Right now her body was hurting, and she was getting sick and tired of sitting in this terrible chair. Her torture device. She wanted to be able to walk again, and she wanted the pain to finally stop. And now she knew how.
Usagi let the energy run through her body for a few seconds, getting used to the feel of it. Then she carefully used some of it to channel to her body. With infinite care she concentrated it on specific parts of her body, but mainly her stomach and spine. She didn't know how it worked, but it seemed like the longer she was on fire with white power, and the longer it ran through her body, she knew she was healing…especially the parts of her that she was concentrating it on.
After what felt like a few minutes, but was most likely longer than that, Usagi stopped her inner treatment. She wasn't 100% better, there were still a few scrapes, and she was definitely going to have scars, but she had done the impossible. She had healed herself so that it was like she had been hurt years ago, and she had repaired parts of her body that should never have been. Ami would have a field day with this, especially with her love of medicine, and her desire to become a doctor. Whenever Hotaru healed someone, she would become exhausted just like when Usagi used the silver crystal. But Usagi didn't think it was for the same reasons. And here she was, in just a short amount of time healed of her injuries…and she wasn't even tired…
She wanted so badly to get up and start jumping on the bed. So go out and show the world that she was once more in one piece, and to roll around in a grassy field. But she knew that it was only daydreams. After all, what would her hosts, who had taken her in during her time of need, think of that? And what would Sonya think? She had been near death not too long ago, and had just found out that she would never walk again. So what would they think if she was all of the sudden miraculously better? Would they think she was a freak, or a liar? Any way she looked at it, it couldn't be good.
So with nothing to do, and all of this new energy that needed to be released, Usagi did the only thing that she could without arousing suspicion. She entered her mind.
She didn't want to go to the Shadow Realm right then, that place had too many memories. What she wanted was answers, and she wasn't going to give up until she found them. She wanted to know what her life was like when she lived in the Silver Millennium. What was her mother like, and what was the father she didn't remember like? And Mamoru mentioned once that they had never been in love in the Silver Millennium, so what was it like? She had this feeling that it wasn't all happy and joyful like she had once thought it was. That there was much more than the memories she received when she first turned into the Princess, and those were just an illusion to keep her from the truth.
Usagi opened her figurative eye, and wasn't the slightest bit surprised to see that she was standing in front of a door. And she knew that behind that one door, was all of the answers to the questions the couldn't ask, and information that was important to her. But most of all, she felt that there were happy times that she needed to know. Childhood memories that back then she never wanted to forget, but had.
Usagi lifted the key that appeared in her hand, and placed it on the door. As soon as it touched the barrier of her memories, Usagi was swept away by the images, and the knowledge of her past…
**
I know I know, it wasn't very good. I've had this enormous writers block since the last chapter, and I haven't been able to decide what to do next. Then it came to me, I could do a story about her past. I plan on posting it separately, and it won't be 'she remembered everything, and she was glad to know about her childhood' or anything like that. It will be a full story like inner strength, only hopefully better. It will answer questions about her life as a princess, and I might even put Heero and some of the Gundam guys in it. Heero will be a definite, so I hope it fills your appetite for real interaction between them, because there will be plenty of it.
You can find it in the future under the title "Swept away by the tide of the past"
And remember to review. I'd love to hear your comments on what I should have in the story. I plan on having somewhat middle ages, fantasy theme on earth, and could use come advice on what I should have. Also tell me anything else you might want to, and that offer includes flames.
I would also appreciate it if you could PLEASE read 'A feather and a flame' it's a story written by Mars Fire Goddess, and myself. I'm sure you'd like it, and just wanted to notify you that it's out there, and you can read it if you want to.
Email me at sirencalling@yahoo.com if you have ANYTHING to say.
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Aria became almost an extention of Usagi as she sat in her wheel-chair and played. She stared off into space, and did nothing but strum on the strings, and sing her emotions into a strange, unearthly song. She didn't worry about her past, or her future. She was wholly in the present, and nothing else mattered. She completely forgot for those few moments of anything else but the trance she was in, and even though she knew it would end, didn't want to face that truth.
**
Sonya couldn't look away from the X-rays that she had just finished The diagrams she had studied all of her medical career made her capable of reading them, but that didn't help brace her for the truth on them. The truth that she didn't want to face. Even though Amei had been silent, and unwilling to become close to anyone, least of all her, Sonya had developed a genuine liking for the small girl. She seemed to real in this world of liars, and her plight made Sonya feel sympathy for her. And that's why she hated having to go in that room and tell her what she didn't deserve to have to face. The truth.
