Affairs of the Heart
PART TWO: Love is Life
Chapter fifteen
What was I to do? I had cheated on my Fiancé and I wasn't feeling so guilty. If anything, it had felt like I had been cheating on Jesse with Dean. Except Dean and me were to be married. I care for Dean, I really do, it is just…I realized I never ever stopped loving Jesse and we care for each other so much. That's why it surprised me so much when Paul, (PAUL OF ALL PEOPLE!) figured out I was pregnant; PREGNANT!
Oh god, my life was going down the drain. I was so fucked up right now. If I was eighteen again, this would have been my dream to have Jesse's baby. But now, it has made my life complicated. How was I going to tell Dean?
Yeah, I can see it now. 'Hey Dean, yeah when you went to New York, I reconnected with Jesse and had hot, passionate sex with him. In our bed! Yeah, now I am having his baby, so I can't marry you. You might as well move back to New York!'
That's the type of conversation to scar a man for life. I mean, really mess a man up. So, I have decided that I will not let anyone know for now. Well, except Paul and his whole "Ha-ha-you-cheated-on-your-finace-and-now-you-are-having-Jesse's-baby-and-I-figured-it-out" thing.
But I really needed to tell Dean. So, I practiced in front of the mirror.
"Hey, Dean, I have some news." No that was too cheery.
"Okay, Dean, I have something to tell you." No, that didn't sound right.
"Dean, we have to talk."
"What about?" a voice said from behind me. I jumped and turned around.
"Oh god, Dean you scarred me." I sat down on my bed.
"What do you need to tell me?" He said sitting down next to me.
"I, uh, this is really hard to say."
"Just spit it out already Suze!"
"I am pregnant." I said looking down at my hands.
"OH my god! I can't believe it!" he said, jumping up.
"Dean, I can explain, really!" My nervous feeling in my voice.
"What is there to explain? We are having a baby! This is wonderful!"
"What?" I asked dumbfounded.
"So, when do you think it happened? That day when I came home from New York?"
I laughed nervously, "The day you were drunk?"
"Yeah. Suze this is wonderful, I am going to go tell my parents. Let's go tell your parents!" He said exclaiming for joy.
"No!" I said jumping up. Was he mad? We didn't have sex then! We haven't had sex ever! What type of dream did he have when he passed out!
"Why not?" He asked.
"I don't want to tell anyone."
"Suze, you have to be kidding me right?"
"No, I am not! Dean you have to listen to me."
"Suze! We are having a baby! A BABY! And you don't want people to know?" he sounded a bit annoyed.
"No, Dean please just listen to me…" I begged him, trying to explain it wasn't his baby.
"Alright, Suze. I won't tell anyone. I am going to go to the store. You want me to get some ice cream?" Oh yeah, Ice Cream will solve EVERYTHING right now Dean.
"Whatever. Just go." I said lying down on my bed. I was annoyed and I wanted him to leave. It was moments like this where I could just drop everything and run to Jesse's arms. Oh and Jesse, he was ecstatic about the new baby. He called me twice a day to see if I was okay or sick or if I needed anything.
The phone rang. See, right on schedule, "Hello?" I answered lazily.
"Susannah, you okay?" Jesse asked me.
"Yes, Jesse I am fine for the second time today." I said smiling in spite of my self. He was just so cute when he worried.
"Alright, well I am at work, so I will talk to you later Querida." He said soothingly. See, he kept me calm but Dean just got me all in a bunch.
"Okay, bye Jesse."
"Goodbye." He said and I hung up.
Jesse wasn't pushing me to hurry up with Dean, but he did say we need to do it before the wedding.
I sighed as the phone rang again, "Hello?" I answered but I immediately pulled the phone as far as away from my ear as I could, for I heard Gina and CeeCee screaming.
"You guys! Stop! Talk, breathe!" I said.
"Suze! Oh my god! We can't believe it!" Gina said.
"Believe what?' I said.
"Whatever, we will see you tonight at your mom's. Alright, we have to go. See you!" and she hung up.
Oh my god, what did she know?
"Suze?" I heard Dean say as he came in the door.
"Yes?" I called from the bed now watching TV.
"Come, on get up. Your mom wants us over."
"So, I have heard." I sighed and got up. I slipped on some shoes and followed him out the door.
"You are going to love it Suze." Was all he said on the way there…well the short ride there. I was a little nervous when I walked up the driveway into my mom and Andy's home.
"SUSIE!" my mom screamed and hugged me. "My baby is having a baby! I CAN'T BELIVE YOU MOVED THE DATE UP TO TOMORROW!" She started to cry in our embrace. I looked at Dean and gave him the death glare. He grinned. Oh no, this was too much to handle and I blacked out.
Edited by: the ever-so-lovely Nicole.
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