Chapter 9: Memories, Together.(part II)
.: Flashback (continue) :.
Haruka took their relationship slowly while Michiru wanted to rush things. She was too happy and wanted to know everything about Haruka but didn't push too much when she realized that Haruka wasn't really comfortable with her pace.
Sasuke took their relationship well, he knew that it would have happen be it then or later. He was surprised though to see Haruka acted a little bit distant with Michiru when they were the three of them, but after a conversation with Michiru he discovered that Haruka felt somehow guilty. Sasuke tried to convince Haruka that it was okay and that he was glad to see them happy and that he had nothing to feel guilty about. It took him a month to totally convince the blonde, but deep within him he envied Haruka and he wasn't the only one.
The couple was envied by the whole university, they were rich, known, good looking, intellectual and...happy. They were always together, except during holidays and week ends when they were home visiting their parents.
Haruka was soon presented to Michiru's friends who obviously also envied their aqua haired friend. Haruka remembered some of them, they had tried to date her back in Mugen Gakuen.
She was embarrassed to be the centre of attention every time they have to spend the day with them. They were nice but too girly in her taste. Always talking about guys, relationships, make up, clothes... She always wondered how girls could be so open when there were guys around ? Hopefully she then discovered that not every girls where like that.
She had first met two of her closest friends. Two blondes, Tsukino Usagi and Aino Minako. They were a lot alike, two beautiful girls, nice and polite but a little too extraverted perhaps.
Then she had met the three other, totally different from the two blondes. The first one she was presented to was Mizuno Ami, shy and reserved, smart and cute. At first she was always embarrassed in Haruka's presence but soon as they started to talk about science, she was always eager to see the blonde. Then she had met Hino Rei, a really beautiful woman who can enhanced you with her glance, she carried herself perfectly. And finally Kino Makoto, another beautiful woman, taller than the other and more elegant.
Things got a little awkward though when Sasuke insisted to meet them. He knew some of them from his previous year in Mugen Gakuen and being single he wanted to meet them in case one of them was his type. Unfortunately Makoto was.
From there, they started to hang a lot with them.
Haruka was then also presented to Chiba Mamoru, Usagi's boyfriend who seemed to be a gentleman. She found a new friend in him and felt a lot better when he was here. He wasn't playing along with his girlfriend or Minako when they decided to talk about love, relationship and things that are related. It was plain boring and embarrassing.
Michiru seemed to not mind, each time she just blushed and stared at her hands.
Sasuke was actively playing along, much to Haruka surprised. In fact they had never talk about those kinds of subjects before and it seemed so un-Sasuke. Haruka only concluded that Sasuke acted differently depending on whom he was with.
As months passed by like that, Michiru started to feel very close to Haruka. She was so happy that he was exactly what she had imagined, kind, caring, gentle and loving. She felt so lucky to be with Haruka it seemed almost to good to be true. Haruka was always there when she needed him, and she was thankful because that way she knew that he truly loved her.
" Michiru is there something bothering you ? You look preoccupied ?" Asked Haruka concerned. She then walked to stood by Michiru side.
"Huh ? No...I'm just thinking." Michiru softly answered still looking out the window.
"And what are you thinking about ?" Questioned Haruka as she went behind Michiru and gently wrap her arms around Michiru's shoulders.
"Nothing in particular, just about us...Are you going home this week end ?"
"Hm yes I think, you?"
"No"
"Ah...and where are you going then?"
"I think I will stay here...my parents won't be home"
"Do you want me to stay with you then ?"
"I would like that, only if you haven't planned anything with your father."
"Nothing planned." Answered Haruka smiling. She then leant down and laid a soft kiss on Michiru's lips.
The week end came quickly and Michiru was excited, she had prepared a surprise for Haruka and couldn't help but to think of it. She really wanted to do it and she wanted it to be perfect. She went to all her best friends to ask for advise and received a handful of them. They were also excited about it and helped their friend with all their hearts. It was the first time they saw their friend seriously into preparing something.
Michiru thought about it seriously, although she didn't want to rush things but her love for Haruka overtook her mind. She followed her friends suggestions and decided to take another step to their relationship. She had tried before but to no avail, the blonde seemed to be clueless each time and it made her wonder about it.
As she waited Haruka to come home, Michiru went to check again all the preparation. She knew she probably over did it this time but she couldn't help it. She loved Haruka and she wanted him to know the extent of her love.
"oh it's already 7pm, he shouldn't be long now-" Michiru said to herself but was soon interrupted by Haruka's voice coming from the entrance.
"Tadaima..."
"Okaerinasai!" Replied Michiru as she walked across the living room to meet the blonde. She softly kissed the blonde and then helped him to take off his coat.
As Haruka took a better look at Michiru, she realised that she was all dress up and somehow different. She wasn't sure if it's just her but Michiru looked especially captivating. "Ah...you look gorgeous tonight Michi...Hm Are you going somewhere ?" Asked Haruka still a little confused about the change in Michiru.