**
A soft knocking on the door started Usagi out of her trance, and she tried not to feel irritated at it. "Come in!" She called, wanting to get this over with as soon as possible so she could go back to playing…just for a few more minutes…
Sonya walked into the room, her brown hair was tousled, and she looked in pretty bad shape, like she had lost sleep or something. "Sonya, are you alright? What was it you wanted?" Usagi asked, wanting to know what it was hat her nurse wanted. It wasn't time for one of her torture meals, so what could it be. Sonya was normally in the background, and never came unless she was needed. It wasn't her fault that they hadn't spent much time together. Usagi just hadn't wanted to get to know anyone after her trust had been broken by one person that she thought she loved, and the person she knew she did. She was closed up in herself, like she was before only she wasn't pretending to be Ok. She didn't want to get to know these new people for fear of being hurt. Usagi smirked slightly at the irony. So different from the cheerful loudmouth who thought no one could do wrong, and whose highlight of her day was to meet someone knew. Another person entirely…
"I hate to be the one to tell you this, but I'm afraid I have some bad news." Those words got Usagi's attention better than anything else could. Bad news was something she had become used to for the past couple of weeks, but what else could possibly go wrong? Part of Usagi was curious to find out what it was, but another part of her wished to be oblivious to just another thing that would go wrong with her life. She didn't have any option to whether she would find out or not.
"It wasn't just this last knife wound that hurt you. You've suffered severe muscle damage prior to this relatively new injury, none of which have had time to fully heal. Your entire body is one big mess, and I don't think that you will ever be completely better in that way. But that's not all. You had quite a large knife, and when it entered your body is scraped against your spinal cord, rendering you paralyzed from the waist down. I'm so sorry that you have to hear this, but you will never be able to leave your wheel-chair. On the up-side, I do hope you have your internal organs healed enough for you to eat sometime in the future. It will not be for quite a long time though." She words hit Usagi like a ton of bricks. When she heard bad news, she expected to hear something she didn't want to…but this….To be stuck in her wheel-chair for the rest of her life, never to run or play again…it was just horrible! She knew Sonya had given her all of the bad news, and hadn't given her any false hope…and Usagi mentally thanked her for that. It didn't make it any easier though…
Usagi forcibly reigned in her mind, to keep herself from succumbing to total panic. She almost didn't realize it when she said.: "Sonya, do you think I could be alone for a while? I'd really appreciate it." And she almost didn't see Sonya walk out the door, she was so busy keeping herself from going into a total panic. That was the last thing she needed. The last time she had paniked, she had managed to completely ruin her life, by trying to end it. She never wanted to lose control of herself like that ever again.
But it was just so hard! It seemed like everything that could of gone wrong…had. She had this empty life, where she was nothing but a shell ever since she had been born. Part of her cut off from her, a piece of her soul missing. And then when she was only 14 years old she had this life thrust on her, that she never wanted, and for the sake of everyone she loved she had to live. And if it seemed like it couldn't get any worse she thought she fell in love with this guy, and had found her soul mate, but her had turned into a abusive bastard who gained a small amount of pleasure from hurting her, and she couldn't get out of it for fear of being trapped in lifetimes of misery. But she found someone who she really DID love, and she have her entire heart and soul too. But he had LEFT her, and she tried to kill herself. In a whirlwind of events she found out about her physical change where her entire appearance was completely transformed. And THEN she found out that when she thought she was just imagining the shadow world it was real, and her ability to go there had something to do with her mother. And THEN she found herself in this house, with all of these crazy people…and she was forced to face the fact that she would never walk again….
But the worst of all of it was she could of prevented all of this from happening, if she hadn't been so physically weak. If she could of just protected herself, she could of stopped Mamoru, she could of protected herself. When she was Sailor Moon her friends were always putting themselves in jepoardy in order to protect her, because she couldn't do it herself. She was too slow, and not nearly strong enough. And she would never be able to change that because now she would never be able to walk…
Or could she…
But she couldn't do that! She might be able to use the silver crystal in order to heal herself…but she wasn't strong enough to try. Every time she used the crystal…she nearly died. And that was when she was in relatively good health. To even try it now would most likely hurt her more than it could ever help…but what did she have to lose?
