Heart full of Holes Chapter 3:

Rest and Beginings

Zig Zag walked her back to the tent in silence not because he didn't have anything to say, just because Ferrin was too tired to talk, this was the hardest thing she had ever done and she was relishing the fact that she had to do it all over again tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day... It wasn't something to look forward to...especially at 'before dawn' in the morning. "Just great" she thought with the utmost certainty that this was hell… and she was "digging" further into it.

They reached the tent and Ferrin started to enter with the thoughts of being able to sleep soundly until morning, dreaming of water ... surrounding her...and hot boys ...and her friends...

"What are you doing? We have to go to supper." Zig said confusion unmasked in his voice.

"Oh, I'm going to skip dinner, I am NOT THAT hungry." referring to the lengthy walk to the mess hall.

"Oh. Well I'll see ya later then, I guess." Zig replied staring at the ground and then walking away, with a sense of disappointment.

Ferrin just shook her head at the silly boy and walked into the tent to settle down. In the tent, she found she was alone, just like she wanted to be. The sun was still up but she didn't care, she was going to bed, and nobody was going to stop her. Checking behind her, she quickly changed into her flannels that she had snuck in with her so she could sleep in some comfort, or at least be comfortable to make up for the fact that she actually had to be there. She then slipped into her cot and felt the springs in the mattress compress underneath her, and nothing was stopping her falling to sleep.

A loud trumpet woke Ferrin up the next morning with the yearning for food rumbling in her tummy and the rustling of beds. She turned over and grunted semi-silently complaining about having to be up sooo early. "No, not now...it's...too...f-ing...early..."

"Wake up! Or you wont have breakfast!" some unknown voice suggested, accompanied by violent shaking, "COME ON!"

She jerked up in the flannels she put on the afternoon before "FINE!" she screamed into the cutest face she had ever seen. Zero backed off, not scared but not entirely sure that she was sane...

Ferrin rubbed her eyes, "I'm Sor-? Zero? Where did he go? He was JUST here...Oh well…" and she got dressed, then hurried off to an awaited breakfast.

It had to be in-between 10:00 or 11:00 because the heat wasn't the worst but it was beginning to get to be pretty bad. Even though she had eaten a full...uh...you could call it…breakfast…but it certainly wasn't food...and she still had a half of a water can left, which she was saving for an emergency, but she was still getting terribly uncomfortable.

The best part of the day was when she was contemplating whether to play stupid and get Zig to come over and help her with her hole again, but today she was next to Caveman, who had just breeched the surface and she had to make sure that he wasn't bothered, so she got down and actually tried but she did notice a certain curly blonde haired boy staring at her from a few meters away.

Ferrin was about1/2 done her hole, and poor Caveman had barely gotten started… (- -.) Zig was lagging but so was Squid.

"Funny, they are usually done sooner, and they seem to be where I am now...hmmmm..."

She decided that she should overlook it until she has finished her hole. It may not have been lunch yet, but from all the blisters, she had begun to get yesterday, the pain made it seem as though the day was carrying on longer than the summer solstice. The heat bore down upon her and she was getting a nasty sunburn on her shoulders despite the fact that her white shirt reflected most of the light. "Thank God I didn't wear a black tank, I'd probably die right about now..."

But Ferrin didn't complain, she didn't whine about any of this to anyone...she had only experienced heat like this once before...

The heat that radiated off the floorboards and the walls as the flames ate up the remaining unburnt items outside the little girl's room. She screamed until her throat hurt and even then she didn't quit, she needed to be saved! She couldn't just stop screaming and letting the firefighters know what room she was in!

She continued screaming and as the flames started to swallow her door, and enter with new desperation under her door and she let out an exasperated cry for her mother, while her teddy bear was being crushed by her feeble arms. Tears began to fall down her face as she continued to shriek in the utmost fear.

Just as she was about to run into her closet and continue to cry and scream, a large BANG and her door fell down while flames jumped into the room along with a man clothed in completely reflective yellow and a large helmet. Out of fear, the little girl felt herself collapse to the floor, and all she saw before everything went black, was large yellow shoes.

Sweat dripped down Ferrin's head as she remembered the fateful night that all her belongings were destroyed and she lost contact with her mother for all time.

Ferrin's mother was a woman who knew what she wanted, before the fire happened. Now she had gone mentally unstable and was living in solitude in a mental asylum. White is the only colour she wears now...

Ferrin hadn't seen her for three years now. She neither cared nor thought it mattered. Her best friend's parents got to become her guardians... (sp?) and she loved them more than her stupid, mother any way. How could she love a person who didn't care if her daughter was fed, then blamed it upon mental disability. No one could lover her now.

