Affairs of the Heart

Part One: High Doubts

Chapter four

"Are you sure?" Jesse gave me a hug.

"Yeah, how was your day? Do anything interesting?" I said, trying to pump Jesse for information.

"I just went out to lunch with Katie, that's all." He said letting go of me.

"Oh, okay, how was that." See at least he is honest.

"Fine, she is sad, she is morning after the lost of her brother. He died about a week ago."

"That's so sad."

"Yeah, I am going to just look out to see if he moved on or not, you know just in case."

"Yeah."

The rest of the week was quiet; we had no visits from any ghosts. I was happy, it meant I could get a good start on my homework. I was especially glad that I hadn't seen Sam. But my luck would run out three weeks later.

I got a visit from a ghost, her name was Georgie. She was a sweet woman who needed some help. She had money that she wanted to leave for her daughter to go to college, but she was certain that her son's wife was going to try and steal it. She was always looking for a way to scam money out of her and this was her chance.

I felt so bad. I just had to help.

"Where can I find her son's wife?" I asked Georgie, sitting on my couch in the living room. Jesse was out late again studying.

"She goes to this bar called "The Big Sur pub". You can find her there." She said.

"Okay, I'll get back to you Georgie."

"Thank you Suze." And she dematerialized.

I went to my closet and prepared to get this money back for Georgie's daughter. I put on my Batgirl boots, my leather jacket and left. I drove around Carmel and found The Big Sur Pub near the outskirts of town north. I parked my car and went in. Looking for Veronica, who Georgie described as an skank. This didn't help much, or at least I thought. I looked inside the bar and say a woman in her early thirties smoking and looking like she had been mauled. No seriously, her clothes looked like they had been shredded off her. Her shirt and skirt looked like they have been cut up.

I tapped her shoulder and said, "Veronica?"

She turned around and looked me up and down. "Yeah?"

"Do you mind if I talk to you for a second? It is an important."

"Whatever," She turned to the man next to her and said "Be back in a minute hun."

We walked out front and I turned and look at her. "What do you want?" she said to me very rudely.

This bitch.

"Veronica, I know what you are doing, and you need to stop."

"What it is natural for a woman to cheat." She lit up a cigarette.

Whoa, this woman was a number, "No, I know about the college money. It's Georgie's daughters. Stay away from it or I will call the cops." I said very rudely back.

"What's in it for you?"

"Nothing. But do it or else."

She took a step towards me. "What is a little thing like you going to do?" She laughed. Before I could swing a punch Veronica was pushed by a force backwards. She fell hard and got back up. I turned around and looked. I knew that force anywhere. Behind me glowing was Sam. I gave him the death stare, shooting daggers at him.

"What the hell? I am getting out of her, this bitch, you are crazy." Veronica ran inside the pub staggering a bit.

"WHAT THE FUCK SAM? WHAT WERE YOU DOING YOU ASS?" I screamed at him. I was pissed beyond belief.

"I was only trying to help. Damn, no thank you?"

"I DON'T NEED ANY HELP! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I stormed off to my car. I drove home, still steaming. I walked inside and punched my punching bag, which surprisingly hasn't been touched much since Sam's first visit.

It was now 11 o'clock, Where was Jesse? This wasn't like him. I started to worry. Damn him for not wanting a cell phone. I changed into my pajamas and waited on my couch, I was starting to worry even more. I curled up into a ball and watched a movie, next thing I knew I had fallen asleep.

"Querida? Are you awake?" I heard Jesse's soft voice waking me. I woke up and looked at the clock. It said 11:45.

"Jesse" I croaked, "Where were you?" I asked sitting up even more.

"Querida, I was studying, remember? With Katie."

Oh, figures you know, I mean that's all he hangs out with anymore. He is always studying with Katie. But I can't blame him, he has to worry about exams, this is his final year before medical school.

"Oh, right." I felt, sort of dumb.

"Susannah, why do you smell like smoke?"

"Oh, mediating and all."

"Why didn't you tell me? I would have helped."

"Jesse, you need to study." I said, standing up walking towards our bedroom. I sat down on our bed and crawled under the sheets.

"But, so do you. Susannah, I feel like we never get to see each other anymore." He said to me as he started to rub my back, oh it felt so good to be touched by Jesse, I hardly ever get to anymore.

"Tell me about it." I mumbled, my back still facing Jesse.

"Susannah, tell me what is wrong." Jesse said. I didn't say anything for a couple of seconds. I turned and looked at him and sighed, "Jesse, I…" Jesse, I what? Want you to stop hanging around with Katie and start having more sex with me? He needs to study.

"I just miss you." I said giving him a small smile and a kiss on the lips. I turned back around.

I could tell he knew that wasn't it. But he, thankfully, didn't push it.

"Good night, Susannah."

"Good night Jesse." And I fell asleep.

The next day was Saturday, and I was meeting Cee cee and Gina and we were going to do a day of shopping. After wards, I was going out to dinner with Jesse, so I needed a little black dress.

At least, that's what I thought.

We walked into the shop and looked around.

"Hey, Suze" I turned around and looked at Gina, "What about this one?" She asked fingering a slutty number.

"My ass and boobs would be hanging out Gina, not that I have much."

"Well, what about this one?" Cee Cee held up the gaudiest dress she could find. Shoulder pads and all.

"No, never." I said turning down the dress, and looked around some more.

I finally found some select few which I thought were nice. So I went to try them on. The first few were okay, just plain slip dresses which I have some like them at home, but Jesse and I haven't gone out in a while, so I was not looking for a slip dress.

I looked at this final dress. It was so beautiful. It was spaghetti strap, the top was very form fitting and the skirt of the dress went to my knees and was all wavy. So, if you spin it would become full.

I looked at my self in the mirror; Jesse is going to drop dead.

"Wow, Suze you look great!" Cee gushed.

"Yeah, Jesse is going to wanna hump you when he sees you in that dress." Gina stated.

"Gina my friend, you have a sick, sick mind." I went back into the dressing room to change back into my clothes. I was about to open the door when I heard a voice.

"Hello? …Hey, what are you doing? …I'm just getting a dress, you know try my chance at getting another date … so what if he is engaged, It's not like he is married …The girl, she is so not a catch … Ha ha, I know … Well I will talk to you later, I got to call Jesse and get this date rolling…"

My moth dropped.