Chapter One.
My life as I know it is over. I'm sitting in front of my pc writing this. I can't even look at what I just typed. I can't believe I told him like this. He is worth so much more to me. I wish now I hadn't logged on. I wish I had gone to Lilly's house to do our homework together. I had refused because I thought Lilly might figure it out but oh if I had only known. I so had not planned for him to find out like this. I wanted to be near him when I told him. I wanted to hold his hand and I wanted him to hold me close and tell me that it would be okay and that he would stick by me like in the movies. It can never be like that now. What have I done? Oooohhhh noooo instant message.
SkinnerBx: Mia you shouldn't joke about things like that.
Ftlouie: terminated.
"Mia what have you been saying to my brother?" Lilly asked once we were inside the school wall and the only other person who could hear us was Lars. I laughed nervously, "Nothing Lilly why?"
"Mia don't lie to me. We were talking last night and he seemed really upset. I asked him if it was about you Mia and…"
"AND!"
"And he didn't say anything else."
I literally breathed a sigh of relief! I really thought for a minute that Michael had told Lilly. I managed to get through this morning and now its after lunch and I'm sitting here in G&T writing this. Tina just passed me a note.
Mia? What's up with you lately? Lilly thinks you and M had a fight.
No we didn't. there's nothing up!
Mia don't lie to me!
I'm not Tina. Honestly we couldn't be better.
I'm at home now. I should so be doing my homework but I can't bring myself to care about such things as that right now. After all my life is totally and completely over. It's ruined. This cannot happen to a princess. It just cant'! Oh god just think what Grandmere will say. I don't want to think what she'll say! I am so dead!
I lost count of how many times I had to double back in the hallways today. I had to keep away from Lilly. Which is practically impossible seen as she's in most of my classes and the fact that she's my best friend in the whole world definitely does not help the situation.
When we were on our way home Lars finally noticed that something beyond the normal teenage traumas was bothering me. And naturally being Lars he asked me outright. Were Michael and I fighting? Or was it to do with Grandmere? I have no idea why everyone assumes it's to do with Michael. I tried to lie to Lars and I found it so difficult. Then I tried to tell the truth and it was even harder. So I lied.