Chapter 8: Blue

A/N: I'm going to try and make this work. I'm not feeling my best and I want to try and at least get a chapter up every week so I don't strain myself. I was reading the Buffy the Vampire Slayer novelization of the final season and I can across the chapter/episode: "Conversations With Dead People" and I got a wild idea. I also took some inspiration from the episodes of Buffy where Angel looses his soul and you see flashbacks thanks to Whistler. So, this chapter will jump around, so here's the KEY: Bold is a flashback with Deirdre narrating them, Italics is music, normal is the present. Everyone get that, good, now on we go. Oh, and don't mind Deirdre, she's actually cool, despite her appearance. HINT, HINT! Oh, by the way, I would like to thank the reviewer who "shot" me for the last chapter, talk about a wake up call, hehe.

Disclaimer: I don't own the song Blue by Angie Hart or any of the scenes that may seem similar to any Buffy episodes.

Night falls, I fall,

And where were you, and where were you?

As the rest of the group gain conciousness, they began to notice that something wasn't right, that someone was missing.

"She'll be fine, we just needed to borrow her for a bit," said a small, feminine like voice from the over in the direction of the door.

No one could make out a figure, but someone was indeed standing by the door. The scent of liquor lingered throughout the room.

Yusuke, being concerned over his sister's safety, didn't quite buy the person's statement.

"Oh, but Yusuke, you sister's fine. It's her call that you should be concerned about."

Yusuke raised an eyebrow, "What call?"

The figure then came into sight, but there was something about it that didn't settle well with anyone. Then by the flash of some light, they saw just what made them not fell right.

Whoever it was was either not human or just walking around decomposing all over the place. It was clearly a female, the age could be questionable. Her left eye was hanging out from it's socket, her throat looked like it had tryed to be ripped out. The gashes in her stomach looked like they were molding and yet they were still bleeding.

"That's not all..."

The figure turned around and there, right in the middle of her head, was a hole the size of a softball, at least.

When she turned back around, she wasn't agitated with the looks of disgust and revulsion she was recieving from the others. She chuckled a bit.

"There's no need for you to feel that way, what happened to me happened a long time ago. In fact, Miss Josephine didn't even give me those looks, she thought it was quite, what was that word she used, ah, intriguing."

There still was no responce from the others, so the figure chuckled again.

"Oh, how rude of me, my name is Deirdre, I was, am, something, but I'm Jo's guide, if that's what you would call it. I helped the girl throught her craziest times, okay there was only one, but it was, honestly, I had never seen her the way she was until then. It scared me, it scared all of us."

Kurama, who was deeply interested in Deirdre at this point, finally spoke up.

"How did she scare, how could she scare you."

Deirdre face, no matter how torn and mangled it was, it couldn't hide the little sign of failiure on her face.

"She got bad, like really bad. It seemed as if she had died and another...creature surfaced. She killed, not like she usually would do, she killed for the amusement of seeing others suffer under her."

Warm skin, wolf grin, where were you?

Jo, heh, when I first met her, she was like she is towards you now. Then after a year or so, she slowly began to change, that is after she received a "gift" from someone.

"Hey, Deirdre, look what I found."

I watch as Jo, who was about fifteen at the time, come running into her bedroom holding a red velvet box.

"You'll never believe what I just found."

I just smiled at her. She was good for finding things as where things finding her.

"What, what did you find this time?"

Jo smirked at me and opened the box for me to see. When she opened it, I should have know, but it didn't hit me right off the bat. Inside the box was a necklace, more like a talisman, it was beatiful. By the way it looked, it was clearly pure silver, the little gemstone in it seemed to change colours as she took it out of the box. It clearly went from blue, to pure black.

I fell into the moon and it covered you in blue.

I fell into the moon,

Can I make it right?

Can I spend the night?

Hiei noticed something this time.

"She still wears it, but it's not black, it's more blue or purple."

Deirdre simply nodded, "Yes, that's because I had to teach her to control herself."

High tide, inside,

The air was dew and where were you?

A week had passed since she had recieved that necklace and her mood began to change drasitcally. She had become more irratable, touchy, short-tempered.

One day I had found her in her room with an athemy, carving the word KILL into her wall. The word she carved did disturb me, but she always written on her walls, ya know, poems, songs, spells, things like that, but this was getting bad.

"Josephine, what'cha doing?"

When I had met Josephine, I only had the hole in my head and my eye torn out, but the rest of it happened after I asked her that one question.

Jo turned and just stared at me, her eyes seemed dead and her hair, her hair had taken on a raven colour.

"Josephine, what the matter?"

She seemed to laugh at me, not out loud, but with her eyes.

