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Chapter 2: Memories, A growing love.
Even if they never said they were a couple officialy, the way they acted was pretty convincing.
They did everything together, they were seating next to one another in class, they ate together, they spent all the break together, they came and left together ... and what everybody had suspected, turned to be true: they were living together. This news came like a bomb to me.
Inside I was dead.
My love for Haruka had grown at a point I would have never thought I was able to reach for someone. And it scared me.
Two months passed, Haruka and Ayashi still together but tried to open their heart to the other students in order to make friends. Soon everybody in our class was talking friendly to each other without any discrimination. I was sure that this was one of the consequences of the accident and I was glad to see that we had all matured.
Someone said, " time heals all wounds", I wish it was true, but for me time has just increased my love for Haruka and my hatred toward Ayashi.
As I went to my penthouse near the beach, like each weekend, I couldn't help myself to think again about what happen since Haruka had entered my life.
Everything seemed to have changed drasticaly, and that's what scared me.
I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind
In spite of my fear, my pride, my shyness and everything else, I was so fond of him, that I couldn't help but to throw him some signs. Unfortunatly Haruka was too busy with Ayashi that he did never be aware of this.
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
How could Haruka influence me that much? He was just a boy, a classmate ... but I was so in love, how did it start?
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start
He came into my life one day and all I had kept deep inside of me, were then released and spreaded freely within me and this rush of feelings burned like a new born flame; sparkling and burning with ardour.
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
I knew he would never tell me those words, though I had hoped that maybe one day he would just lay an eye on me. I kept trying to approach him, but each time I was with him, we were not alone and I didn't know why but I was always speechless. I was jut standing there and staring at my shoes. I knew that if I wanted him to aknowledge me I had to talk to him, unfortunately even an eye contact wasn't possible. I was so helpless.
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
Before Ayashi came into his life, Haruka had never smile, he had only grinned. To see him smile with his heart had made me really happy but at the same time very sad. I wish I was the one, which has made him smile like this, but I wasn't and Ayashi was. All my life I had never wanted something that badly. I thought that to be near him was enough but little did I know my concious had over taken my mind.
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time
He was so kind to Ayashi, he never refused to do something if she had asked him to. How had she managed to win his heart? Among all the pupils she was the only one who really knew him and I was please that he had found someone who understood him, but to watch them together always brought me a twinge of regret.
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
I wondered about Haruka almost every day in broad daylight and night, I was crazy about him. Fortunately nobody seemed to be aware of this, since most of the time when my friends asked me why I was so sad or so tired I just told them I missed my parents too much.
All my friends knew my parents were both famous and that they were seldom at home so that's why they never asked futher more. But to go on like this wasn't doing me any good. So I tried to control myself, I wasn't like this before, therefore in order to be my oldself again I had to focus in something else.
Music and drawing was the only thing that could keep me from thinking about him.
For almost two months it had worked, then I was thinking about him only in my dream.
My grades at school were growing again slowly to reach my usual level. I avoided Haruka as much as possible. Reality was too painful; in my dreams he was kind and smiled at me while in reality he even didn't know I existed. I knew that if I was to be right beside him I wouldn't be able to stop myself from springing over him as in my dreams.
The end of May came quikly, and everywhere everybody could see summer's first sunbeams shone brightly.
As I was going to class like every monday, I was surprised to see a crowd of people surrounding Haruka and Ayashi. I thought it was probably because those two lovebirds were having something interesting to show again.
Well the last time it was because Haruka had brought Ayashi to one of the most expensive restaurant in Tokyo, and there was a photograph who took a picture of them dinning "en tête à tête" and then dancing.
The photograph explain in his newspaper that he had just took them because they were a beautiful and happy couple but when he had shown them to his boss, he was astonished to see that the handsome man was no one else than Tenou Haruka, heir of the most influence man in the whole Japan.
The story was printed in almost all the newspaper and was told again and again in the schoolyard.
Well I had to admit that it was a sweet and romantic story but the main characters were too familiar in my point of view.
Brief, I thought it was something similiar to this so I went directly to my desk, but then I started to ear people's sobs. I turned around and saw the sad expression on everybody faces. I went over them and asked one of my friends what was going on, and her answer made me thrill.
She was going to move.
It was so sudden, I barely knew her and due to my love for Haruka I hated her but to know she was going to move the same week made me sad. I knew I should be happy in a way but instead I was only sad.
How could you be happy when the one you loved was sad?
The last week before she moved was a blur, everybody was all over her, and there wasn't a minute without someone around her. We have passed a lot of time preparing her departure. The evening before the D-day, we all went to a restaurant to enjoy a last time to be all together.
It was a great time, each classmate had brought their camera and we took a lot of pictures, and we all talked to one another freely, we laughed a lot too... but in a way it was a bit too late.
The next day was the D-day, all the classmates were present at the airport.
Flashback
"Ayashi-san, we ...we will all miss you..." said a sobbing girl with shoulder length hair. Then she hugged her and apologied " I ... I am sorry for what we have done to you ... I hope you will forgive us." and then she started to cry freely.
