Speed, quietly stepped into the white painted room. His eyes searched for the object of his desire. Ounce they found what they were looking for, on the far side of the room, his entire body froze, as his heart seemed to skip a beat.
It didn't seem real, seeing his angle hooked up to machines that beeped and buzzed. The large bandage covering her eyes made him nauseas, how could someone ever cover her beautiful eyes? Speed felt the sudden need to sit down before he collapsed.
Speed came closer to the bed, and sat in the stiff chair next to his sleeping beauty. His hands gently stroked her cheek as tears slid down his handsome face. "Please god, make this all a dream, a horrible nightmare, is all it really is, right?"
He took her slightly cold petite hand in his own larger one, and squeezed it, hoping for a reaction. "She doesn't deserve this, she never has, so why, why her?" Speed's questioning was interrupted as a pudgy nurse with a dark clipboard came in and started jotting down notes.
At first it seemed to Speed she hadn't even noticed him, so he in turn ignored her. His eyes went back to Trixie's still form, allowing everything that happened yesterday to sink in. His memory took him back to before the race started. He and Trixie had been talking outside of the garage, just enjoying their company.
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"Speed, hey Speed, are you listening to me?" Trixie's annoyed voice had broken his reverie, and he turned back to look at her.
"What's up baby? What's got you tied in a not? Speeds goofy smirk graced his face as Trixie puffed out, showing her clear annoyance with him. He loved it when she did that; she just looked so cute.
"Ah, don't worry Trix, the race will be groovy" Speed wrapped his strong arms around Trixie's slender waste, pulling her to his chest. "With you in the sky to guide me we'll win for sure."
Trixie had been drowning in his eyes, until she heard some girls screaming Speed's name. "Humph, well maybe you would rather have one of those girls guide you, you certainly seem to like them enough, always gawking like some sick love puppy. And I bet they wouldn't complain." Trixie crossed her arms after retreating from Speed's embrace and looked away from him.
"Trixie, baby, you know I would never want anyone except for you leading me to victory, you're my guardian angle, I could never win without you being there for me." Speed brought her back into a hug and kissed her tenderly on the lips.
Trixie, let herself melt into her boyfriends touch, and quickly returned the kiss. After what seemed like hours of being lost in each other's passion, a gruff voice interrupted them. "Speed this is no time to be daydreaming, you have a race to win, and that isn't going to happen with you behind the garage instead of behind the wheel.
The two teenagers jumped apart as they both blushed at Pop Racers words. "Ok, Pops, you don't have to worry, were going to do a bomb of a job, right Trixie?" Speed asked looking down at Trixie.
"Uh-huh, this is gonna be a groovy race, Pop's don't worry nothing will go wrong" Trixie, returned Speeds look, and then took off towards the helicopter.
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Speed tightened his grip on Trixie's hand, "Please Trixie, be ok, I don't know if I could ever forgive myself if you aren't."
"Talking to a sleeping girl who is going to wake up and find out she won't ever be able to see again, is not what I would call helping, son." The unfamiliar voice surprised him greatly, Speed turned around and looked at the face of a man, with a white mustache.
"Listen, when she wakes up she's going to be scared, regretful, and in denial. Much like you are." The doctor watched Speed to see if anything he said had sunk in. With a sigh he decided it had not. "If you want to make this any easier on her, and on you, you should have your father contact me. There is a woman I can call. She is a specialist in this field, and has helped many people to cope with blindness. I'm sure she will be happy to help. She comes highly recommended. "
The Doctor wrote down his name and set the piece of paper on the bedside desk gently, with one last look at Trixie he took off to the next patients room. Speed had heard all of what he said, though he was still stuck on his first statement, 'she's going to be scared, regretful, and in denial, much like you are.'
I'm not in denial, am I? I know she's blind, and I know it's going to be hard, so why would he say I'm in denial? Speed kept wondering if the man was ill or had a problem in the head, because obviously he was fine.
