Regret
Why did I not take him in? This lad who was the son of my relatives? Why did I not open my home and my heart to him? It could have been good for our son, and perhaps things would not have turned out how they did. My Lotho becoming a pawn of Sharkey. It could have made us all happy, made us more complete to have the common nephew of mine live amongst us. But, my foolish, young heart was jealous. I could not live to bear the thought of having one so "spoiled" as he in my home.