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Warnings Angst, angst, angst, angst, and can we say ANGSTY ANGST GOODNESS!!! OH AND DON'T FORGET YAOI. Don't like it DON'T BITCH TO ME ABOUT IT!!!

Disclaimer I don't own them. Though I would like to get my hands on Kouji, Kouichi, and Takuya for a while. Chuckles evilly

The afore mentioned boys: laughs nervously. Uh oh

Author Notes This fic was inspired by "Sweet Dreams" and "The Beautiful People" by Marilyn Manson. Yeah so it took me long enough to get this out. Many apologies, I've been busy, but I have 3 but now possibly four trucks to get ready for NOPI this September. Sighs there isn't enough hours in the day, and days in the week. Well anyways this is really short and I apologize for it.

Chapter IX

Mending Hearts

(Takuya)

The next morning I awoke and felt another presence in my bed. I open my eyes to find it was Kouji. He was pressed against me with his head on my shoulder. The night before replayed in my mind.

'Oh Kouji' I thought

I started to move to head to the bathroom till I felt Kouji clutch me tighter.

"Please don't go, don't let me go." A muffled voice said beside me.

"Don't worry I'm not going anywhere" I say and settle back down.

I was hoping that nothing more would happen to Kouji right now. Last night he hit rock bottom, so hopefully it's all up from here. I close my eyes and gently give a reassuring squeeze to Kouji. We sat there for a while, and despite the fact that I had to go to the bathroom, I was quite comfortable and really didn't want to move. Who knows when I'll be able to ever hold Kouji like this again. I know that I'm being selfish right now, but everybody is selfish at one point or another. I sit there for another few minutes then he breaks the silence.

"I'm sorry Takuya"

"For what?" I ask

"For everything." He started not having even moved from his spot. "I'm sorry that you had to put up with me last night, I'm sorry that I always push you away, I'm sorry I slapped you, I just… I'm just sorry. You say that you love me, and I don't even know why. I've been such a bastard that I really don't even deserve to be your friend, much less love you back."

I was speechless for a moment. Kouji started to get up and get his shoes. "I think I should leave" he says and starts for the door.

"Don't go" I say

He keeps going

I hop out of the bed and run for him and catch his arm "Please don't go"

"Why" he says a little angered and on the verge of tears

"You want to know why I love you." I pause for a second "It's because you're you. And I could not picture myself with anybody else. Because you're smart, passionate, and very beautiful. I love everything about you, from your fucked up head to your beautiful face, and everything between. And I want to say more but they're just aren't enough words for it, but here"

I lean forward and place my lips on his and embrace him. He was stiff and first the loosened up. I partly pulled back but left our foreheads touching, and I looked him the eyes.

"These past few weeks" he starts "I realized how much care for you Takuya, a, and I want to, but I'm scared"

"What are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid of losing you" He backs away from me

"Why? I'm not going anywhere, not as long as you're still here"

"You don't understand. It happens every time"

"What?"

"People I care about always end up leaving me"

"What do you mean?" I inquired

"Mom, Kouichi, the man that used to be my father, they all left me."

"Kouji that doesn't…"

"Yes it does. I'm afraid to get to close to you Takuya, I'm afraid that if I do get close that something will happen and you'll have to leave me too. I couldn't bare that."

I grasped Kouji's hands in mine and started directly into his eyes. "I Promise on my life that I'll never leave you Kouji."

"Takuya…" I Kouji's Eyes tear up and he pulled me in to a fierce hug. "Y, you promise?"

"Yeah" I say then kissed him. He happily returned it, and I held him in my arms.

"Then I'll try then"

"You mean?"

"Yeah, I want you to be my one and only"

There weren't any words in the whole world to even to begin to express what I'm feeling. Then everything seemed to slow when I thought about my parents.

"Kouji, what about my parents?" I asked a little worried. "They are the biggest homophobes in this city?

"Well we'll just have to keep things under wraps for now." He said to me touching his forehead to mine.

Scy: so things are finally looking up for these guys, but don't worry I still have many, many plans for this duo. smirks insanely

I have an Idea for a new fic that I've been playing around with, but I'll be sure to let all know when it comes out. As far as I know this new fic will be totally original, as I havn't seen anybody do anything like this.

Anyways (Fuckin A it seems like I say that entirely too much) you know what ya gotta do now, press that little review button and give me more fuel for my fire.

Scy