Affairs of the Heart
PART TWO: Love is Life
Chapter twelve
More meetings like the one at the coffee shop became more frequent. Jesse and I have meet up four times after that. We chat about random things from our love lives to tides at the beach. Jesse being an excellent surfer now loved going to the beach.
I even decided that Jesse should meet Dean. It means a lot to me and I think it finalizes to them both that we are just friends…no matter what Gina and Cee Cee say. I swear I should have never introduced them two together. I have just gotten myself in so much trouble now because of the two of them.
So Dean and I went to the coffee shop and sat down.
"So, I get to meet Jesse right? So, tell me if this is right. You two were really good friends when you were in high school and your first year of college, you lost touch, and now reconnecting?" He asked from next to me.
Alright, so I didn't tell him we use to be engaged okay? Or that I brought him back to life seeing as he was a 170 year old ghost. I mean I didn't want him to get all in a bunch. It isn't that important because we are just good friends. Really we are. In fact, Jesse got a new girlfriend. Yeah, a new girlfriend. Her name is Nathalie…and that is all I know. Okay, they aren't even girlfriend and boyfriend yet but I wouldn't doubt it.
"Uh, yeah pretty much." I said back. Jesse then walked in the door with Nathalie and made our way to the table. Jesse like the gentleman he is opened the door for Nathalie and pulled the chair out for her.
"Hi, I am Nathalie." She said holding out her hand.
"Hi, I am Suze, this is my Fiancé Dean." I said introducing him to Nathalie and Jesse both.
"Hi," he said with a short wave.
"So, Nathalie, what do you do?" I asked, trying to get conversation moving along.
"Oh, I sell insurance." She said with a cute little smile. She had brunette-red hair with freckles all over her nose. She was cute.
"Oh, so does Dean. He works for Richard's insurance."
"Oh, really, that is interesting, I heard you guys were going into real estate too, is that true?" She said sparking up a conversation.
"Yeah, that's true. I mean why just sell insurance, when you can go into real estate too and have a broader horizon?"
"True. But the markets are down right now." Nathalie said.
"But there is always someone looking for a house you know." Dean retorted back.
"They are going to get at it now." I whispered to Jesse and he laughed.
"I think you are right."
"So, what is you two's status?" I asked mildly interested.
"I don't know, to be honest." He said glancing at Nathalie who was in a deep conversation with Dean who was just in dept.
"Aw, why don't you come to the bar with us this weekend and spend some time with all of us maybe she will get to know you better." I said suggesting.
"Alright, that sounds good."
"Oh my god." Nathalie looked at her watch, "I have to go. It was nice meeting you both." Waving to Dean and me, "I'll see you later Jesse." She gave him a kiss on the cheek, which gave my stomach a twinge. Just ignore it…just ignore it….
Soon afterwards we all left. Dean and I went home to a lazy afternoon. Well, I was being lazy; Dean was working…as usual. He always is working. Sigh…Damn him for being so involved in his work. Well, it is the family business.
"Uh, Suze?" Dean asked from the doorway as I laid on the couch reading a book (STILL waiting for an interview).
"Yeah?"
"I have to go."
"Huh?" I asked bewildered.
"Back to New York. Just for Saturday, Sunday, and Monday and then I promise I will be back. It is just for business."
"You act like you need my permission." I sat up and smiled at him.
"Well, I was just making sure you were all right with it." He said sitting down next to me.
"Of course! I will be fine." I gave him a kiss and smiled. "Come on, I don't feel like being in the house. Let's go to the beach or something."
I dropped Dean off at the airport the next morning and that night I was going to go out with everyone I was going to be the 3rd wheel. Oh joy!
We all went to the bar. Well, Adam and CeeCee, Gina and Jake, Paul and Nicole, Jesse and Nathalie, and me. Just plain old me; All alone with out Dean. Damn this sucked. Everyone had a date but me.
"So, Everyone is finally finding someone huh?" Gina said from her barstool looking at all the couples and then seeing me all alone, "Simon, where is Richards?" Richards referring to Dean.
"New York, he is on a business trip." I said giving her a reassuring smile.
"Well, THAT sucks." She said taking a sip (a nice long one) of her drink.
"Oh, I hate to go so early but Jesse! I have to work tomorrow." Nathalie said sadly. My heart skipped a beat. She was leaving? No, I should be disappointed she is leaving…not joyful.
Bad Suze!
"Alright, I will talk to you tomorrow Nathalie." Jesse said hugging her good bye.
"Bye!" I said from stool on the outskirts of the little "group", "huddle", whatever the hell you want to call this mess. I gave her a little wave.
"See you later everyone!" She said as she went out the door.
One by one couples were leaving. First, Adam and Cee Cee. Then, Paul and Nicole( they looked a bit pre-occupied), Gina and Jake left next, and that left Jesse and me alone.
"I think I am going to go." I said getting up after a half hour or so of chatting with him.
"Do you need a ride?" he asked getting up with me.
"Uh…sure, that would be great." We both paid our tabs and I followed Jesse out to his car. I got in and pulled out of the parking lot. Jesse was still as good as driver he was five years ago.
"Hey, let's go to the beach." I said looking at him with a grin on my face.
"To the beach, it is supposed to storm." He said looking at me like I was crazy.
"Yeah, come on, it will be fun!" I said.
He sighed, "Fine. Are you sure?" he asked turning down the street toward the beach.
"Yeah. Come on Jesse put the peddle to the metal!"
"I am going the speed limit!" he said scandalized.
