Desert Palm Hospital Las Vegas, Nevada Nov.19, 2003, 5:00pm I was sick, and when I say
sick, I mean throwing up my guts sick. So sick that it hurt to move, even to open my eyes. Though
I was freezing, I could feel the perspiration on my forehead.
"Tessa, honey take a drink of water." Nick coaxed gently. I managed to open my eyes slightly. "I
can't I managed." My moth was as dry as cotton. "Tessa, you have to stay hydrated. I closed my
eyes and leaned back against the pillows, as he placed the straw in my mouth. The water felt cool
as I swallowed it and for a moment I felt a little better.
"
Do you want to try to eat something?" He asked as he placed a cool wet cloth on my forehead. I
hadn't eaten all day and just the thought of food made my stomach turn.
Ishook my head weakly. "No." I managed.
"Tessa, Honey, remember what the doctor said? If you can get yourself to eat something, regain some of your strength, then you cam go home for Thanksgiving"
"Yeah, well that's easy enough for the two of you to say, But you're not the ones puking your guts out, you're not the ones in so much pain that it made you wish that you were already dead so that you didn't have to put up with all of this shit."
I was spitting the words put so fast that I was beginning to wonder if it was really me saying all of those things.
I took in the shocked look on Nicks face and instantly felt bad for my out burst I had rarely ever flipped out like that. I never got mad. I was "Cool-as-a Cucumber Tessa"
The ever happy CSI with the "Infinite Patience"
"I..I'm sorry hun, I didn't mean to blow up like that." I said softly.
"Tessa, it's ok. You have every right to be mad, you have every right to blow up"
I looked at him. "I know but still…" I began.
Nick just smiled at me. Taking my hand he leaned over and kissed me. "Now I can tell every one that 'Cool-as-a Cucumber Tessa.' does have her moments"
I couldn't help but smile at that. I looked over at the try sitting on the side table. "Whats under that cover anyway?" I asked. "creamy lookin' potatoes, a bowl of soup, some green stuff"
"I'll eat the soup." I interrupted, as I slid the table over so that I could reach my food.
I took a spoonful of the stuff, which was surprisingly still warm.
Now im not one that's fond of hospital food but this soup wasn't all that bad. And I have to say that after I had finished I did feel a bit better. Three days later, I got the news that I was waiting for. I could go home for Thanksgiving. "Before you go Tessa, there's something that you should know."
Doctor Hart's voice stopped me before I was out of my seat. "The results of the last set of tests that we ran, have come back"
I sat frozen in my chair, waiting to hear what Doctor Hart was going to tell me.
And little did I know that this news was going to throw my world into even more chaos.