Snow danced in front of my eyes. White raindrops, luminous, manipulating my apparition, and I didn't heed the footsteps as they approached.
How long can a woman sleep? And how long would I have kept on in my subconscious state?
But I knew….I knew, I had lost something, and I died inside.
When I came to, my eyes fluttered, and my Yuri was there.
His face was exactly as I remembered.
My lips, parched, dry and cold, and I knew the frozen landscape of my vision was real.
He knelt down to gaze at me.
The same features, masculine and warm, but his eyes were curious, hard, and unfamiliar.
When finally I could utter a word,
Those words failed me.
He had searched my belongings.
All of the photographs of myself and Yuri, the ones I kept for my keepsake.
My love for him will never die.
Just as I had first laid my eyes on him, that very first day, and I knew that I had loved him forever.
But, now, as this stranger with your eyes and your facial appearance gazed at me, he was not you.
Still, I forced a word, to acknowledge you, and your name came from my lips.
Blue tinged, bitter, frozen to the core, my spirit warmed at his touch. His hand reached over to mine, placed his other hand under my legs, and with strength that bore the same as yours, he lifted me up.
He said some words I could barely recognize, and I knew I was with you.
Yuri, my love of my life, you see, I am happy now.
At last, I understood completely.
Why my love for you was so strong.
Why I longed for you.
And was glad I had known you during your strongest days.
How could I not fall in love with you?
When I finally held you later on, in my arms,
Your face looking up to mine,
And your tiny head, tiny mouth reached to my breast.
Your chubby arms flailed, and your tiny fingers made a fist.
You were my little boy.
My love of my life.
This is why I fell in love with you at first sight.
How could a mother not fall in love with her son at first sight?
Just as I do now?
When you're in my arms, staring at me with those beautiful adoring eyes of a son so loved?