Speed had, been sitting by the bed for 2 hours now, and was wondering if Trixie would ever wake up. "Oh Speed, you need to get some rest, I'll watch over Trixie, while you get some food." Mom Racer had entered the room and once again taken charge of the well being of her family.
Speed looked up at the comforting image of his mother, and started to stand. "Mom, what are you doing here? I thought you went home with pop's and Spritle," Mom Racer smiled a caring smile and came over to her son.
"I did sweetie, I did, but it's important for all of us to show Trixie our support. Besides, I couldn't allow you to go for hours without food, could I?"
Mom Racer took her sons hand and squeezed it reassuringly, "I love you son, and so does Trixie, It kills me to see you in this state, and I know it would just devastate her. So, to make her life just that much easier I'm forcing you to eat and get some rest, at least do it for Trixie, Please Speed."
Mom Racer's words sunk in slowly, and everything seemed to come crashing down. Speed embraced his mother longingly and cried, letting everything finally take its toll on him.
"Mom, she won't be able to see, she wont be able to know whether I'm in good or bad shape, or if I'm being stupid around pretty girls, she'll never again be able to yell at me because of something she saw me do, never again will she puff out in anger and make me laugh, Mom, Trixie, she's, she's really blind." Speed's lip was quivering as he sobbed. His mother also had small beads of tears cascading down her smooth cheek as she patted her sons back.
"Speed dear, get some food, I'll watch her, just go and try to be strong, you must remember, Trixie need's you to help her, always help her, ok?" Mom Racer looked into her sons blue eyes filled with tears as she backed away from him.
Something his mother said hit a cord, 'Trixie need's you to help her, always help her' Speed then frantically looked around the room until he snatched a piece of paper up from the table. 'If you want to make this any easier on her, and on you, you should contact your father and have him call me.' 'She is a specialist in this field, and has helped many people to cope with blindness.' The doctor's words rung in his head, as he took off full speed towards the waiting room.
Mom Racer looked on at where her son was just a moment ago, and then sat down next to Trixie. "Trixie dear, I know you're going to be going through a tough time and that this most likely means you won't be able to Navigate for my son any longer, but please dear, never ever think you aren't welcome in our home or in our family."
After the kind declaration, Mom Racer took out a small book from her purse and started reading. "Speed will be back any moment now dear, so we'll just wait for him, alright?"
Down in the waiting room Speed had already talked to Pops who was talking to the doctor now. Speed stood impatiently by the desk.
The doctor hung up, and started to dial another number. As he did this he explained, "I'm calling Ms. Kay now, she'll want to talk to one of Trixie's guardians, and your father says to allow you to talk to her. Although you cannot make any decision's that is for your father to do. I'll be asking her to come to the hospital." As soon as he was done talking to Speed the doctor started to talk to the person on the other line.
"Ok here you go son, but remember, don't make any important decisions" The doctor handed Speed the phone. Speed nodded his head and spoke into the receiver.
"Hello, This is Gregory Racer" He had used his birth name so that she would not ask about his racing career; it really was the last thing he wanted to talk about.
~Yes, hello, I hear you have a friend who was in an accident~ the voice sounded sweet and kind, the type of voice only a mother could posses.
"Yeah I do, listen, you were recommended, and they told me that you would be able to help her, it that true?" Speed was loosing patience with the phone for no apparent reason, though he felt he should be with Trixie.
~Yes, I can help your friend, I'd be more than happy too. Although you have to understand I always finish what I start, and therefore I won't be fired and you can guarantee I won't quite. ~ As the voice spoke this she sounded strong and confident.
"Ok, but before my father hires you, I want us all to meet you, and Trixie has too say yes to it too." Speed listened for a reply that came soon after.
~Alright, Mr. Racer, I will be there by late tomorrow, I trust you'll still be at the hospital. ~
Speed had to think about that, but decided that they would be, Trixie still hadn't woken up, and she wouldn't be able to walk right away, so unfortunately they would still be in the hospital for a while longer. "Yes" After that was said they both said there good byes hung up.
