A/N: I am starting College Monday so the chapters may not come out as soon as they have been. I'll try my hardest to get them out as soon a possible.
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
---Over, Lindsay
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Veronica stood wrapped in her ex-boyfriends arms crying her heart out.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Duncan whispered and Veronica just shook her head no, "Okay. Can I get you anything?"
"Is Lilly upstairs?" Veronica asked pulling herself away.
"Yeah.
"Thanks." Veronica whispered as she walked in the house and upstairs.
Veronica stood outside of Lilly's room watching her friend chat on AIM singing and along to the White Stripes cd that was playing.
"Lilly?" Veronica asked knocking on the door, tears still streaming down her cheeks.
"Veronica!" Lilly said smiling turning around and as soon as she saw Veronica's face the smile disappeared and she asked, "Sweetheart what's wrong?"
"Everything."
"Come on let's sit down."
Lilly took her best friend's hand and led her to the bed.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Lilly asked as they took a seat.
"Not right now." Veronica told her as she curled into a ball clinging to a pillow, "Just give me a few minutes. Okay?"
"Take as much time as you need."
A few minutes slowly turned to half and hour, and half and hour turned to an hour and an hour to four. It was then when Veronica finally ran out of tears.
"Lilly?" She whispered.
"Yeah?" Lilly asked from the other side of the room, looking up from her Science book
"My parent's are getting a divorce."
"Oh honey."
Lilly shut her book and took a seat next to her best friend.
"When did you find out?"
"Yesterday."
Veronica sat up and wiped away the tears from her face.
"I know how much you wanted them to make it work. I'm sorry"
"Thanks Lil."
"So, what's going to happen now?"
"I want to stay with my dad, but my mom doesn't want that so we're going to get a DNA test tomorrow."
"Why would you need to take a DNA test?"
"Don't even try Lilly." Veronica said shaking her head, "I know that you know."
"How'd you find out?" Lilly asked sighing.
"I have my sources."
"You want to talk about it?"
Veronica shook her head, "Not really."
"You want me to put on bad 90's music and get out a game? I'm in the mood to kick your butt at 20 questions for kids."
"Let's do it."
An hour later Veronica and Lilly sat on the floor with 20 questions for kids in front of them while Barbie Girl played in the background.
"Okay, here we go." Lilly said as she pulled a card from the top of the pile and began reading, "I am a place. People visit me in the summer, I can be nude..."
"Are you a beach?" Veronica asked
"I am a beach." Lilly giggled, "You're turn."
Veronica took the next card and chuckled as she read some of the answers.
"Okay, I create Lava, I can be hot, I might blow my top, I might erupt suddenly..." Veronica
"Are you Logan?" Lilly asked
Just hearing Logan's name sent a shockwave through out Veronica's body and it was impossible to keep from crying.
"What did I say?"
"Nothing." Veronica sobbed as she tried to wipe away her tears
"You're a really bad liar. Anyone ever tell you that? Now you were perfectly fine until I said..." Lilly's eyes lit up as everything started to make sense, "Logan. Did something happen with Logan?"
"I don't want to talk about it Lilly."
"Well to bad 'cause I'm using my best friend veto and forcing you to. Did something happen to you two? Was it the night of Shelly's party?"
"That's what caused everything to end." She whispered.
"Spill."
Veronica began telling Lilly everything about Logan and her relationship, fibbing on certain details like dates and locations.
"I don't even know why I'm so mad at him either. But it was just like in that moment I saw how much he cared about me and I hated how he couldn't admit it." Veronica flung herself backwards onto the bed and Lilly joined her.
"Why did you never tell me about you two?" Lilly asked as she rubbed Veronica's arm
"Because you kissed him at your party and I didn't want things to get weird between us."
"I was hoping you weren't going to mention that." Lilly said, sitting up, "I was really drunk."
"I know. But then there's also what you said the other night about wanting to get back together with him."
"If I knew about the two of you I never would have even thought about getting with him again. And you're right; it would be stupid to get back with him."
Veronica let out a loud sigh and looked at Lilly, "Three years ago, who would have thought that you and I would ever be commiserating in our being broken up with Logan Echoll's."
"That's life for you."
Later as Lilly slept Veronica tip-toed down the stairs to the kitchen holding on tightly to her pills.
"Hey." Veronica said from the doorway as she watched Duncan taking his medicine.
Duncan almost choked on his water, but after swallowing he managed to get out a "Hi."
"You have room for one more member in the late night medication club?"
"What do you know?"
"I know that you have type four epilepsy."
"How did you..."
"A girl never reveals her sources." Veronica smiled at him as she took his glass from him and filled it up with tap water.
"So you take med's to huh?"
"Yep."
"How come?"
"You want the easy answer? I'm crazy. Yep, if it weren't for these suckers," Veronica held up a large white pill, "You would wake up to find me by your pool acting crazier than Anne Hecht."
"That's hard to believe."
"Believe it. It's pretty scary."
Veronica quickly swallowed her medicine and drank the rest of the water before setting it in the sink.
"So, how mad is your mom about me spending the night?"
"I don't think she knows."
