Fire's Child
Chapter 3- Her Mind
Jay's POV
Well, isn't this just great!
I know I was a little different before, maybe even crazy, but this is just INSANE!!!
Why did I ever ask Sig to help? I like him and all, despite him tough-guy act he's really nice, but why? I didn't need his help.
Don't know why I still asked him, I think I was panicking. The thing that really pissed me of was that he brought all these other people!
What really freaked me out was the fact that I had already met four of them. Old Green-Fart, the blue-head, the squirrel and the guy with the goatee.
These damn vibes! Actually they are more like auras, little puffs of light.
Hold up, I'm a bit all over the place right now. Um... well I guess I start at the beginning.
Mum always told me I was special, but doesn't every mother say that. But I was special, though I think of it differently. It's just something I do, like second nature or whatever.
It's hard to explain. I can sense things, people, through distance and time. I see the things they went through, like I'm living with them. They're like ghosts or something. I think that's the best way to explain them.
You're either thing "Wow, how cool!" or "Someone call the Mental hospital." Both are reasons I never told anyone. Or maybe it was because I thought everyone else could do it too, so it was nothing to brag about. It was a curse, I knew too much.
And this where it grew, so to speak.
The Hut is old. I think it was built before Mar was born. I love it. It's natural and colourful (though it doesn't show) not like Haven. In Haven they've tried to make it so perfect its imperfect. It's just all the same. It's unnatural and unnerving. The Hut had a nice feel to it.
So... The Hut. I don't think I've found a single straight line in that place, isn't it great! I came here all the time. I didn't care if it was dangerous or out of city limits. Like I cared. It was my favourite place in the whole world.
Why? A presence. More like a couple of presences, even a whole populated area, but one presence in particular.
It was kind of like having imaginary friends, but I knew they were real! I saw their lives. They didn't know I was there. I watched them, saw what they did. I knew all their secrets.
I thought they were ghosts at one time; they used to play in areas where there was no solid ground. I also thought they were fairies, just because of the way I saw them. They were little more than a spec of light.
Each light puff was unique. The way the looked, shone and their colour. Like one could be blue lightning, another could be illuminated smoke and so on, varying in colour and all that other stuff. It was magical. This is how I also see the people in Haven. According to the light surrounding them that told me what type of person they were. It's kind of complicated.
I studied the geographical history of Haven City and surrounding areas when I was older. I was so amazed at how much the whole area changed. Amazed and shocked. How could it change so much?
I also studied Eco and the Precural history. It was hell interesting; I was shocked at how the Precursors' managed to keep everything so secret. Eco was also interesting. I used to dream of becoming an Eco Sage, but it was a myth
Well with my vast knowledge, quick wits and... Oh stuff it! I figured out that the 'Light Puffs" were from a different time zone.
They were from a place called Sandover Village. I'll admit that I was scared but I got over it pretty quick. I never gave it much thought, like I said it's just something I do.
So, I was a freak. I played with dead people. I lived in a different time, a different world.
I remember when Jak was born. Trust me; this has something with the story.
So, anyways, Jak was born. Mum was over the moon and I was happy for her. It was six or so years ago. He was adorable, and his aura was perfect. Everything about him was perfect. Sure, he was a little un-co but one look into those eyes and you were like, "stuff it!" He had Mum's eyes, big and blue. He was an angel... My angel.
That is when I noticed something. I didn't know what it was. I thought it was a warning because bad things started to happen, like Mum dieing and me getting imprisoned.
I remember lots of screaming. The walls were cold, food was cold, even the people were cold. Most people went mad with fear and pain. A few survived but were later killed. I get flashes of my time there, either in visions, sounds or feelings. They still haunt me; I swear I can still feel the pain of the injection. But, then, I will always have that little reminder.
Ok, fast forward. I escaped the 'Lab', joined a circus and wound up back in Haven. That's how I came to be here, in The Hut.
I could see the aura, but I didn't believe it, I still don't. That is why I am here. To find out.
In the centre of The Hut I sat cross-legged. I knew what to look for. I had to find him, so I could prove that I was insane and it wasn't real.
I couldn't find him, he was nowhere. I widened my search. He was here. I didn't believe it. He was so close. I shut it out.
I decided to try another approach. I should try and find Jak. If I found him here then maybe the other person was just that, another person. Maybe I was losing my touch, or he was like Jak.
There he was. Jak was there, at least an age away, exactly as I remember him. And there was also a feeling of déjà vu. It was so strong.
That was all I needed to know. I knew where my ghostly friend was and who he was.
He was Jak. Well, an older Jak but it was still Jak! And Jak, my angel, was dead, chronologically speaking. It was a horrible thought. I'd already lost Mum, and now I lost Jak.
My mind was just going way to fast. Thoughts were coming in and developing at record speed. I don't think I even noticed the tears.
I had to write this down. For some reason everything looks simpler on paper.
Ok here is how it goes. Jak the elder grew up in Sandover blah blah. He then got sent here, to this time. Then Jak the younger got sent to Sandover and Jak the elder remains. So it goes Jak is born here, gets sent there, comes back here and sends himself there.
Holy Fuck! We're in a time loop!! No, that not it. Goat Man's my brother!!!
Things DO look simpler on paper. Accept algebra. Algebra is just stupid. And quadratics. And index laws. Actually, anything associated with mathematics looks like absolute gibberish.
Luck and Love,
Anita