Heart Full Of Holes

Chapter 4

Kissable? Or not?

Ferrin and Zig walked towards the Rec room, letting go of his hand. PDOA were not needed, besides she was just trying to get him away from the spot where he was wired to, it wasn't like she liked him or anything, did she?

Zig then unstunned entered the rec room, and Ferrin followed, and the sight that met her eyes, was spectaular. A room where nothing worked, the walls were torn up, the floor was falling apart, and the boys were having the time of their lives. This was increadable. Nobody complained about the lack of cable, no one complained about the ruined pool table, or the fact that the chairs were falling apart and looked so unstable that Armpit was standing.

She stood in utter awe at the room, it was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. A place where the boys could get together and sit, in the grime and grossness, yet enjoy themselves to the utmost fullest. "Absolutely amazing."

She walked over towards ZigZag and the other boys, but then she noticed Caveman, and Zero alone in a corner. She decided to get to figure out what exactly was so different about these boys.

Caveman noticed Ferrin walking over and began to blush.

"Hi guys. May I join you?" She politely asked.

Zero just looked up at her with an indifferent look on his face, while Caveman gave a feeble nod. So now fully invited Ferrin sat down next to the boys and an awkward silence was instated around them.

"So..."

"Ya..."

Silence. "So, Ferrin, what are you in here for, you know, being the first girl in Camp Green Lake, and all, what did you do?" Caveman asked with a certain nervousness to his voice.

Ferrin heaved a great sigh. She knew this question would be coming up, she just didnt know if she would be able to tell her awful tale.

"Yes, well. My reason for being here is-" she stopped herself. "May I begin again?"

Zero and Caveman nodded.

"Ok." she took another deep breath." It was a rainy day, it had been all week..." And she told her tale to the two boys and finished it with thier mouths wide open.

"Wow." was all that Caveman said, while Zero just stared at Ferrin with awe and confusion, the most emotion he had shown her the entire time she was there.

"Ya...well," Ferrin studdered on as she turned the reddest of reds, " it's not like I ment it to happen. Well I better go and take that shower I've been meaning to take, bye." and as the awkward silence settled in, she left the boys to ponder her past, which was more than she had done about it.

She slipped into the tent and collected her showing utensils, and then she made her way over to the showers. Upon approaching the showers, she ensured there was no boys present, then continued on her way. She quickly and quietly undressed herself of her rec clothing, and stepped into the shower, then went to turn on the water...

"WHAT THE FUCK!" was all that was heard coming from the showers, as Ferrin was having her shower
The boys were all huddled in to D-tent talking earlier than usual this evening and even though no one said anything, they all knew why they were all there. They were impatiently awaiting Ferrin's return from the shower, that was only blessed with the cold water that every boy , and now, girl were given to suffice for a shower.

And as they sat there talking, and as the evening crept over the horizon, spreading across the sky in the way that mistafied Zig Zag everynight, he sat behind D-tent and watched as the stars wake up from the nap they were given every day, to twinkle each and every night , who knew why, but they did, and it entranced few, and was taken for granted by more than should.

Doing just this, Zig Zag also had the perfect view of Ferrin, when she did arrive. And did she ever arrive. Her hair was wet and dripping down onto her orange body suit that she wore up right this night, instead of with her white tank top she usually wore with it, assuming that she was worried it would show off too much to the boys at the camp, and she would probably be right, that was a really thin white shirt...Zig Zag shook the thought from his head, and watched her storm into D-tent, and with a small chuckle he picked himself up and continued into D-tent to steal Ferrin away, and calm her down, he had a charm that no girl could resist, and with Ferrin being the first girl he had seen in months, he wasn't going to let her just...float away...no, he didn't think that she could resist him for much longer, at least with the cute act he had been putting up, he couldn't possibly be resisted, especially by vunerable Ferrin.

Ferrin was enraged that none of the boys had told her that the water was completly cold to the bone! And she was being dragged out of the tent while she screamed at the boys, by Zig, who thought she should come and "cool off" outside.

" I think that I am quite 'cool' enough thank you!"

He laughed, she had a way to make him laugh and he couldn't help but admiting that she was quite funny, even if she was just some other girl.