"You silly, silly being. You do not question me. Why do you guardians think that you have to know EVERYTHING?"

I was a bit taken back by her outburst. I never asked much of her, I just informed and helped out when I could, but I never asked her anything that she could have possibly been thinking about.

That's when it happened, she lunged at me, knocking me into the door, which had closed on it own.

"Josephine, what's wrong with you?"

When she looked back up at me, the necklace was glowing black and her eyes were her normal eyes, they were black, like all the way BLACK.

"Hmm, Deirdre, I wonder what would happen if I did, maybe, this."

She had then taken her athemy and ripped it across my stomach a couple times very quickly, obviously loving every minute of it.

"It seems that you can still bleed, that's good."

At that point she had taken hold of my neck, I didn't know her intentions. I had no clue whether she was going to snap my neck, strangle me, slit it, I just didn't know.

She still had that stare. I tryed to get away from her, but she wouldn't budge. Then she raise the athemy once more and just began slicing, pulling off skin in chunks. She honestly thought she was killing me, but she couldn't, I was already dead and somewhere inside her, she knew that as well.

I finally gave in and colapsed so she would stop. She laughed at this and kicked me aside, leaving the room with her athemy in hand.

While I, I died,

And where were you?

Jo slowly regained conciousness and looked around. The room she was in was vaguely familiar. The walls...the walls, that was it. She was in her old room, the one were...

"DEIRDRE!"

"Ah, so the halfing decided to wake up."

Jo looked behind her and saw him, her friend and the last victim to the necklace.

"Ollie, what's going on?"

Ollie, with the hole in his chest where his heart used to be. The hole that Jo had indeed made herself.

"Your check up, you didn't forget now, did you?"

Jo shook her head. She knew about her checkup, how could she forget it.

"You ready?"

Jo sighed, "As I'll ever be."

I crawled out of the world and you said

I shouldn't stay.

I crawled out of the world.

Can I make it right?

Can I spend the night?

Alone?

Alone?

Alone?

I watched Jo as she rampaged through the town, taking down everyone, even if they just as much as glanced in her direction.

While attacking one of her victims, a friend named Ollie had caught up with her and stopped her from killing the person.

"Jo, what are you doing?"

Before Jo could answer or attack again, Ollie had drug her to a nearby alley way and shoved her against the wall.

"What's wrong with you?"

"Nothing, why woul you think that?"

Ollie had seen what I had seen and knew that she was lying.

"Come on, lets go find Deidre."

And just as he turned his back, Josephine pinned him to a wall, brought up her athemy, and dug out Ollie's heart, right out of his chest.

"No Deirdre..."

Then she passed out.

I fell into the moon

And it covered you in blue.

I fell into the moon.

"...That's never been able to leave Josephine's mind. She has so much guilt over hurting me and killing Ollie."

As Yusuke went to say something, the buzzing sound came back as well as the shadows. Deirdre seemed to be happy with the shadows arrival.

"Ah, there's our Josephine."

Right as Deirdre said that, Jo stepped out of the shadow as well as a boy that had a hole in his chest, who obviously had to be Ollie.

Jo sight clearly made Deirdre proud to be her guardian, attacked or not, she still cared for Jo.

"Josephine, I hope the check up went fine."

Jo smiled, "Yes it did, no black aura at all."

Satisfied with the answer, Deirdre walked up to Jo and touched her face lightly.

"I must go now, but I will be nearby as will Ollie. You take care. There are alot of people here who care for you dearly."

Jo nodded.

Before Ollie took off, she had one more thing to say.

"Oh and Yusuke, don't be to overprotective, she just wants you to love her, not worry about her so much."

Then they were gone.

Jo stood staring at where her two friends had been standing.

"She told you, didn't she, about me, about the necklace?"

Jo sighed and began to walk towards her room, but was stopped by a hand on her shoulder, obviously Yusuke.

"No, don't ask anymore. I just need...time."

Yusuke released his hand from Jo's shoulder and everyone watched as she walked to her room and shut the door leaving the others to just wonder what was really inside that head of hers.

In Jo's room, she just lay there on her bed starting at the ceiling.

Can I make it right?

Can I spend the night?

Alone?

THERE! I did it and that only took me three hours to do. How proud you all must be.

Yeah, so this will be updated once a week, so I can come up with a pretty good idea for the chapter and type it out so it's like this and not too short.

Ugh, I am indeed sick and it sucks, I'm dragging myself arround everywhere. It's funny though 'cause it's cloudy today and cold, so I have a blanket wrapped around me and slippers. To be brutally honest, it looks like I'm ready for winter, but hey, I hate the cold.

I think that's it for now, so yeah, I'm outie.

Rowan-chan