"Oh, it can screw it self, Jesse. No one is out at two am. I am surprise you are still awake Mr. Tight ass." I immediately regretted saying my last comment.
He just laughed, "Bit too much to drink?"
"No, I hardly had anything." I said, "I just feel like an adventure."
He shook his head and pulled up to the parking lot. "Happy? We are here." He said turning off the car. I hopped out and jumped out and down, trying to get the jitters out.
"I bet I can beat you to the beach Jesse."
"Oh really?" He asked amused.
"Yeah, ready, set."
"Go!" he yelled getting a head start.
I ran after him calling, "HEY! THAT ISN'T FAIR! YOU'RE CHEATING JESSE!"
Needless to say he won. I ran down and smacked him on the chest.
"Tag, you're it." I said running away from him.
"Not for long, Susannah." He said chasing after me.
I screamed as he chased after me quickly gaining on me. He tagged me and ran off.
"Jesse De Silva I am so going to get you!" I said running after him. Sadly, I was still in my sandals and I tripped and fell.
"Susannah, are you okay?" Jesse said coming up to me.
I turned over to my back and started to laugh so hard. I was really the biggest klutz.
"I'm fine." I said through my laughs. I was laughing do hard my sides were beginning to hurt.
"You are a number Ms. Simon." Jesse said laughing at me.
"Oh really?" I leant up my elbows same level as Jesse.
"Really." Jesse's face got a bit closer to mine. I closed my eyes and Jesse's lips touched mine.
Oh my god, Jesse was kissing me. My stomach flipped, my heart beat raced a million beats per a second, and I felt the old sparks go off again. His hand caressed my face and I kissed back.
But we both jumped back. No, I can't do this. I am engaged.
"Can you take me home" I said getting up off the sand.
"Yes, of course." Jesse said standing up. We walked up to his car in silence and we didn't talk to whole ride home either, I directed my view out the window. I had just kissed Jesse. I could NOT tell Dean. Ever.
He pulled up to my house and I sat there for a second.
"I'm sorry." He said.
"No, it isn't your fault. It is my fault too."
"No, I kissed you."
"But, I kissed back Jesse, We are both at blame." I sat there again looking at my feet. My heart was beating fast again. I pulled on the car handle when Jesse said, "Why did you leave?"
I froze. I had been dreading this. Rain drops started to fall, little by little on the windshield." I-I don't want to talk about it." Getting out of the car.
"Oh, so you are just going to run away again?" he said getting out of his side of the car, and I turned and looked at him.
"What is that suppose to mean?" I said the rain beginning to grow heavier & steadier.
"I think you know what it means!"
"Well, I am not the one that left!"
"YES YOU DID!"
"NO I DIDN'T! YOU LEFT ME! I MEAN WE WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED JESSE AND YOU JUST LEFT ME FOR KATIE IN SAN FRANCISCO!" I yelled at him and turned away soaking wet now but he grabbed my arm and turned me around in the middle of the yard.
"I DIDN'T LEAVE YOU FOR THAT PUTA!" He yelled back, the rain making his hair flat against his forehead.
"OH SURE, I MEAN YOU DIDN'T EVEN THINK TWICE ABOUT LEAVING; ALL THOSE NIGHTS STUDYING WITH HER!"
"HOW CAN YOU SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT? I LOVED YOU SUSANNAH. YOU GAVE ME A LIFE! MY GOD! HOW COULD YOU THINK THAT I WOULD EVER I MEAN EVER THINK THAT I WOULD CHEAT ON YOU?"
"I DON'T KNOW! I don't know." Tears were streaming down my face and I didn't try to hide them.
"I CAME BACK! DID YOU KNOW THAT? HUH? I CAME BACK BECAUSE I COULDN'T BARE BEING WITHOUT YOU!" He moved his hand through his hair angrily.
"You did?" I asked in a small voice.
"Yes, I did." He tried to calm down and looked at my face. "Oh, Querida…don't cry." He wiped the tears off my face with his thumb his hand cupping my cheeks.
"I'm sorry Jesse. I am so sorry." I said crying. "It was the worse mistake ever in my life."
"Shh, Querida." He pulled me close and I cried on his chest. I had been so stupid. HE LOVED ME! HE NEVER LEFT ME! I LEFT HIM. I would never forgive myself.
Jesse lifted my face up by my chin gently. He leaned in and kissed me. I kissed him back, but this time I kissed him back with all my love. I moved my arms around his next and his moved his around my waist bringing me closer. Our tongues were entwined kissing with passion we haven't felt in years.
I broke our embrace and grabbed his hand. I pulled him into my house and closed the door. He cupped my face again and started to kiss me as I started pulling up on his shirt. He let go of my face pulled down the straps on my tank top. I moaned as he started to kiss my neck. Oh god, I had been stupid. I had wasted Five years with Jesse.
"Susannah, are you sure?" he asked as I pulled off his wet shirt and saw his perfect chest.
"Shut up and kiss me." I said pulling his face towards mine. He kissed with so much affection. My heart was racing and my stomach fluttering; I had never felt so great in my entire life.
He picked me up, carried me to my bedroom, and lied me on the bed. We stared at each other in the eyes for a minute.
"I love you." He whispered into my ear as he nibbled at my neck.
"I love you, too." I gasped back to him.
Edited by: the ever-so-lovely Nicole.
AWW! How sweet huh? But it is NOT over yet. I still have four more chapter for all y'all. So REVIEW! Kay? thanks.
Love,
Lauren