If she did die in the attempt, what would she lose? Her family and all of her friends already thought she was dead, and if she really did die here, who would tell the difference between the 2 ways she died, all that would matter was that she was gone. And then there were these people, they might mourn her loss at first, but they didn't know her nearly enough to care about her death for more than a few minutes. Then they would go on with their daily life.
It wasn't that she WANTED to die. She had gotten over that days ago, but she didn't want to live like she was now. She couldn't go on not able to do anything for herself. Not even able to walk…especially when there was a chance, as slim as it might be to heal herself.
She wasn't worried about anyone finding her with the silver crystal. Sonya would keep them out, so thinking she needed them time to come to terms with the news she had just been given.
Usagi closed her eyes
Usagi carefully activated her sub-space pocket, where she had put the Silver Crystal when she came to this dimension.
It looked just like it had last time she had seen it. Beautiful and glowing a pure white. It was strange to think that such a beautiful thing could have the potential to cause so much destruction…so much pain. But in the end it wasn't the fault of the crystal that people were willing to kill to obtain the power it contains. It was just a tool to channel and magnify whatever power the user put into it.
Usagi's eyes snapped up, surprise on her face. 'Where did that come from!' she frantically thought. She had never even considered that it could magnify power that was put into it before now; she always assumed that it was made of energy, and that was why it would work. But it just seemed so right that they power came from inside…almost like she had heard it before…
Usagi shut her eyes, and prepared herself to try to use the Crystal. She reached inside her, like she had so many times to access to strength to do so.
Before she knew it, she was in front of a door…and it was shut.
'What the hell is going on! I already know how to use the silver crystal…why would I go to a part of myself that was blocked off? This doesn't make any sense!' She thought as she stood in front of the door. What on earth could be behind it…and would she want to know?
'What the heck.' She thought, and pulled the key out of midair. Slowly and with infinite care, she placed it on the door, and it opened. As soon as it did, the hallway fell away and she surrounded by white.
A few feet in front of her, suspended in mid-air hung a small glowing orb. It radiated a pure white, much like that of the silver crystal, only much more bright than it had ever shone. It seemed to pulse with an energy all it's own, and Usagi ached to touch it.
Cautiously she took one step, and then another. Before she had time to prepare herself she was in front of the orb, and her hand was already inches away from touching it.
Treating it like the smallest breath could shatter it into pieces, Usagi placed her right index finger on it.
As soon as she made physical contact with the orb, she was back in her body again. She was sitting in her wheel chair, just like she had been minutes before…except for one thing.
Now she radiated the same white energy that the glowing orb was. Her entire body was tingling, from her fingers, all the way to her toes. She felt like she was on fire, a mixture of the most exquisite pleasure, but also the slightest bit of pain. She had managed to access part of her that had been kept from her for so long, and she felt like she could do anything.
Sometimes she wondered why it was that the other scouts could use their powers without any physical strain, and the only time they ever came even close to dying was when they were physically hurt. Jupiter could shoot lightning, and Mars could shoot fire…but their energy was never depleted. They must have something in them much like she had just found. An inner power that they could manipulate and control, and use for their benefit. But it was only the power they were using, and when it was depleted, or used, it wouldn't hurt them because all that would happen was that the power would be temporarily used up, and not hurt them physically. So unlike her who could use the silver crystal, or shoot moonbeams…but the strain would nearly kill her.
But one question stood out in her mind. 'If I didn't have access to this power…how was I able to do anything? How was it possible for me to destroy meteorites, or to defeat powerful foes…if she didn't have the power in which to do it? Where did it come from?'
Usagi thought about it for a few minutes, knowing that the answer was incredibly important. If she couldn't use the well of light energy she got from her mother, what was it she used?
One option stood open, but Usagi didn't want to accept it. It would make so much sense, but it was just so horrible to even consider. The only other energy, or power she possessed…was her life energy…
But how could she do that? Use the power she needed to live to use the silver crystal, to throw a tiara…it seemed impossible to even suggest. It just made so much sense. If she used her life force whenever she fought, it would explain why it was so tiring on her. Every time she used the silver crystal, she wasn't using it like it was meant to be. She wasn't using a power inside her, but still not needed to survive. She had used the power that kept her alive, and every time she used it…it would kill her. Once it as gone, gone for good, she couldn't heal and have it come back like she did before. She would have killed herself, and that would be the end. All because it was locked away. She could have defeated those enemies with ease if she had access to this immense power she had in her hands right now. With a mere thought she could do what was so hard before.