Speed had headed back to Trixie's room but was drawn off his coarse by the smell of food. It may have been hospital food, but it was still food. "I guess I should get a little something, Mom would send me back down anyways, and I can get something for Trix, she's sure to be hungry when she does wake up." With his decision made, Speed headed to the empty cafeteria.
After eating a bland sandwich and a hard cookie, Speed decided to take up a yogurt for Trixie. There was no way he was going to have her eat something as bad as what he had, right when she woke up.
And so with a strawberry Yogurt and a plastic spoon in hand started towards the elevator. When he came inside the elevator he saw a small girl with blond curls in a pink nightgown looking up at him.
"Hi, there, little girl, are you lost?" Speed bent down to the child's height and looked into her innocent green eyes.
The small girl shook her head, and smiled at him. "No sir, I'm hiding" her sweet voice hung in the air. Speed looked at her curiously and decided to ask.
"Why are you hiding, and from whom?" The girl smiled and laughed gently.
"I'm hiding from the angel that's gonna visit me tomorrow." Her innocent green eyes sparkled with excitement, happy that this man was interested in her story.
The elevator had long since reached its destination, though Speed stayed inside to talk to this girl, feeling the need to return her to her family. "Why would you hide from an angel? Angel's are good."
The girl shook her head "not this one, It made mommy cry" she had a sudden look of sadness in her eyes "When my mommy told me an angel was going to come and visit me tomorrow to take me to heaven, she got really sad and cried" The girl looked up at Speed "I don't like it when mommy cries, it makes me sad."
Speed couldn't believe what he was hearing, this girl was going to die tomorrow, wasn't their anything they could do? She was so young; it didn't seem fair. He couldn't contain his curiosity. "Why is the angle going to come visit you?"
The girl smiled a huge happy smile and gladly answered "Mommy says God wants to meet me and tell me how good a girl I am." The gleam in the girl's eyes told Speed that she really had no idea what was going to happen.
"So if you want to meet God, why are you hiding from the angel?" His question was simple though he was fighting back his sobs that tried to escape.
"Because, I don't need to meet God to hear that, my mommy tells me I'm good all the time. I want to stay with mommy and make her smile when I do a goofy face." The girl showed Speed what she meant by making a face, which caused him to smile. "If I hide the angle wont be able to find me and then I can stay with mommy, she needs me because daddy's not here no more."
As she finished her speech the elevator doors opened and that same pudgy nurse from before scooped the girl up in her arms, "there you are Abigail, your mother has been worried sick about you, now come on let's get going"
As she turned and left Abigail smiled to Speed and waved. "Bye, Bye mister." Speed waved good-bye as a single tear rolled down his face.
"I, uh, better get back" Speed then once again headed to Trixie's room. This time though, he was not interrupted.
Mean While, in the room, Mom Racer had stepped out to go to the restroom; a nurse who had just finished taking notes dimmed the lights. In the bed there was a slight rustle of blankets, as a soft moan escaped the lips of the sleeping girl.
"Were am I? I wonder why it's so dark, huh, the lights must be off." Trixie's small hands reached up to the bandages on her face. Her bones were aching and burned with pain. "What's wrong with my eyes?" Suddenly everything returned to her, or at least part of it did. "Oh my god, I crashed, Oh my god, I hope Speed won," Her hands were still fingering the bandages. "Why is this on my face."
A sudden realization as to what might have happened caused Trixie to jerk, pulling out some of the needles "ouch, Oh god, Speed, were are you Speed please if you're hear answer me please." She had tried to get up though she only succeeded in falling out of the bed.
Nurses rushed in, surrounding her pushing her back to the bed. "No stop who are you leave me alone, SPEED!!!!"
Down the hall, Speed had been having a bad feeling and had started to run towards the room seeing nurses rushing inside, he tried to get past them, though they only pushed him back out into the hall.
"What's going on? What's wrong with her? Trixie?"
Hey, well I changed it just a little; the third chapter should be up either tonight or tomorrow. Were in the middle of building a new house right now so my home is real chaotic right now and hard to think up anything to right. Seeya ya latter
A special thank-you too GoldAngel2 and Hawk Sage for reviewing the last chapter.
