Chapter 13 : Tell me.
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"Oh I see you are all set." Said Kenji as he entered the small hospital room.
"Yes, thanks to Sasuke." Replied Ayashi smiling. "Where is Haruka?" She then asked as she saw no trace of the blonde.
"Ah I don't know. He just ran away saying he has something to do and that he will be home for the supper." Answered Kenji. He didn't like to lie to the blonde girl, but if it was important to Haruka then he would made an exception.
"Souka..." Whispered Ayashi wistfully.
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As Haruka neared the building, she couldn't help but to feel tense. She knew that to the aqua haired girl, the moment they had shared together was more important than anything that took place in their surrounding.
For Haruka, it was the same until she found out about Ayashi's illness.
She was aware that it was a dream that happened once and that now it was a dream impossible of fulfilment, for life was unfair.
"I have to apologize...first." Said Haruka to herself. She then entered the building.
In front of the door, Haruka hesitated. She didn't know what to say or what to do, for she knew she had truly hurt Michiru by disappearing without a word.
Trying to calm herself, she slowly raised her hands to knock at the door. After a few minutes and several knocks, the blonde wondered if the aqua haired girl was at home.
"I guess I will have to use this..." Haruka took out from her pocket a card and slide it in a socket near the door. It was the key card from when she lived there, she had kept it as a souvenir but mostly because she hadn't wanted to turn the page. Returning the key was almost like returning everything they had shared.
As she slowly made her way to the apartment, Haruka saw a scattered vase. "It was her favourite." She said sadly.
She approached it and took the broken pieces but as she looked closely she saw what looks like dried blood on the floor.
"Michiru!" The blonde immediately stood up.
She then followed the small trail of blood that leaded her to the living room where she found the aqua haired girl lying on the floor with only her housecoat on her.
"Michiru?" Asked the blonde worried as she pulled the aqua haired girl to her. She looked carefully over Michiru's body to see if there's any cut but find none at first. Then as she saw a small blood puddle under the aqua haired girl's foot, she instinctively went to examine them.
"She's still bleeding...hopefully it's not too deep." Said Haruka to herself. She then stood up and carried the unconscious Michiru to her bedroom.
After attending the aqua haired girl's wounds, Haruka went to clean the little mess in the apartment. Once she had finished, she went back to Michiru's bedroom and sat beside her bed.
"I wonder what happened..."
Softly she caressed Michiru's hair and gazed at her beautiful sleeping face.
"I'm sorry..." Said quietly Haruka to the sleeping girl after a moment. "You know I had first decided to stay true to my feelings, but things happened and...I don't know what to do now. I wish I didn't find out, but I do..."
Tears slowly strolled down her cheeks. She covered her eyes with one hand and quietly cried.
It hurt so much.
Once she was calmed, Haruka decided to write a note to the aqua haired girl because she knew that she wouldn't be able to talk face to face with Michiru.
As she started slowly to ponder on what to write, the blonde couldn't help but to think about the future and the consequences her decision would bring about.
The note written, she placed it on the night table as well as the key card. She then went to sat on the bed side.
Gently she bent down and kissed Michiru's forehead. "I will miss you." She then gazed at Michiru's face and saw that even in her dream she was crying. As tears streamed down the aqua haired girl's face, Haruka gently wiped them away and gave her a soft kiss on the lips. "I love you." She stayed a moment there sitting on the bed side and staring quietly at Michiru's face.
Sadly then, she slowly stood up and was turning to leave when she heard Michiru's voice. "Don't...leave."
The blonde closed her eyes but did not turned around. She hadn't expected Michiru to wake up, at least not so fast. Now she didn't know what to do, she knew that if she were to meet the aqua haired girl's eyes she wouldn't be able to leave. "Gomen..." Apologized the blonde. She then resumed her walk to the door.
"Ruka!" Called Michiru. She didn't want to let the blonde go without knowing what happened. She only remembered dreaming about Haruka and then felt Haruka's lips on her. Michiru tried to get up but the wound on her foot made it difficult for her.
"Ah...Ittai..." She lost her balance and leant on the night table. However her body weaken by the lost of blood wasn't strong enough to support her weight, overthrowing everything that was on the night table Michiru fell to the floor.
Hearing the aqua haired girl tossing her blanket away, Haruka tried to restrain her desire to turn. She knew Michiru was too weak to move, but as she heard glass and other things dropped to the floor she instinctively looked back and saw Michiru fell.