"Oh well guess, I am gonna have to escort this lovely lady to the water truck, because she has failed to notice it coming. Oh well!" AArmpits distinguishable voice popped out and down into Ferrin's hole.

"Why, thank you young man! I would be delighted to join you on your amazing journey." Ferrin exclaimed and played along with this fun skit. Armpit helped hr out of her hole and jutted out his arm, offering Ferrin to accept it and gracefully walk over to the water truck.

They all got in line and Ferrin replaced herself behind Zero, then instantly started apologizing for screaming into his face earlier that morning.

"...really, I truly am sorry Zero."

All he did in recognition was to shrug his shoulders and slightly smile up at her. Although it was an odd way of accepting an apology, Ferrin felt quite relieved that the guilt of scaring a little kid, because she was cranky, was now off her shoulders.

Slowly the line moved forward, and quickly Ferrin drank her remaining water. Zig walked past and he flashed her a drop dead gorgeous smile. And she just smiled and blushed back. She got her food, and more water then started towards the boys, but then stopped herself.

"Let's try something..."

She turned around and started walking towards her hole again with her head held high and her eyes closed. She could feel all of them staring at her as she passed and she knew they would do in it 3...2...1...

"Hey! Ferrin! Where do you think you're goin'! It's lunch!" Squid piped up.

"Ya! What are you? An over achiever?" asked X-ray.

"In some aspects...but I doubt that any of you will ever get to that high in my priorities."

"Oh! Gents I think we was just burned by a girl!"

"Ya, me too Armpit," Zig started," So; gents, what are we gonna do about it?" Snidely smirking while Ferrin gazed into his blue, blue, blue eyes.

"Now, now boys! I don't think that Miss. Anthony would like anything you boys have in store for her! She is a female and should be treated as such. Do you understand?" Mr. Pandanski came and scolded the boys.

"Slow down Mom, we were just kiddin', we wouldn't do anything to ...Miss. Anthony. Would we guys?" inquired X-ray, obviously the leader, to all the boys with a sly smile on his face.

"Ya! We wouldn't hurt a woman!" Zig said and the continued to walk up to Ferrin then wrapped his arm around her shoulders, with a large smile that Ferrin just didn't trust...

"Ok then, you boys be nice, and dig your holes."

"Yes, Mom." they all said in unison.

Mom turned and started up the water truck, then drove off, while all of them stood in the exact same spots, Zig with his arm around Ferrin's neck, X-ray sitting on a mound of dirt, Armpit, standing, Squid sitting crosslegged. Then the moment that Mom had gone Zig gave Ferrin the hardest noogie she had ever recived messing up her hair to the limit.

He let go playfully laughing and Ferrin tried to look out at the boys, to find that she couldn't see past her hair! Everyone laughed at her as she flattened it all out, and walked up to Zig and while looking him in the eye, "You're gonna get it good boy." then she proceeded to walk away and then jumped, dissapearing into her hole.

"Where for art thou Romeo? Deny thy father and refuse thy name, or if thout will not, be but sworn my love, and i will no longer be a Capulet."

She was done her hole, and she was walking back to the tent to grab a shower and rec clothes. Reciting William Shakespeare's famous balcony scene from Romeo and Julliet. She had made it to the tent and not a soul had disturbed her, until...

"Shall I hear more, or shall I speak at this?"

"Tis' but thy name that is myne enemy," She turned to face Zig Zag, "For thou is a Montague and I, a Capulet. What is a Montague? It is not hand, nor arm, nor leg, nor any other part belonging to a man. What is in a name? For a rose by anyother name would smell just as sweet, as would Romeo were he not Romeo call'd. Oh! Be some other name! Romeo doth thy name and take all in myne slef."

"I take thee at thy word fair saint." he stopped, "Something,somethingsomething, and I'll be new baptised."

This attempt at Romeo's line made Ferrin smile a smile she hadn't recognised in a very long time.

"That was good Zig Zag."

"What? That isn't the next line!" he said sarcasicly.

Ferrin rolled her eyes and told him to wait right there, while she changed. She went into the teperate tent and changed exceedingly quick into her rec clothes and then put on pit stick, deciding to take her shower a bit later tonight. She stepped out, to Zig Zag being several feet away from the spot she had left him at before.

He noticed she was examining the space inbetween where she had left him and the point where he was now, " Ya..." he rubbed the back of his sunburnt neck and blushed a bursting red, " I didn't trust myself not to look into the tent to...to.."

She blushed as well as he continued to keep studdering. So she decided to jump into action, she ran to him and grasped his hand leading him into the rec room.

hey guys thanks...i didnt think you all loved me enough to keep going! TT you make me so happy! well i will try and update asap..but i have to tend to my other story too! so c ya lata!

('' )Bloodstainedwings (also known as Sweetheart555)