Affairs of the Heart
PART TWO: Love is Life
Chapter thirteen.
When I woke up the next morning, the sun was shining through the sheers in my bedroom. The sheets felt so nice and soft…I wonder why? Oh yeah, Jesse and I had sex last night. Panic swept through me, OH MY GOD, I CHEATED ON MY FINACE! But…I wasn't feeling guilty. Oh God, I was going to hell. I was going to the fiery pits of hell.
But maybe God could understand that I love Jesse and I will just have to break it off with Dean….a month before my wedding.
I turned around and looked at Jesse, he was staring at me.
"Huh?" I croaked at him.
"You look so beautiful Querida." He said pulling back a piece of hair from my face, and my heart swooned at the name Querida. Oh how I missed it so.
"Thank you." I said, and I started to play with his hands. I looked back up at him and said, "What are we going to do?"
He sighed knowing what I was talking about. He looked at me in the eye and gave me a small smile and said, "Well, first we are going to enjoy each other right now and we will take things from there."
"Jesse, I can't marry Dean." I said as he pulled me close.
"Let's not think about that right now."
"Jesse?"
"Si Querida?"
"Can we just spend the weekend together?" I asked borrowing deeper into him.
"Sure."
"But, afterwards, I have to Tell Dean. I mean I know I can't tell him right away."
"I understand. Just…relax." He said rubbing my back and so I did in his arms.
We finally did get up. Jesse had to go home to change and I had to clean up…Like take a shower and such. I told Jesse I would meet him at the coffee shop. I took my time getting ready. I got on my favorite green shirt and jean skirt. I thought it was cute.
"Wait Suze why are you getting dressed up to see Jesse. This falls under the category of cheating on your fiancé, oh so does SLEEPING WITH HIM!" My conscience said to me.
"Well, because I love Jesse, don't worry, everything will work out." I said back to my self.
I left the house and drove to the coffee shop waiting for Jesse. What if he didn't come and if last night was a one night stand? No, he wouldn't do that. This is Jesse we are talking about. He said I love you.
The bell rang and like instinct I looked up to see Jesse. He looked freshly showered and walked over to me. We were both glowing.
Hmm, I wonder why…oh yeah 'cause you cheated on your fiancé with him.
Shut up already! I said to my self in my head.
"Are you alright?" Jesse asked me.
"Yeah, I am fine." I said giving him a reassuring smile.
"Alright." He stroked my hand with his thumb for a second and let go. We were in public… "Come to my house tonight for dinner?" He asked me as I looked out the window.
No, don't do it. My head screamed. By my heart said, "What time?"
"Is 7:30 good?" He asked.
It is not good Suze because you are cheating on your finance! But once again my heart had taken over any common sense I had in my body, "Sounds perfect." I said looking at him. My head feeling numb but my heart was beating with joy and love and lust.
I decided that on my way to Jesse's that On Monday, I would tell Dean, wither I wanted to or not, that we couldn't marry. I discovered this weekend that I never stopped loving Jesse.
I knocked at his door and looked around. There was no one on his floor in his apartment building. He answered the door and pulled me in.
"Close your eyes." He said to me once I was inside and closed the door.
"What is going on Jesse?" I asked him as I closed my eyes.
"You will see." He grabbed my hand and pulled me a short distance. "alright, open them."
Jesse's (small) dinning room was candle light and there was food on the table.
"Jesse…It is …so sweet. You really shouldn't of."
"Let's enjoy this night together." He said giving me a kiss.
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Okay, Now I was going to burn in hell. I had slept with Jesse again. But at this point I didn't care anymore. I had this wonderful feeling inside of me. I haven't felt this way in five years. That was a long time.
"Jesse I have to go." I said to him as I tried ( key word here people) to get dressed the next morning.
"Just stay a little longer."
"Jesse I really have to go. Give me my shoes!" I said trying to snatch them out of his hands.
I heard his doorbell ring and we froze. I got bug-eyed and stared at him.
"Stay in here." He whispered to me as he closed the bedroom door and answered the door.
"JESSE! I haven't seen you all weekend baby." Nathalie said from the door.
Oh my God. Save me now. I grabbed my shoes on headed towards the windows…just incase I needed to make a quick escape.
"Uh, Nathalie, what are you doing here?" Jesse asked.
I heard her walk in and started to open up the window. This was going to be my grand exit today.
"I can't come by and see you?" she asked.
"Uh, yes. Can you excuse me?" He said, slyly opening his bedroom door.
"JESSE!" I whispered.
"Just stay quiet." He whispered back. He put on a shirt and went back out, closing his door behind him.
There was no way I was waiting her to get caught. I opened the window to its fullest and I climbed onto the emergency shoot. I closed his window and climbed down. So much for saying goodbye.
I sprinted to my car and booked it out of there, going home as fast as I could. I went home closed my door and sighed. That was way too close. I looked at the time. Shit, I needed to go get Dean.
I got back in my car and went to the airport and saw Dean on the curb waiting for me. I got out and helped him with his bags.
"Hey baby." He said to me. I smelt alcohol on his breath. Oh god he was tanked.
"Hi, why don't we just get in the car now okay?" I said leading him into the car.
And to make things worse all he said on the way home was "I love you Suze." And tried to hold my hand.
Oh no. what was I going to do?
Edited by: the ever-so-lovely Nicole.
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