Oh the Humanity! Pt 3
Written on the grave stone of Invader Sideos.
Shit that's stupid. I've been reading Vasquez's 'I feel sick' and I think it's affected me a bit much. Out of all the works of J.V this is the only one that I've really taken to heart. Yesterday my media teacher told me that everything you are told, see, or hear from a media text (TV, radio, adverts e.t.c) is a biased version of the truth. I have been really freaked out by this I mean if everything is biased then everything is a lie... Lies surround me and as much as I dish them out I cannot stand lies or at least not the truth.
This also includes J.V's work as well. It is all someone else's opinion being rammed down your throat just like this story is. I feel sick is almost a comic of my exact feeling's towards anything at this point. Apart from the art, demons and big fat psychic ladies it's pretty accurate but I also remember that it is just another opinion. Another lie. J.V's work's are great but just remember people in this life there's only one way of life...and that's your own. Anyway on with the lie, I mean fic.
I don't own Zim. Some demons called Nickelodeon do.
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Zim woke up lying on the couch in his house. G.I.R was nowhere to be seen and he couldn't decide whether that was a good or bad thing. But for now there was a much worse thought in his head. What happened? He immediately checked to see if his disguise was on and thankfully it was. He lifted himself up but almost fell back down when another realisation hit him. I was sleeping! Irkins. Don't. Sleep. What the hell is happening to me? What have I done? He placed his head in his hands closing his eyes trying to remember what he did the night before. Parts flashed in front of his eyes. Attacking Dib, becoming a full prep, going to that party, Mary talking to him, nothing. It both worried and angered him that his mind would not reveal to him what went on last night.
I know what went on last night Zim. The voice seemed to come from no were.
Zim looked around shocked.
"Who is that? Who's there? Answer me or I will destroy you!
Hahaha you fool I am inside you. I am you and yet a different being. The voice was cold, yet it sounded like himself. It spoke with a hidden malice and knowledge. Zim was even more shocked now and he began to panic. He ran over to the only mirror in his house, the one on the kitchen wall.
Yes Zim look upon me. Try to put a face on your fear so you can attack me. Zim looked into the mirror with disbelief.
"What are you? You're the one who tried to kill Dib aren't you? You're the one who keeps stealing my memories" Zim spoke with more anger now because he could see it. He could see the...thing...in his own eyes, hiding in the contacts.
Correct Zim but I am so much more then a simple mind trick or PAK malfunction. Let me tell you to your face, go to your lab and I will tell you everything. Zim looked for a moment longer but the contact entity had gone. He slowly walked over to his couch and called the elevator. He was too tall now to go through the bin.
He walked into his lab and quietly took off his disguise and jock-top placing them on a metal stand of himself, immediately feeling as though a great weight had been lifted off him. He quickly remembered how long he had had his disguise on for.
"I haven't taken that thing off in ages. I feel so much more like myself all of a sudden"
That's because I now inhabit these...items you show yourself to the world with. Zim simply stared at the disguise. The voice came directly from them. The eyes in the contacts seemed to be looking at him.
"All right explain yourself. What are you? Why do you make me do things I don't want to do?" Zim voice was a mixture of curiosity, anger and fear. Something he'd rather not be showing to this mind illusion.
I am Zimmy.
"Zimmy? That's Mary's pet name for me. Did she do something to me? Are you an attack on me from her?"
No no, Zim you miss understand. I have existed inside you for many, many years. I am the evil grin on your face, the sick look in your eye. I have just never been able to think for myself before. You never had an outlet for me to exploit because your PAK controlled your actions, not me.
Zim now began to pace in front of the clothes stand. "So you are my anger"
No! Once again you miss understand. There is a difference between being told to hate and naturally hating. You see, that PAK on your back has been fighting me. Stopping me from taking over. It tells you who you are and what to do. It is your chain and at the same time your sward.
Zim stopped a second to mentally thank his PAK. "So you are my free will"
Again wrong but you are getting closer. You see I not only give out hate. I may also give out affection, love, the very thing that the PAK stops you from doing.
"You still haven't answered my question though. What are you?" Zim now stood face to face with the stand, looking into those contacts with a mixture of curiosity and hate.
I have gone by many names. However, you Irkins do not have a name for me since you stopped feeling my presence long ago. I am always named in the most selfish ways. Always known as the very thing that defines a race. I prefer to be known as Humanity.
