If this is a dream
Wake me up now
If this is a movie
Let's edit these scenes out
It would be a PG instead of an X-rated life
If I lived right
-Unsung Psalm, Tracy Chapman
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Saturday night Veronica sat on Lilly's bed flipping through a celebrity gossip magazine and listening to a Britney Spears cd while Lilly searched for something to wear for the evening.
"How does this look?" Lilly asked walking out of her closet in a tight and equally low cut black shirt and boy cut panties.
"Just so I'm clear, we're sticking with the boy shorts? I mean you're not going to change your mind and go with a thong are you? 'Cause that'll change my mind completely."
"Very funny." Lilly said faking a laugh, "I'm doing tops and then bottoms. Now what do you think of this? Does it scream, 'Do me'?"
"With your history do you really want anything to scream 'Do me'?"
"Fine 'You want to do me', is that better?"
"Yes, and you look really hot." Veronica told her and then quickly added, "But I like the pink one better."
"You're sure about the pink one?" Lilly asked and Veronica nodded yes, "Okay and I'll pair it with that cute denim skirt that we bought last weekend."
Lilly walked back into the closet and began to change cloths and then shouted out to her friend, "So what are we going to dress you in?"
"What are you talking about?" Veronica asked looking down at the vintage Blondie tee and jeans that she was wearing
"1985 called." Lilly said walking out and sitting on the bed, "They want their outfit back."
"Fine. What do you suggest I wear?"
"This." Lilly said rushing to her closet, pulling out a black halter top and a short hot pink skirt.
"How about we compromise. I'll wear the shirt if you let me wear my jeans."
"Deal." Lilly tossed the shirt to Veronica and sat on the bed.
Veronica stood up and began to change shirts.
"So, Veronica, can I ask you something?"
"Depends. Does it have to do with boys?"
"Yes."
"Ask away."
"Well, I've been thinking about getting back together with Logan."
Veronica stood frozen for a minute before she bluntly told her friend, "That's the stupidest thing you've ever thought of."
"What?" Lilly asked in shock
"We're getting a little old for this whole Lilly and Logan breakup-get back together dance. You both deserve more than each other. Plus he's dating Caitlin Ford."
"Get out!"
"Saw it with my own two eyes. Believe me."
"But she's so skanky."
"Don't I know it."
Later Veronica sat around by Shelly's pool waiting for Lilly to come back with their drinks.
"Hey you." Meg said coming up and taking a seat next to her
"Hey Meg. What's going on?"
"Cole and I are thinking about taking off pretty soon and I wanted to say hey before we do. So, have you seen Logan yet?"
"Not, yet and hopefully I won't. I really don't want to speak to him right now."
"Afraid of what you'd say?"
"Uh-huh."
"Hey Meg!" Lilly exclaimed as she handed Veronica a drink and took a seat.
"God, Lilly think you put enough rum in this drink?" Veronica asked, coughing
"You need to have fun tonight and if I have to get you drunk in order for that to happen, so be it."
"Uh-oh." Meg whispered, "Don't look now Veronica but---"
"Logan's here, isn't he?"
"Yep."
"Well then I think I'm going to go congregate somewhere else. Lilly, you want to join me?" Veronica asked as she stood up
"I'm good here. But you go. Have a good time."
"Casey!" Veronica called walking over to him, cup in hand
"So, fess up." Lilly said turning to Meg, "Why is Veronica so mad at Logan?"
"I really don't know." she lied.
Later that night Veronica laid on a lawn chair in many of her so-called friends standing around laughing as a senior, who probably had never said two words to her before, did body shots on her.
"Come on you guys!" Duncan exclaimed pushing his way through the crowd, "That's enough!"
He pushed the guy off of Veronica and took her into his arms.
"We were just having some fun!" Dick exclaimed.
"Oh yeah, looked like lots of fun for her."
Duncan pushed his way back through the crowd and took her inside and sat her on an empty chair.
"Are you okay?" he asked brushing some hair out of her face.
"Don't let it happen again." She whispered, "Please don't let it happen."
"I won't." Duncan told her, not knowing what she meant
"You promise?"
"I swear. Now, come on. Let's get you upstairs. You'll feel better once you sleep this off."
Veronica laid in bed trying to take deep breaths. The whole room looked like it was moving and Veronica had a hard time trying to keep from throwing up. Suddenly someone came in the room and shut the door behind them.
"Well, well, well. What do we have here?" the person asked himself.
"Please leave me alone." She whispered
"What's that?"
The person sat down on the bed, with his face up close to Veronica's. He placed his hand on her knee and began moving it up her leg.
"Please don't." She cried, tears streaming down her cheeks.
The guy began kissing Veronica's neck, his hands groping her body.
Suddenly the door opened and a new person entered the mix.
"What the hell are you doing?" The second voice asked.
The first voice said something that Veronica couldn't understand and then suddenly he was pulled off the bed and shoved out into the hall. The door slammed shut behind them and Veronica could hear both men fighting but she couldn't figure out who was saying what.
After a minute, that felt much longer the door opened and the second voice entered the room.
"You okay?" he asked. The voice was muffled but somehow seemed oddly familiar but Veronica couldn't figure out how.
"I don't know." She whispered, looking up hoping to put a face to the voice. But unfortunatly like everything she saw it was fuzzy.
"Do you want to get out of here?"
"Yeah." Veronica whispered, hoping she made the right decision.