Bye for now
~Kieri Norou
It didn't seem real, seeing his angle hooked up to machines that beeped and buzzed. The large bandage covering her eyes made him nauseas, how could someone ever cover her beautiful eyes? Speed felt the sudden need to sit down before he collapsed.
Speed came closer to the bed, and sat in the stiff chair next to his sleeping beauty. His hands gently stroked her cheek as tears slid down his handsome face. "Please god, make this all a dream, a horrible nightmare, is all it really is, right?"
He took her slightly cold petite hand in his own larger one, and squeezed it, hoping for a reaction. "She doesn't deserve this, she never has, so why, why her?" Speed's questioning was interrupted as a pudgy nurse with a dark clipboard came in and started jotting down notes.
At first it seemed to Speed she hadn't even noticed him, so he in turn ignored her. His eyes went back to Trixie's still form, allowing everything that happened yesterday to sink in. His memory took him back to before the race started. He and Trixie had been talking outside of the garage, just enjoying their company.
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"Speed, hey Speed, are you listening to me?" Trixie's annoyed voice had broken his reverie, and he turned back to look at her.
"What's up baby? What's got you tied in a not? Speeds goofy smirk graced his face as Trixie puffed out, showing her clear annoyance with him. He loved it when she did that; she just looked so cute.
"Ah, don't worry Trix, the race will be groovy" Speed wrapped his strong arms around Trixie's slender waste, pulling her to his chest. "With you in the sky to guide me we'll win for sure."
Trixie had been drowning in his eyes, until she heard some girls screaming Speed's name. "Humph, well maybe you would rather have one of those girls guide you, you certainly seem to like them enough, always gawking like some sick love puppy. And I bet they wouldn't complain." Trixie crossed her arms after retreating from Speed's embrace and looked away from him.
"Trixie, baby, you know I would never want anyone except for you leading me to victory, you're my guardian angle, I could never win without you being there for me." Speed brought her back into a hug and kissed her tenderly on the lips.
Trixie, let herself melt into her boyfriends touch, and quickly returned the kiss. After what seemed like hours of being lost in each other's passion, a gruff voice interrupted them. "Speed this is no time to be daydreaming, you have a race to win, and that isn't going to happen with you behind the garage instead of behind the wheel.
The two teenagers jumped apart as they both blushed at Pop Racers words. "Ok, Pops, you don't have to worry, were going to do a bomb of a job, right Trixie?" Speed asked looking down at Trixie.
"Uh-huh, this is gonna be a groovy race, Pop's don't worry nothing will go wrong" Trixie, returned Speeds look, and then took off towards the helicopter.
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Speed tightened his grip on Trixie's hand, "Please Trixie, be ok, I don't know if I could ever forgive myself if you aren't."
"Talking to a sleeping girl who is going to wake up and find out she won't ever be able to see again, is not what I would call helping, son." The unfamiliar voice surprised him greatly, Speed turned around and looked at the face of a man, with a white mustache.
"Listen, when she wakes up she's going to be scared, regretful, and in denial. Much like you are." The doctor watched Speed to see if anything he said had sunk in. With a sigh he decided it had not. "If you want to make this any easier on her, and on you, you should have your father contact me. There is a woman I can call. She is a specialist in this field, and has helped many people to cope with blindness. I'm sure she will be happy to help. She comes highly recommended. "
The Doctor wrote down his name and set the piece of paper on the bedside desk gently, with one last look at Trixie he took off to the next patients room. Speed had heard all of what he said, though he was still stuck on his first statement, 'she's going to be scared, regretful, and in denial, much like you are.'
I'm not in denial, am I? I know she's blind, and I know it's going to be hard, so why would he say I'm in denial? Speed kept wondering if the man was ill or had a problem in the head, because obviously he was fine.
Speed had, been sitting by the bed for 2 hours now, and was wondering if Trixie would ever wake up. "Oh Speed, you need to get some rest, I'll watch over Trixie, while you get some food." Mom Racer had entered the room and once again taken charge of the well being of her family.