"Iie...I'm not going anywhere... we are both staying here." Replied Michiru with a charming smile. She then enlaced her arms around Haruka's neck and slowly whispered something into Haruka's ears. "Just you and I."
"Sou...so what is the plan for tonight then?" Questioned the blonde a little nervous.
"You will see." Michiru said as she took Haruka's hands and lead him to the living room.
At first Haruka was left speechless, there in the living room was a sumptuous dinner that awaited them and the room was surrounded by a splendid decoration that reflected a romantic atmosphere. Then as she realized what all this might implicitly involve, she suddenly felt trapped. She knew that she would have to face this situation one day, but she wasn't expecting it this rapidly.
As they started the dinner though, Haruka felt more and more relax. Michiru didn't seem to imply anything else as they ate through the dinner. Soon the
dessert came and still nothing happened.
"It was really good Michiru. Thank you very much for preparing this fabulous dinner. You are the best, it probably took you a lot of time though." Said Haruka feeling relieved.
"Thanks for the compliment, but I wasn't alone. Mina-chan, Usagi-chan, Rei-chan, Mako-chan and Ami-chan, they all helped me to organize this. You should thanks them too." Answered Michiru.
"Hai hai Ojou-sama...I will." Haruka smiled and bowed jokingly. "Then, let me help you clear the table. It is the least I can do to thank you for this." Haruka started to take the plates and to pile them up.
Michiru went silently behind Haruka, wrapped her arms around the blonde waist and whispered "Don't...I will take care of it tomorrow. I have a surprise for you now." Michiru took Haruka's hand and lead them to her bedroom.
Haruka was lost in her thought and didn't pay attention to where she was heading. 'Michiru is different tonight, she is more seductive and more forward. I have to be careful, I knew that we would one day or another reach this point but...I'm too scare to tell her, she meant to much to me...'
As Haruka came back to reality she found herself in Michiru's bedroom sitting in her bed.
Haruka's heart started to beat faster as her eyes met Michiru's. Michiru's deep blue eyes were shinning with love and longing and to Haruka's regret with determination.
Michiru was standing in front of Haruka and was staring directly into Haruka's eyes. They had never been in each other bedroom at night before and because of this Haruka knew what Michiru implied.
" Michiru..." Haruka said softly. She wanted to say more but the sight before her just prevented her to say anything else.
Michiru silently and shyly undressed herself. She remained in her undergarment and slowly made her way to the blonde.
"Please Haruka' Michiru whispered, she then bent down and pressed her lips onto Haruka's. 'spend the night with me." She then added.
Haruka just sat motionless. She didn't know what to say, her heart was aching to take this beautiful woman in her arms and to spent the night with her but the reality of the situation didn't give her this chance.
Still waiting for an answer, Michiru kneeled in front of the blonde. She never broke eye contact with Haruka.
Silently Haruka cupped Michiru's face and caressed tenderly the aqua haired girl's cheeks. "Michiru...Are you sure this is what you want ?" Asked the blonde seriously.
"Yes I'm sure...you are all I want." Michiru took Haruka's right hand in hers and slowly laid it in her chest, just above her heart. "...my heart is beating for you Haruka and my love for you just keep growing day after day...I love you so much, my body ache to be near yours." Michiru shyly explained to the blonde.
"I love you too Michiru...but-" Haruka started to say but was cut before she could add another word. Michiru flung herself into Haruka and kissed her with longing, she then started to unbutton Haruka's shirt but was interrupted by Haruka's grip. "We can't Michiru..." Said Haruka releasing Michiru's hands.
"Why?...why can't we?" Asked Michiru with a sad pleading voice. Tears slowly made their way down her cheeks and soon formed droplets. "Am I...am I not attractive...enough?"
Seeing this Haruka couldn't help but to curse herself. She had thought about this kind of situation many times before, but each time it was the same, she couldn't come up with a fine way to explain the matter.
"Michiru, you are beautiful and very attractive. I wish I could tell you why...but I don't think...well I'm not sure about how you would react and more importantly I don't want to lose you..." Replied Haruka.
"I'm not leaving you and I won't, you are all I want no matter what you are going to say...Ruka. Please open up to me, I want to know everything about you..." Pleaded Michiru. She then took both Haruka's hands in hers and hold them tightly.
"I'm sorry Michiru, I can't..." Haruka felt an immense guilt washed over her and she couldn't afford to fool the aqua haired girl any longer. It was insane to play with a girls heart and she knew she deserved everything the aqua haired girl will throw at her.
"I'm really sorry Michiru..." Haruka suddenly stood up and stayed in front of Michiru. She didn't look at the aqua haired girl, she just stayed head down and after a moment she slowly bowed. "I don't deserve your love and trust...and if we stay together I will only hurt you more. I think it will be better if we...stop seeing each other..." Haruka said with regrets.
