hey guys! Ah 3 day weekends are great, too bad mine's over. But I got a chp out! Ok so lets continue with this sorry excuse for a story...

Chp 13 Inuyasha is not mine...

Why can't I be yours...

Inuyasha waited around for what seemed like hours for Kagome's return. He hada nervous twitch and kept tapping his hand on his knee. He kept his ears accute and jumped at the slightest sound in his room. His ears were switching this way and that, trying to hear footsteps to his room. He clozed his eyes and tried to extend his senses around the room, to be abe to feel the air, the floor, make it apart of him.

"Boo..."

He toppled over in an elegant spill and made a small yip. His heart raced with surprise and his breathing was rough and staggard.

"Don't...do that."

He quickly turned around and tackled Kagome. She laughed and tickled his sides, he squirmed out of her grip. He swooped over and held her arms. She tried to wriggle out of his grasp but only succeeded in burning her arms. She placed a soft kiss on his cheek. He calmed down and let her arms go. Se wraped them around his neck and held him close to her. Her hair fanned over him, falling down his shoulders. Her smile seemed to light up her face as she gazed down at him.

"Where were you. I haven't forgotten your promise."

Kagome's smile faded as she fell down to the ground. She rested her head on his shoulder.

"You know how Kikyo's my sister."

"Yea, I know."

"Well, I'm the sol heir to our kingdom, the only living person left with royal blood. I rule, but in secret. No one in my kingdom knows of my exsistance. Which makes them believe that Naraku is their leader. But he doesn;t have control over them...yet. If he suceeds in finding me, and or killing me...then he'll win. He'll have everyland in japan, except for yours, lord sesshomaru's, and Lord Koga's."

"But that doesn't tell me where you were."

"You know Ambassador Sango, and Ambassador Miroku?"

"Yes I do."

"Well them, plus me, lord Sesshomaru, Lord Koga, and A few others are on a council. We protect the people in secret. By finding loopholes in documents, and making a secet army against Naraku. Before I was Empress of my people, Kikyo headed the council, now I do. But I am a secret, known only by a few. I have to protect people."

"What do you mean army."

"Naraku has thousands of demons at his beckon. We have to fight back. We train people, in the art of demon slaying. It is headed by Lady Sango, who is a slayer herself. Then we have monks and Priestesses, thats Lord Miroku's job. Then Weapons...Thats Sesshomaru's part. Then we have physical training, headed by Koga."

"What do you do."

"A little bit of everything, mostly special assignments and such. Like you..."

"What do you mean me?"

"I wasn't suppossed to fall in love with you for a long time. My whole life has been planed and schedualed. I was suppossed to be good friends with you, but it turned into something more. I've known you for a long time, longe than you have known. I didn't lie when I said I was Kikyo's bodygaurd. I was, I was her double. She was my best friend, I've known her since I was very little. But...once we discovered we were sisters, we never saw each other until they decided I should be her body gaurd. Then I became her servant. And thats how its been ever since."

"Why didn't you tell me before?"

"I didn't want to endanger you. If you knew my secret, Naraku could find out and come after you."

"Let him try, no one can harm my Kagome."

She gave a smale chuckled and wrapped her arms around him. She was so greatful for him. Why did she deserve him, why was she lucky enough to have someone who loved her enough to protect her. Why was she so lucky to be in love with someone so deeply. Why did she get the fairytale dream come true...

She walked with grace, each step taken with form and power. Her beaulty swept the land with an elegant posture, and tamed the wild beast inside with uncainly beauty. Her long black hair so soft and light, yet thick and full to the touch. It floated on the invisible breeze around her. But her eyes did not match her unsurpassable beauty, they were dark and black. Unfeeling and dead, that is what could describe the look in her cold eyes. If you knew her a few years ago, you would know her eyes used to sparkle and laugh. They were once a soft brown, glazed over with hazel. They once were the eyes of a beautiful maiden, one who now was only seen as a beautiful enemy. Yes the woman remembered the days when she was happy, she remembered, but she could no longer feel it. She could not feel anymore. She remembered her human emotions, love, happiness, envy, passion, but those feelings cease to be after you die. Many people do not know, the only though of the dead is about the loved ones they left behind, and if they had no loved ones, than the live they once lead. The woman remembered everything, life death, renewal. She grasped the chain around her neck, it held her part of the sacred jewel.

"That vile woman will not gain my shards."

