A/N: I know that my fanfic isn't like the anime; it's more on the book side. I just feel so torn, I have so many ideas, but I can't write it down. I really want that both the anime fans and the book fans to like it, but we all know that's impossible. My bad self-confidence is taking over and I hate it. This is my first fanfic ever and I forgot to mention that English is not my first language, it's actually my third. So if you really want me to continue this story, please write to me, it will help.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters, but I wish that I did!

Chapter 3 I which Howl visit Mrs Fairfax and gets a nightmare.

Howl's POV.

I was flying over the town of Ingary. The sky was blue and clear and it wasn't even one cloud in the sky. The houses and the pupils of this country looked like ants, so tiny and small. People can be so complicated sometimes. Especially, people like Sophie. The first time I met this girl was three months ago, when I saved her from two crazy soldiers and then I met her again, but I didn't recognize her because she was a 90 year old woman. She had a curse. Time runs so fast… Anyway, she became like a family member with me, Calcifer and Michael. She stayed with us and it became natural when she served us breakfast, lunch and dinner. Sophie helped me when I was ill and she cleaned our castle. Our castle? Oh, I mean MY castle. I can't believe that the girl I loved was right in front of me! Was I that blind? I've been out on many dates with different kind of girls just to find someone like her. I have even gone out with her sister!

I wonder what Sophie is doing right now. Maybe she is crying somewhere because of me. I feel so bad. Or perhaps she went out with another guy who is more gentle and kind than I am. Maybe he looks better than me! No, it can't be! I have to find her, before anyone else does!

I landed in front of Mrs Fairfax house.

End of POV

Howl transformed himself to a human and then he knocked on Mrs Fairfax's door. The door opened and Mrs Fairfax smiled gently at Howl.

"Oh, hello Mr Jenkins", she said. "What brings you here, in a beautiful afternoon like this?"

"I need to talk to you, Mrs Fairfax. Something bad have happened", the wizard said.

Mrs Fairfax looked chocked.

"Come in", she said.

Mrs Fairfax showed Howl to the living room. He sat down in the sofa and Mrs Fairfax brings some tea and chocolate cookies.

"I can't talk about serious stuff without some tea," she said with a smile. "So, what's going on?"

"Sophie is gone," Howl said. "She left us yesterday. Have you seen her?"

Mrs Fairfax looked down at her knees.

"I'm sorry, Howl," she answered. "I haven't seen her for a long time, I'm afraid. Even Lettie hasn't seen her.

Howl couldn't take it anymore. He began to cry:

"She hates me!"

Not even Mrs Fairfax and Lettie knew where Sophie was. Sophie didn't want to be found by anyone. She wants to disappear forever. The pain in Howl's heart was even bigger than before.

"Oh Howl, did I say something wrong?" Mrs Fairfax asked worriedly.

"No, I'm ok", he answered.

"No, you're lying. Maybe you could ask the king for help?"

"The king? No, he can't help me with these kinds of problems." Howl cried even more.

Suddenly, the door opened and Lettie came in.

"Hello Mrs Fairfax, I've shopped the Christmas gifts as you wished…what the…"

Lettie looked at Howl. The crying wizard's body started to produce green slime all over the floor.

"This is so disgusting!" Lettie said chocked. "Howl, you have to stop!"

Howl wasn't listening. He cried and cried.

"We have to do something! "Mrs Fairfax said.

"We can use some magic powers and take him to the bathroom," Lettie said. "I remember that Sophie told me this when I met her the last time."

"Well, that's a good idea."

They took him to the bathroom and after the bath; they took Howl to the living room.

"Now you have to tell us what's going on!" Lettie said.

And Howl told about the fight he had with Sophie.

"Maybe you need some rest. We have a guestroom, I can show you, "Mrs Fairfax said.

"Oh, thanks", the wizard said with a tired voice.

Mrs Fairfax showed Howl the guestroom and Howl went straight to bed.

"Where am I? "

Howl waked up. He wasn't in the guestroom. He was walking on green grass and suddenly a castle showed up. It was his castle! He went into the castle. The rooms looked the same. But then he saw Sophie. She was cleaning the floor.

"Sophie!" He shouted. "Oh Sophie!" He ran to Sophie and hugged her.

"Oh Sophie, I'm so sorry! Please don't leave me again! I love you so much!

Howl was holding Sophie in his arms. He won't let her go.

"I love you", he whispered in her ear. And I won't let you go away from me."

Howl was happy. He had Sophie in his arms and now, nothing could stop him. But suddenly, Sophie's eyes began to glow and her skin was colder than before. Howl felt a strange power inside Sophie's body.

"Sophie! What's going on?"

Sophie looked at Howl's face with no emotion. Then she touched his face with her right hand.

"I can't be with you," she whispered.

"Why not? Are you angry with me? Are you all right Sophie? I know that something is wrong!"

"I can't be with you because I belong to him now."

"Him? Who are you talking about!"

A man appeared behind her. His face was hidden by a hat.

"Come to me, Sophie", he said.

"Who is this man? Sophie, please tell me!" the wizard shouted desperately at Sophie.

Her eyes started to glow again. A tear was falling down from her cheek.

"I can't tell you," she said. "If I tell you, he will kill you. And I won't let him do that.

Sophie's body began to fly. The girl touched Howl's face with her hands. Her brown eyes looked at the wizard's face. She saw that her beloved Howl was crying, and she was feeling sadness and pain as well.

"Please forgive me", Howl, Sophie said. "For everything bad I said to you. You have to move on and forget about me. It's the best for us."

"No Sophie, please. Let me help you! Just say who this man is!"

"Don't make it any harder for me", she said. "This is my decision and you have to accept it."

Her lips reached Howl's and she kissed him softly.

"I love you, my wizard. I want you to be happy and free, so I need to do this. Good Bye!"

"Sophie! Sophie!" Howl screamed.

But the girl was gone and the man's emerald eyes glowed evilly in the dark.

Howl waked up. He feared what he just saw. He knew that Sophie was in real danger and he didn't know what to do…
A/N: Sob… I'm so evil and this is not an angst fanfic. I want to thank all the readers who had supported me. It feels great . I felt really bad when I wrote this, poor Howl! And still I only accept constructive critics.