And it could also explain why she was always stumbling over her own feet when she tried to fight, and why she was always so tired after she became Sailor Moon, she was in a constant state of being drained, and she was lucky her body didn't completely shut down!
Usagi couldn't believe all of the thoughts and new ideas that were swirling like a tornado through her brain. Answers to questions she had never asked, and it all made so much sense now. If only she had known sooner.
But all of this could wait. Right now her body was hurting, and she was getting sick and tired of sitting in this terrible chair. Her torture device. She wanted to be able to walk again, and she wanted the pain to finally stop. And now she knew how.
Usagi let the energy run through her body for a few seconds, getting used to the feel of it. Then she carefully used some of it to channel to her body. With infinite care she concentrated it on specific parts of her body, but mainly her stomach and spine. She didn't know how it worked, but it seemed like the longer she was on fire with white power, and the longer it ran through her body, she knew she was healing…especially the parts of her that she was concentrating it on.
After what felt like a few minutes, but was most likely longer than that, Usagi stopped her inner treatment. She wasn't 100% better, there were still a few scrapes, and she was definitely going to have scars, but she had done the impossible. She had healed herself so that it was like she had been hurt years ago, and she had repaired parts of her body that should never have been. Ami would have a field day with this, especially with her love of medicine, and her desire to become a doctor. Whenever Hotaru healed someone, she would become exhausted just like when Usagi used the silver crystal. But Usagi didn't think it was for the same reasons. And here she was, in just a short amount of time healed of her injuries…and she wasn't even tired…
She wanted so badly to get up and start jumping on the bed. So go out and show the world that she was once more in one piece, and to roll around in a grassy field. But she knew that it was only daydreams. After all, what would her hosts, who had taken her in during her time of need, think of that? And what would Sonya think? She had been near death not too long ago, and had just found out that she would never walk again. So what would they think if she was all of the sudden miraculously better? Would they think she was a freak, or a liar? Any way she looked at it, it couldn't be good.
So with nothing to do, and all of this new energy that needed to be released, Usagi did the only thing that she could without arousing suspicion. She entered her mind.
She didn't want to go to the Shadow Realm right then, that place had too many memories. What she wanted was answers, and she wasn't going to give up until she found them. She wanted to know what her life was like when she lived in the Silver Millennium. What was her mother like, and what was the father she didn't remember like? And Mamoru mentioned once that they had never been in love in the Silver Millennium, so what was it like? She had this feeling that it wasn't all happy and joyful like she had once thought it was. That there was much more than the memories she received when she first turned into the Princess, and those were just an illusion to keep her from the truth.
Usagi opened her figurative eye, and wasn't the slightest bit surprised to see that she was standing in front of a door. And she knew that behind that one door, was all of the answers to the questions the couldn't ask, and information that was important to her. But most of all, she felt that there were happy times that she needed to know. Childhood memories that back then she never wanted to forget, but had.
Usagi lifted the key that appeared in her hand, and placed it on the door. As soon as it touched the barrier of her memories, Usagi was swept away by the images, and the knowledge of her past…
**
I know I know, it wasn't very good. I've had this enormous writers block since the last chapter, and I haven't been able to decide what to do next. Then it came to me, I could do a story about her past. I plan on posting it separately, and it won't be 'she remembered everything, and she was glad to know about her childhood' or anything like that. It will be a full story like inner strength, only hopefully better. It will answer questions about her life as a princess, and I might even put Heero and some of the Gundam guys in it. Heero will be a definite, so I hope it fills your appetite for real interaction between them, because there will be plenty of it.
You can find it in the future under the title "Swept away by the tide of the past"
And remember to review. I'd love to hear your comments on what I should have in the story. I plan on having somewhat middle ages, fantasy theme on earth, and could use come advice on what I should have. Also tell me anything else you might want to, and that offer includes flames.
I would also appreciate it if you could PLEASE read 'A feather and a flame' it's a story written by Mars Fire Goddess, and myself. I'm sure you'd like it, and just wanted to notify you that it's out there, and you can read it if you want to.
Email me at sirencalling@yahoo.com if you have ANYTHING to say.