"Hush ...it's alright, I think I have forgotten and forgiven all of the nastiness since the day I have met Haruka ... it's okay now ...excuse me but I have someone to see." said Ayashi as she gently pulled away from the embrace of the still crying girl. She eyed Haruka and went to him.
" They all have matured a little, I am happy to see that they care for you now... it's probably a little bit late but ...hm better than nothing, ne?" asked Haruka who was resting against a wall.
"That's right but I don't care now -" and without warning she leaned herself on Haruka. " All I care for it's you, my Angel." and then she wrapped her arms around Haruka's waist and leaned her head on his chest.
" Aya, you-" but Haruka was hushed by a finger.
" I know Ruka ... but I don't want to leave you"
Everybody was staring at them, all the girls have took out their handkerchiefs and kept saying how romantic it was, except for one aquamarine haired girl who watched them with envy but at the same time with sadness.
Haruka wrapped his arms around Ayashi waist and held her tight. " I don't want you to leave too ... but your family needs you..."
" I know ... that's why I'm willing to go but there is so many thing I wanted to do with you... the last week, everything has passed so quick we haven't got any time alone." Said Ayashi as she pulled away a little from the embrace to stare right into Haruka's eyes. "You know Ruka, there's something ..I-I wanted to tell you.."
Haruka stare back at those beautiful light-blue eyes and just smiled. Ayashi knew what this smile meant and so she continues but this time she couldn't hold her tears back. "I –I love " As she said those words, Haruka's smile faded away and was replaced by a serious expression.
Ayashi who saw this wanted to turn away but was stopped by a strong but warm arm, she then felt Haruka hand against her cheek.
Haruka slid his hands along Ayashi's jaw, until he cupped her face and leaned forward and kissed away her tears. "Don't...I am not worth your love... you are so-"
Before Haruka had the chance to continue, the longhaired woman reached up, stood on her toes pulling him down, and let her lips linger lightly on Haruka's, then pressed them together. First suprised, Haruka stood motionless and then realized what was happening, deepen the kiss and wrapped his arms around Ayashi's waist. Sadly, Ayashi released Haruka.
"Don't say that...I am the one who is not worth you...during the past six months you were always here for me, you never complained and in a way I somehow used you... You never refused to do me a favor and you were so kind towards me ... I couldn't help but ...to fall for you."
"Aya I know what you will say, but I-I just wanted to tell you...before my departure" With that Ayashi turned away but before she could had walked one step, Haruka held her by behind putting his arms around her shoulders and whispered in her ears "I am so sorry, I wish my heart belongs to you...but it had been already taken...unwillingly...Gomen" They stayed like that in silence for the rest of the time till the departure, while their surrounding stared at them with sadness and sympathy.
Most of the girls cried at the romantic and melancholic scene.
All except one.
End flashback
To be continued
AN: Again thx for all of you who reviewed, I really wanted to know if my English was comprehensible. I will try to check my spelling more.
I am sorry to still refer to Haruka as a guy but I do assure you that she will remain female. I have never intended to change her gender, is just for the plot and for my writing.
I am glad to see that I am not the only one who likes Greek mythology.
Hm for those who are not interested in it, don't read furthermore. The following writing is just a little summary of the story behind the characters I have mentioned in the first chapter. However, to be honest I haven't chosen those characters for no reason. Those characters and their stories can be considered as an analogy of my story and the protagonists themselves.
I will start with the legend of Adonis :
Adonis was born from incest, Myrrha his mother was transformed into a tree and Aphrodite took him away to raise him. However haven't had enough time for the baby, she decided to entrust him to Persephone. Years later, Persephone, queen of the underworld, fell for the young man who grow up with an stunning beauty and refused to give him back to Aphrodite. The goddess of beauty, who was also attracted to the young handsome man, went to Zeus to protest.
Zeus the god of gods, seeing how passionate and loving the two goddesses were toward the young Adonis, just decided to let Adonis with Persephone one-third year, an other third with Aphrodite and the last third free to choose where he wanted to go.
Well the legend doesn't end here but I think it would be too sad to tell it so I will end it here. Sorry for the curious.
The similitude? Well Haruka with her androgynous beauty is also passionately loved by two beautiful girls Ayashi and Michiru, however their situations are different from the legend. I won't say more.
For those who are interested in Persephone this is her myth.
The legend of Persephone is really known and interesting though long, so this is a little summary.
Daughter of Zeus and Demeter, she was secretly loved by Hadès, god of the underworld. Hadès helped by Zeus, abducted the young woman. Demeter worried about her daughter refused to fertilize the land if her daughter wasn't given back to her. Zeus concerned about the futur of the mortels decided to give Persephone back to her mother, but since Persephone ate food (I think it was some pomegrenade seed) from the underworld she had to remain six months with Hadès as the queen and the next six months with her mother.
Ps: In Greek mythology there are a lot of versions, I am telling you one I learnt during my Greek lessons so if you know other versions don't tell me I am wrong. It is just another version. Thx