The woman felt her only emotion. The only one death would allow her to have, besides a few others. She felt anger, her rages soared out of the deepest regions of her soul like fire, the flames licking her desire to live. Feuling her to defeat her enemy, the man who betrayed her in death. She felt ,if only for a moment, she felt her lost emotion. She felt her forgotten love for the man.

Yes this was the life of the lady Kikyo...

Inuyasha looked over at the woman, his eyes lit up with envy and guilt. He knew this wasn't right to Kagome, but he had to set this straight with Kikyo. He couldn't keep living without telling her the truth. He took a deep breath.

"Kikyo..."

She turned her head as if to be in surprise.

"How did you find me?"

"I followed your scent."

"Why did you look for me."

"To tell you the truth. Naraku's twisted you mind, you don't remember everything. He's made you forget everything we had."

"No! I remember how you held me, how you made me feel safe, how you loved me. I remember the nights we spent alone together just talking about nothing, being normal people. Then I remember the incredible nights we spent together, making love to each other. But then I think about how you shoved those things in me...How you took everything I had left. How you killed your child..."

"What..."

"Your child...I was pregnant, and you got mad."

"Our child..."

"You hit me in the stomach, so many times Inuyasha, don't pretend. So much blood...I saw this small clump of flesh in the blood...I knew, that was the baby..."

"Kikyo, I didn't know. But I never struck you."

"Why do you insist on lieing to me! You did...You killed me for god's sake."

"NO! I never once, ever hit even you. EVER! I don't know what Naraku did yo you, but I never hit you. Ever! And I never knew we ever concieved. Don't listen to him, you have to remember me. You have to remember, you have to remember what really happen, I never hurt you. I never killed you!"

Kikyo turned her head. She couldn't look him in the eye. He head felt like it was going to explode. He killed her didn't he...

For a second her eyes turned brown, with a hazel glaze. Then black, because Naraku twisted her mind again.

"Betrayer..."

"Your mine...Your MY KIKYO!"

"I remember when you were my Inuyasha."

"I still can be..."

He placed a beautiful kiss on her lips so soft and caring. He deepened the kiss on the dead maiden, his haunting past...

Kagome saw it...she didn't want to believe it...Because he moved in on her...

She felt tears rolling down her cheeks...she ran...

And Inuyasha smelt tears. He tore his lips from Kikyo and ran to Kagome. Kikyo crumbled to the ground, lost in her forgotten past, trying to forget the moment she realized she was pregnant with his child...

Inuyasha ran to Kagome. He ran as fast as his legs would carry. He grabbed her wrist, and held her hips. She twisted this way and that, but couldn't break free. Tears rolled freely from her eyes, soaking the front of her dress. She sobbed and gasped...

"Your Kikyo..."

"Kagome its not like that."

"Yes it is...don't lie to me about those things."

"Kagome you have to unerstand, I'm trying to get her to remember the truth."

"Why can't I be yours...I thought...I thought I was yours..."

Inuyasha kneaded in his eyesbrows, regretting his actions. He tears filled his senses and he longed to reach out to wipe them away. He longed to cradle her and tell her he was sorry. He longed to do the same for Kikyo. His heart was filled with two dfferent liquids that wouldn't mix.

"Leave me alone Inuyasha."

"No Kagome, you have to understand, I never wanted you to see this."

"Well I did! Get over it, but you...you betrayed me. You told me I was yours...Why can't I be?"

"Kagome I..."

She turned and cried. She cried so hard. It was unbearable.

"Don't cry, it was an accident. I never meant to hurt you like this. But I owe it to Kikyo to help her."

"I know, but that doesn't mena that you have to forget about me. I love you...I don't want that to ever change. But...I can't be with you if you want her like you want me."

"Kagome, imagine being me, you just found out you were suppossed to have a baby with a woman you loved, but it was ataken away by a horrible creature. Now you have a gorgeous girl crying in your arms because you tried to help the mother of your dead baby, and their is nothign you can do about it. I want you, I want you so bad. I want to just let lose and do you right here and now...but I hold back, so you don't end up like Kikyo. I don't want you to die, escpecially not with memories like hers..."

Kagome did the only thing she could do. She cozied up to Inuyasha and cried on his shoulder. She went to the only comfort she had left in this world, which didn't bring that much comfort to her anymore...

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Oo0o0o0o0o0o0oO Am I bad or am I bad, I am soooooooo sorry about the long wait, but i had no ideas for this chapter until today, because i was very busy with school, my boyfriend, and girl problems. So I sat down today and said, I am going to write the best chapter I can write, so I hope its to your liking. Hugs and Luvs! Review!