Speed looked up at the comforting image of his mother, and started to stand. "Mom, what are you doing here? I thought you went home with pop's and Spritle," Mom Racer smiled a caring smile and came over to her son.
"I did sweetie, I did, but it's important for all of us to show Trixie our support. Besides, I couldn't allow you to go for hours without food, could I?"
Mom Racer took her sons hand and squeezed it reassuringly, "I love you son, and so does Trixie, It kills me to see you in this state, and I know it would just devastate her. So, to make her life just that much easier I'm forcing you to eat and get some rest, at least do it for Trixie, Please Speed."
Mom Racer's words sunk in slowly, and everything seemed to come crashing down. Speed embraced his mother longingly and cried, letting everything finally take its toll on him.
"Mom, she won't be able to see, she wont be able to know whether I'm in good or bad shape, or if I'm being stupid around pretty girls, she'll never again be able to yell at me because of something she saw me do, never again will she puff out in anger and make me laugh, Mom, Trixie, she's, she's really blind." Speed's lip was quivering as he sobbed. His mother also had small beads of tears cascading down her smooth cheek as she patted her sons back.
"Speed dear, get some food, I'll watch her, just go and try to be strong, you must remember, Trixie need's you to help her, always help her, ok?" Mom Racer looked into her sons blue eyes filled with tears as she backed away from him.
Something his mother said hit a cord, 'Trixie need's you to help her, always help her' Speed then frantically looked around the room until he snatched a piece of paper up from the table. 'If you want to make this any easier on her, and on you, you should contact your father and have him call me.' 'She is a specialist in this field, and has helped many people to cope with blindness.' The doctor's words rung in his head, as he took off full speed towards the waiting room.
Mom Racer looked on at where her son was just a moment ago, and then sat down next to Trixie. "Trixie dear, I know you're going to be going through a tough time and that this most likely means you won't be able to Navigate for my son any longer, but please dear, never ever think you aren't welcome in our home or in our family."
After the kind declaration, Mom Racer took out a small book from her purse and started reading. "Speed will be back any moment now dear, so we'll just wait for him, alright?"
Down in the waiting room Speed had already talked to Pops who was talking to the doctor now. Speed stood impatiently by the desk.
The doctor hung up, and started to dial another number. As he did this he explained, "I'm calling Ms. Kay now, she'll want to talk to one of Trixie's guardians, and your father says to allow you to talk to her. Although you cannot make any decision's that is for your father to do. I'll be asking her to come to the hospital." As soon as he was done talking to Speed the doctor started to talk to the person on the other line.
"Ok here you go son, but remember, don't make any important decisions" The doctor handed Speed the phone. Speed nodded his head and spoke into the receiver.
"Hello, This is Gregory Racer" He had used his birth name so that she would not ask about his racing career; it really was the last thing he wanted to talk about.
~Yes, hello, I hear you have a friend who was in an accident~ the voice sounded sweet and kind, the type of voice only a mother could posses.
"Yeah I do, listen, you were recommended, and they told me that you would be able to help her, it that true?" Speed was loosing patience with the phone for no apparent reason, though he felt he should be with Trixie.
~Yes, I can help your friend, I'd be more than happy too. Although you have to understand I always finish what I start, and therefore I won't be fired and you can guarantee I won't quite. ~ As the voice spoke this she sounded strong and confident.
"Ok, but before my father hires you, I want us all to meet you, and Trixie has too say yes to it too." Speed listened for a reply that came soon after.
~Alright, Mr. Racer, I will be there by late tomorrow, I trust you'll still be at the hospital. ~
Speed had to think about that, but decided that they would be, Trixie still hadn't woken up, and she wouldn't be able to walk right away, so unfortunately they would still be in the hospital for a while longer. "Yes" After that was said they both said there good byes hung up.
Speed had headed back to Trixie's room but was drawn off his coarse by the smell of food. It may have been hospital food, but it was still food. "I guess I should get a little something, Mom would send me back down anyways, and I can get something for Trix, she's sure to be hungry when she does wake up." With his decision made, Speed headed to the empty cafeteria.