Michiru sat flabbergasted, she couldn't believe what Haruka just say. It was like a big joke someone was playing on her, but as she saw the serious and sad expression on Haruka's face she knew it wasn't a joke.
"Don't...don't leave me Haruka, we don't have to do it if you don't want. I was selfish to not consider your feelings." Said Michiru shivering. She then stood up and walked to Haruka. She wrapped her arms around the blonde and stayed close to the warmth of Haruka body. "Please don't let me down..." She whispered, tears in her eyes.
"I...I truly love you Michiru, but I...I'm not who you think I am." Whispered the blonde, after an instant of hesitation.
"What do you mean?" Asked Michiru, she pulled away a little to look at Haruka and was surprised to see tears forming in those beautiful teal eyes.
Haruka reluctantly pulled Michiru away and started to unbutton her shirt. She then took one of Michiru's hand and put it under her t-shirt. Michiru tensed a little as she felt bandages all around Haruka's chest. She tried to pull her hand away but Haruka didn't let her hand go and pressed it again on her chest.
"Haruka...you..." Michiru look up and met Haruka eyes, slowly she understood. She abruptly took a step back her eyes never leaving Haruka's ones. Tears streamed down her cheeks.
"I'm sorry..." Haruka said but was cut short as she received a forceful slap.
"How can you...! You bastard! I don't believe it..." Michiru screamed. She lowered herself on the carpet and let go of the frustration and the despair that flow inside of her body.
Considering the situation, Haruka wasn't really sure what she ought to do but seeing Michiru state she decided to follow her heart. She slowly bent down and went to comfort the aqua haired girl but as she neared her, Michiru's voice made her stop.
"Don't touch me!" Michiru shrieked away, she grasped her blanket and tried to cover herself. "You...You pervert! Get out of here..." Michiru cried, the truth was too painful and she couldn't handle it at the moment.
"I don't want to see you ever again!" She shouted looking intently into sad teal eyes. She then suddenly stood up and went to Haruka with anger in her eyes. Haruka immediately stoop up knowing that she wasn't welcome anymore and tried to retreat out of the bedroom but was roughly pushed out of it. Haruka stumbled and fell to the ground and against the wall knocking in the way a vase. The large vase half fell on top of her and broke as the impact made contact with her head. Haruka slowly got up and strolled silently to the bathroom to get her cut clean, leaving a slight trail of blood.
later on, Haruka still laid in her bed. She was pondering on what had happened earlier between her and Michiru, and couldn't help but to feel somehow betrayed. She knew Michiru had all the right to act the way she did, but somewhere in her heart she had thought that Michiru would have understand or at least let her explained.
'Love is ephemeral' Haruka sadly thought.
.: End Flashback :.
Once she reached the door of the room, she stayed a moment there thinking and lost in her thoughts. The memories of their past relationship and their broke up still lingered in her mind. She wanted to trust her heart again but it seemed to be as indecisive as she was. Her eyes were fixed on the doorknob as she pondered again and again over the situation. However as she was going to turn the doorknob she heard Sasuke.
"Ayashi-san, I know it might be uncalled for me to ask you that but are you ...hmm still in love with Haruka?" Asked carefully Sasuke.
Ayashi hearing Sasuke's question, turned her head to the windows and looked far away into the sky where she could see the stars shone brightly. After a moment of silence she turned to face Sasuke and answered back tenderly.
" Yes, I am...He is the one I first fell for and he will be the last one."
"I see... you truly love him." Stated Sasuke kindly, but at the same time he couldn't help but to fell sorry for a certain aqua haired girl.
The door opened at that moment and Haruka entered innocently.
"You are already awake, do you want something to eat Aya ? I thought that you might be hungry once you woke up so I decided to run some errands." Asked Haruka smiling.
"Ruka..." Whispered Ayashi, she then tenderly smiled back.
Haruka walked to the bed and sat there, she showed Ayashi what she had bought and asked the girl to take whatever she wanted.
"You shouldn't have bought so many flavours Ruka, you know I'm not difficult."
"Yep, I know but I wanted you to have something you like. Maybe a salad?" Proposed Haruka.
"Yes, I would like that. Thank you, and what about you?" Asked Ayashi.
" For me...Hmm I don't know, I think I will have a sandwich. And you Sasuke? Are you hungry ?" Haruka turned to her friend and showed him a sandwich.
"Like hell, you think that seeing so many foods won't remind my stomach that it haven't gotten anything this evening ?" He replied eagerly.
TBC
AN: There must be a lot of mistakes...Sorry. I don't have time and the courage to check everything. I'm kind of lazy lately...but I will try to finish this story first before going completly lazy.
Like this chapter? You have to tell me. Don't understand why Haruka is a 'she' and then 'he' and so on? Well Haruka is a 'she' but back then Michiru still thought Haruka was a 'he'.