"Really. Well I would pay good money to see her face when she sees me at the table for breakfast."
"Maybe we should sell tickets."
Duncan looked down at his shoes and then quickly looked back up at Veronica.
"So do you want to talk about what's wrong?"
"Not really. See you in the morning."
Veronica turned around and headed back upstairs
The next day at lunch the 09-ers sat discussing their love lives, or lack there of while Logan pushed his Chinese food around in its carton, pretending to listen.
"Hey, Joseph and I broke up first and everyone else wanted out of their stupid relationships so they followed suit--" Shelly Polmroy said and was cut off by Meg.
"Cole and my relationship wasn't stupid!"
"Neither was mine and Madison." Dick said nodding his head.
"You guys broke up too?" Meg asked sympathetically.
"Yeah."
"What happened?"
"Well, she took my hand and I thought 'She's initiating physical contact, this is either really good, or really bad', and it was the latter. She told me that we needed to talk and I thought, 'She's breaking up with me. I should feel worse then this but I don't.' And actually I think she felt bad that I didn't feel worse." Dick
"Everyone's breaking up." Meg
"I'm not surprised that Madison broke up with you Dick. She did hear you telling Beaver that you slept with Veronica." Logan said as he sat his food down on the table, "By the way Duncan we need to talk."
"Oh my god Logan! Are you breaking up with me?" Duncan pretending to be hurt.
"Yes." Logan told him in a sarcastic manner.
"Oh god." Duncan said pretending to cry, "I gave you the best years of my life."
"Logan, we need to talk." Veronica said walking up to the table.
The whole table let out a low groan under their breaths.
Veronica stood with her arms crossed and an apprehensive look on her face.
"Please?"
"Sure."
Veronica walked away from the table and as Logan followed he heard Dick sarcastically say, "I can't believe they're breaking up. You know I just had such high hopes for those two. I mean if they can't make it, what hope do the rest of us have."
"What's the problem?" Logan asked as he took a seat with Veronica at an empty table.
"I'm sorry. I was a bitch to you yesterday. I just had so many emotions inside of me and it was like a time-bomb just went off..."
"It's okay." Logan said interrupting Veronica who kept on talking.
"It doesn't mean that most of it wasn't true. I'm sick acting the way I do whenever I'm around you. So, until you're ready to advance the plot, we're done."
"Did you just break up with me?"
"Yeah. I did. Kinda sucks when you're on the receiving end, doesn't it?"
"It kinda does. I'll see you around."
Logan got up and walked back to the table where everyone was having and in-depth conversation about who would win a fight between an astronaut and a cave man.
"Even if they could have weapons the cave man would still win!" Duncan insisted.
"No he wouldn't!" Dick insisted, "The astronaut has his ray gun. That would fry the spaceman "
"She did it didn't she?" Meg whispered into Logan's ear.
"Yeah she did."
"You okay?"
"Yeah, Yeah I am." He told her, trying to convince himself.
"Anyone ever tell you that you're a bad liar?" Meg asked him as she stood up and walked away.
A few tables away Veronica sat down next to Lilly who was eating an ice cream sundae.
"So, what time do you think you're going to get home tonight?" Lilly asked as she picked up the cherry with her spoon and put it in her mouth.
"I don't know. Why?"
"That would be a surprise."
"This surprise won't involve taking me to a club where get weak-minded college boys to hit on us, thinking we'll have sex with them and then we turn them down at the end of the night will it?"
"Not anymore. But no, I'm thinking we could have a girl's night. You, me and Meg sitting around eating ice cream and talking about what jerks guys are. Come on it'll be fun."
"Fine but I don't want it to be anything crazy, okay?"
That night Veronica, Lilly and Meg all sat around in Veronica's room eating ice cream and drinking peppermint schnapps.
"Boys suck!" Meg exclaimed as she slammed her glass down
"I agree." Veronica said holding up the half empty bottle, "More schnapps?"
"Yes please!" Both Meg and Lilly said holding out their glasses.
"Okay, here's a question for you guys. What are you going to miss the most about your relationship and what are you going to miss least?" Lilly asked as Veronica filled up her glass, "Veronica you go first."
"Me? Okay. What I won't miss is lying. For the first time in months when someone asks what I did Friday night I can honestly tell them that I stayed home and watched Joan of Arcadia with my dad." Veronica said and then took a swig of schnapps from the bottle.
"And what will you miss the most?" Meg asked
"Him. Everything about him, the way he smiles when he knows he made a bad joke, the way he's not afraid to show his emotions, the way he knows exactly what you need when you're having a bad day, all of his quirks. Everything."
An hour later Lilly and Meg stumbled to Duncan's car giggling the whole way.
"How much did they have to drink?" Duncan asked trying not to laugh at his sister as she climbed into the front seat.
"Far too much." Veronica told him.
"And what about you?"
"Just enough. I'll see you later."
"Bye."
As Duncan pulled out of the driveway Veronica pulled her cell-phone out of her pocket and quickly dialed a number.
"Hey, it's me. You know you want to come pick up a partially inebriated blonde don't you?...Please, I promise I'll make it worth your while...I'm at my house...Thanks Weevil you're the best. "