AN: This is another Bangel fic, sorry to any of the Spuffy fans of mine! I love Spuffy and Bangel equally, but I like spike more ;)! Anyway, this is a song fic of a GREAT song that I absolutely LOVE! I don't own this song. I didn't write it. It's Kelly Clarkson – Behind These Hazel Eyes.
Dedication: My mate Amy who is scarily like me, she loves this song too!
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Buffy sat on her bed and stared at the opposite wall. He was gone. He had left her, and this time he wasn't coming back. When she had seen him walk away from her she had felt herself crumble inside. Suddenly nothing was ok. He had been her pillar, he had kept her going, as long as he was with her she could do anything.
But since he ha broken up with before prom she hadn't been herself, but she had hung onto the fact that he was still around. Now he had gone and she felt like she couldn't breath without him.
He was gone.
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
He had known her better than anyone. She could look at him with the biggest smile and he would know if something was wrong and she always told him. Never held anything back. And he had always made everything right, for the first time in her life she had felt whole and safe. But now he had left she had to pretend again. Her face hurt from all the fake smiles. She put on the façade of being cheerful and alive but inside she was broken and dying.
He was gone.
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Buffy had really thought he was the one. The guy that you read about in fairy tales. The Prince who comes and sweeps you off your feet. She had really thought he loved her, but then he wouldn't have left her all alone. Sure she had her friends, and they had tried to help her by hugs and words of comfort but she had to stay strong. She wouldn't let them she her cry.
She turned her head and caught sight of a photo sticking out from the bottom of her dresser, she stood and picked it up. He was in it. They looked so happy together. He had a protective arm draped around her shoulders pulling her close to his side. She was staring up at him in awe with a big, love filled grin on her face. She dropped the picture like it was on fire. It killed her to see it. She swallowed back tears that were welling up. She wasn't going to cry. She had cried over him enough. No more tears. Not on the oustside…
He was gone.
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
AN: I know that was a little angsty but I LOVE angst! Hehe. Thank you for reading and please review!