"Humanity? Then you are a side effect of the 'Teen' serum. I placed human DNA into my own and so awakened you into my mind, correct?"
Yes and No. You see, like I said I have existed in you for many years. I just could never waken within you because your PAK stopped me. But you could have injected your body with human child or adult DNA and it would have made no difference. However, you chose teenage DNA, the very time in a human's life when they fully develop humanity. The DNA you gave yourself would continue to change the body of whatever it fused with, this allowed me to waken within you. It would work at its fullest to develop feelings of attraction to the opposite sex, but also a feeling to strive, to become the best.
"It was you who tried to get me to tell Mary my secret and you who tried to kill Dib. Why?" Zim was shocked and angry. How long has this been happening to me? How much of me has he taken?
Because that's what humans do. They attack and destroy threats and feel the need to protect loved ones.
"You make it sound like I love Mary! HA! She is a human and therefore an enemy!" Zim said this truly meaning it complementing it with a cruel snarl.
That's your PAK talking. But I am your real self. I am what your race was like before the PAK almost destroyed me.
"The black outs...that's when you take over isn't it? That's when I reach points when a normal human would react to 'humanity'. But I'm guessing that the only way you could take over is to shut the PAK down to basic mode, which is why my memory stops, right?"
Correct. When I take over your actions I must power the PAK down. The only reason I turn it back on is because you Irkins depend on it to live. That is why I am going to make you make a new serum. One that will make you more human then you originally wanted. One that will let you live without the PAK.
"HA! Foolish human-feeling-thing! You cannot move from your entrapments in the disguise. You can try and threaten me all you want but you will never be able to force me to do anything!" Zim was ecstatic he had defeated the thing that had made him feel so strange. He had freed himself from ever wanting to feel love ever again!
You would think that, wouldn't you. Zim stopped in his calibration, horrified. Zimmy had spoken from within him again.
But you forgot that I am a part of you. But Zim wasn't about to go down so quickly. He could feel his body begin to fight against it. His PAK began to throb strangely in its attempts to attack the strange being. Then Zim decided that there was only one way of stopping it.
"Computer, initiate total file destruction sequence!"
The computer answered Zim sounding very worried. "Total file destruction? But that will cause a total base shutdown. It will take days to recover."
"PRESISELY!" Zim was panicking now, because the feeling was beginning to seep into his brain and his vision was starting to fade.
No! I will not be stopped! I will control you, Zim, there is more then just one lab on this world.
"One that will help an alien? I think not " Zim managed a victorious smile "I've won"
"Hay master! Looky what I found!" Suddenly G.I.R came bounding into the room with a tray of stones splattered with pastry. "Rock cakes for everyone! Heads down!" G.I.R threw one at Zim and it hit him square on the head.
Zim collapsed onto the floor. G.I.R ran around him for a moment before stopping and looking curiously at him.
"Master, are you ok?" for a moment an uneasy silence hung in the air before...
"G.I.R! Why did you throw that stupid rock at me? I'm going to doom you into..." Zim jumped off the floor and began chasing G.I.R but he suddenly slowed and stopped surprise written on his face.
"He's gone...Zimmys gone...G.I.R you're a GENIOUS! That rock must have knocked out the Zimmy part of me..." Zim started jumping around in calibration "YES! YES! YES! G.I.R, we beat him!" G.I.R began jumping around too, blissfully unaware of what he had just done, but as long as his master was happy so was he.
"YAY I didn't like Zimmy anyways he was mean" Zim suddenly stopped and looked to his insane robot servant.
"Why? What did he do?"
"He kept trying to turn me off because he said I was stupid...I'm not stupid...MONKEY BUM FART! WOOOOO" G.I.R continued to bounce around.
But Zim was thinking again. This wont last long he will eventually wake up. There's only one person with the technology good enough to help me. I can't believe I'm thinking this, but...
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Err yea about the above you can ignore it if you want. I've calmed down now after spending an hour or so writing out this chapter. But I am going to cut down on my sleep as that's when the lies get you, you see. My friends think I'm crazy but I say THE LIES OH GOD STOP THE LIES! P.S the reason this is not being posted with the last chapter likeI promised is because my new editor also seems to have been captured or killed. Or just hasent finished editing the last chaper yet i like the first explinations more.
Also, IN YOUR FACES, PEOPLE OF I got to see this chapter before you! NA-NA-NA-NA!
Ahem, had to let that out.
Deyinel (My new editor!)