Before the aqua haired girl could touch the hard floor, Haruka had came to her rescue.
"A-Arigato..." Managed to say Michiru. She was in Haruka's arms and she hugged the blonde tightly. "Don't leave me..." She pleaded quietly to Haruka.
Haruka felt trapped, she wanted to hug Michiru back but she knew that it wouldn't help her to turn the page.
After a moment of silence, she remembered the conversation she had had with her father and the decision she took. She couldn't go back on her words. She had to repress her feelings and tried to end it as soon as possible. "I'm sorry." She sadly said.
Michiru looked up and met empty teal eyes.
"Why?" She cried with tears in her deep blue eyes. "Why did you come back then ?..." She asked as she lowered her head. She couldn't bear to see Haruka's eyes so empty of emotion.
"I wanted to apologized...for what happened." Said Haruka looking away. She felt really guilty for running away without words.
"That's it!..." Michiru pulled back from Haruka violently and stared at the dumbfounded blonde. "For you, it was only lust? How ...can you? First you slept with me ...without considering my feeling and then you left without a word !" She cried.
"Michi-" Haruka wanted to explain that she was misunderstanding but Michiru didn't let her explain.
"Don't!" Interrupted Michiru.
Haruka felt silent. She didn't know why the aqua haired girl was always so reluctant to let her finish her explanation and to stop her whenever she said one word. And most of all why did she always have to jump to a totally opposite conclusion. 'Am I so unbelievable ?...Maybe she will never trust me again...' Haruka thought sadly to herself.
"You're the worst!" Said Michiru her voice now seething in anger.
"..." Haruka said nothing, Michiru had all the right to insult her for she had somehow played with her feeling. She hated the situation in which she was, but she couldn't go back.
"I'm not asking you to forgive me... but please accept my apologize." Said Haruka softly. She didn't want to leave without properly saying sorry.
"Oh so you are sorry ?... And for what? Sleeping with me? Leaving me? Breaking my heart?...Tell me Haruka, for what do you apologize?" Cried Michiru. She was fuming and she wasn't going to let the blonde hurt her any more."For all of them." Haruka whispered sadly. If she wanted to follow what she thought was the best then she had to do it wholeheartedly. Last night she had a conversation with her father and he had made her realized that it was probably better if she let go of Michiru. Haruka knew deep down that her father was somehow right, Michiru was indeed a beautiful girl with a bright future. She once had told Haruka about her dream of getting married, having children and spending the rest of her life with her family. Back then Haruka had felt a twinge of pain hearing Michiru speaking so happily about her dream, a dream she knew she wouldn't be a part of it. She wanted Michiru to realize this, but it seemed like the aqua haired girl was clueless. 'Even if it hurts, it's the best... for all of us.'
"Get out...". Said Michiru as she turned her back to Haruka after a moment. "...Please, I've had enough." Her voice was filled with hurt, she was tired of this play and she didn't want to be the only one to play it unconditionally.
"I will go, but before I want you to know that I never wanted this...Maybe one day you will understand. Gomen Michi..." As she finished her sentence, Haruka walked out of the room and out of the apartment.
Once the door closed, Michiru fell to her knees, buried her head in her hands and cried desperately. She had tried to hate the blonde, to blame her, to insult her but in the end she couldn't help but to feel her heart pound for the blonde. "Why?...after what she did? Why do I still love her!" She shouted to the empty room.
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An: Sorry that was short but I had to cut this chapter somewhere. Next chapter will be up soon though.
Apl85, thanks for the several reviews you left me since I started the fic. They've encouraged me to keep up writing and to improved my english...well at least I hope I have.
Papapapuffy, I'm glad you enjoy this chapter...there's still a few to look forward.
Rushingwind, thank you for your review, it helped me to write some passages in Chapter14 ! And life isn't a long quiet river, that's why choices had to be made even if it's hurt. Thus Haruka's choice.
Haruka's Knight, Thank you for your review, I know I've been to harsh on Michiru...I myself felt bad for her but she is the principle character of the drama, so she must endure for now.
Bahamut's king, I'm glad you like chapter13 and found it sad and romantic that's what I wanted to show through.
Shinn, your review is always full of enthousiasm! Thank you. Hope this chapter gave you your answers and don't jump on any conclusion till the end ! As I said to Rushingwind, Life isn't a long and tranquil river !
Jeannie, thanks for your review, I like it to know that people enjoyed reading my fic and got moved. That's one of the reason that makes me keep writing.