After eating a bland sandwich and a hard cookie, Speed decided to take up a yogurt for Trixie. There was no way he was going to have her eat something as bad as what he had, right when she woke up.
And so with a strawberry Yogurt and a plastic spoon in hand started towards the elevator. When he came inside the elevator he saw a small girl with blond curls in a pink nightgown looking up at him.
"Hi, there, little girl, are you lost?" Speed bent down to the child's height and looked into her innocent green eyes.
The small girl shook her head, and smiled at him. "No sir, I'm hiding" her sweet voice hung in the air. Speed looked at her curiously and decided to ask.
"Why are you hiding, and from whom?" The girl smiled and laughed gently.
"I'm hiding from the angel that's gonna visit me tomorrow." Her innocent green eyes sparkled with excitement, happy that this man was interested in her story.
The elevator had long since reached its destination, though Speed stayed inside to talk to this girl, feeling the need to return her to her family. "Why would you hide from an angel? Angel's are good."
The girl shook her head "not this one, It made mommy cry" she had a sudden look of sadness in her eyes "When my mommy told me an angel was going to come and visit me tomorrow to take me to heaven, she got really sad and cried" The girl looked up at Speed "I don't like it when mommy cries, it makes me sad."
Speed couldn't believe what he was hearing, this girl was going to die tomorrow, wasn't their anything they could do? She was so young; it didn't seem fair. He couldn't contain his curiosity. "Why is the angle going to come visit you?"
The girl smiled a huge happy smile and gladly answered "Mommy says God wants to meet me and tell me how good a girl I am." The gleam in the girl's eyes told Speed that she really had no idea what was going to happen.
"So if you want to meet God, why are you hiding from the angel?" His question was simple though he was fighting back his sobs that tried to escape.
"Because, I don't need to meet God to hear that, my mommy tells me I'm good all the time. I want to stay with mommy and make her smile when I do a goofy face." The girl showed Speed what she meant by making a face, which caused him to smile. "If I hide the angle wont be able to find me and then I can stay with mommy, she needs me because daddy's not here no more."
As she finished her speech the elevator doors opened and that same pudgy nurse from before scooped the girl up in her arms, "there you are Abigail, your mother has been worried sick about you, now come on let's get going"
As she turned and left Abigail smiled to Speed and waved. "Bye, Bye mister." Speed waved good-bye as a single tear rolled down his face.
"I, uh, better get back" Speed then once again headed to Trixie's room. This time though, he was not interrupted.
Mean While, in the room, Mom Racer had stepped out to go to the restroom; a nurse who had just finished taking notes dimmed the lights. In the bed there was a slight rustle of blankets, as a soft moan escaped the lips of the sleeping girl.
"Were am I? I wonder why it's so dark, huh, the lights must be off." Trixie's small hands reached up to the bandages on her face. Her bones were aching and burned with pain. "What's wrong with my eyes?" Suddenly everything returned to her, or at least part of it did. "Oh my god, I crashed, Oh my god, I hope Speed won," Her hands were still fingering the bandages. "Why is this on my face."
A sudden realization as to what might have happened caused Trixie to jerk, pulling out some of the needles "ouch, Oh god, Speed, were are you Speed please if you're hear answer me please." She had tried to get up though she only succeeded in falling out of the bed.
Nurses rushed in, surrounding her pushing her back to the bed. "No stop who are you leave me alone, SPEED!!!!"
Down the hall, Speed had been having a bad feeling and had started to run towards the room seeing nurses rushing inside, he tried to get past them, though they only pushed him back out into the hall.
"What's going on? What's wrong with her? Trixie?"
Hey, well I changed it just a little; the third chapter should be up either tonight or tomorrow. Were in the middle of building a new house right now so my home is real chaotic right now and hard to think up anything to right. Seeya ya latter
A special thank-you too GoldAngel2 and Hawk Sage for reviewing the last chapter.
Bye for now
~Kieri Norou