"Well, all the same, I want you to sit with me for a bit, talk, you kinda just left me once you got into theRec.Roomtoday to go and talk to Caveman." he put up his best cute sad face, to finish off thelittle skit.

"Ya, well they...I hadn't had muchof a chance to talk to them, ya know, so i just wanted to talk with them."

"Cool."

"Ya...so...what is new?"

"Not too much.Hey!I just realised we haven't given you a nick name yet!"

Her face began to burn bright red, andshe turned her head away, to try and hide it.

"I KNOW!We'll call you Beet! for the colour your face turns everytime we say anything to you!"

"Oh..my..."

"What? You don't like it?" He pouted so cute like.

"Well, I.. just ..ok..."

With a satisfied tone to his voice, "Well that is that then!"

"I guess...Wow...we get quite a view out here!"

This shocked Zig. 'She likes the stars too...I..I..never knew..maybe..NO! ZIG! GET AHOLD OF YOURSELF, she is just another chick, nothing new, nothing different, she is just like everyother chick.'

He shook the blasfumeous thought from his mind, and he looked at Ferrin, looking at the stars in such awe and inspiration, until she snapped out of her daze, and smiled sweetly at him.

He looked at her with such eyes that she could have fallen for him, but the point was that he was a guy, and he had acted like every other guy, louring her in with kindness, and then spitting her out once they were done getting what they wanted from her. She didnt want to be hurt again, not again, not now, not now that she like, lived with this guy...no, maybe...she didnt know.

"Well I'm gonna go inside, Zig , are you gonna come too?" She asked him, staring into his eyes with such intensity and she didnt let go, until he did, unable to hold on to her endearing eyes anylonger.

"Ya, I suppose."

Late into the night, Zig lay awake, thinking, contemplating, trying to understand why he couldn't stand to look into her eyes. They were a deep blue, and they sucked you in and you couldn't let go. But he made himself let go, she seemed the type to understand everything from just looking, into your soul. Did he care if she knew everything about him? Did he have feelings for this girl, who was suddenly so full of suprises.

While across the room, Ferrin lay wake as well, thinking, contemplating, trying to understand her feelings for Zig Zag. He seemed the honest, parinod, cutie that maybe for once, actually wants to be with her, and not wanting something from her.Maybe, maybe this time, she should let him in, not push him away, but what if he really is the kind of good guy she wants him to be and she lets him slip away? What will happen?

"PSST! Ferrin is that you? Are you awake?" A voice suddendly audioed over to her "bunk".

"Ya!Is that you Zig?" she answered in a small wisper.

"Yep!" and then all she could hear was the rustling of covers as Zig made his way down to her bed, "Come with me?" he asked.

"Where?" she was starting to get excited, she liked sneaking out of the tent in the middle of the night, it gave her a rush, an adrenalin rush.

"Just come?" he didnt know what he was doing, and he never expected to do this to her, but if he had to find something out, he would do all in his power to find out.

She nodded her head in accordance, and then took his out stretched hand, and followed him outside. The moon was bigger than ever, and the stars shone with more brightness than Ferrin could ever remember seeing in her life time. Their was a slight breeze, but she had her rec wear on, over top of her white tank top, unzipped down to her belly, giving her enough breeze to keep her cool, but wearing enough to keep her warm. To her suprise, Zig was wearing his rec wear, with it unzippedto just below his belly button, showing off a slight bit of his black boxers. Ferrin instantly ripped her eyes upward to his face, and saw him just waiting for her gaze.

"I thought that maybe you might want to see the stars at the peak time of the night." he said with a sencerityin which he was oblivious to it's source.

"Thanks." She said not turning her head away from his crystal blue eyes, and blonde hair, cute face and captivating body.

The same went for him, being unable to take his eyes off her whirlpools, and her sweet, caring face. Then he started to slowly get closer to her, grasping her elbows, while she too got closer, grasping his body suit, while unbreaking eye contact.

'What! What was that! my heart just skipped a beat, and I feel all ...churned...but I... must... keep going.' And he continued to get closer to her, moving his hands, one to her waist, one to behind her head and neck.

'I can stop this, I know I can, should I, maybe I should. Should I? Isnt this what I want? Well is it?'

WEll that is everything for right now...i ll c ya later!