Rated: R

Warning: Angst, angst, angst, angst, and can we say ANGSTY ANGST GOODNESS! OH AND DON'T FORGET YAOI. Don't like it DON'T BITCH TO ME ABOUT IT!

Disclamer: I don't own them. Though I would like to get my hands on Kouji, Kouichi, and Takuya for a while. Chuckles evilly

The afore mentioned boys: laughs nervously. Uh oh

Author's Notes: This fic was inspired by "Sweet Dreams" and "The Beautiful People" by Marilyn Manson. The stuff in Italics is a poem I did for this chapter. And when it come t making up names I really suck at it., but anyways if any were wondering when "Sweet Dreams" was coming into play in this fic. All I can say is that it's coming. I'll shut up now and be on the show now.

Chapter XI

The Last Night

(POV – Takuya)

The next day at school was hard. Dad personally dropped me off at school. I was miserable. I really couldn't think straight. Why oh why could my father just understand? He's blinded by hate so much that it sickens me.

I managed to avoid Kouji till I got to class. Kouji and I have different first periods. When I was able to I wrote Kouji a note to explain everything. I wanted him so badly to be here with me, to help me through all of this. I was really unbearable.

I felt my heart, already shredded, rip some, more.

"Mr. Kanbara are you okay? The teacher called on me.

"No ma'am, not really, may I be excused to the restroom" man I really must look miserable

"Sure thing but try to make it quick, I'll be doing a review for next weeks test"

I nod and grabbed the note she scribbled out giving me permission to the restroom should anybody question why I was out during class. I managed to keep most of my composure till I walked into the bathroom. I locked myself in a stall and silently started to weep for what seemed like the billionth time since last night but I couldn't help it. I was basically being denied my life. I quiet myself quickly as I hear someone enter the restroom. I peer through the cracks of the stall door. And really only my luck would do this to me. It was Kouji. I wanted him to so badly hold me and tell me it's going to be alright, but I can't. He said he would know if I ever had contact with him at school.

"Takuya" I hear him call "are you okay"

I can't help but answer him "not really"

"Can I come in?"

"I dunno Kouji"

"Why whassa matter?" he inquired really concerned

"Kouji something really bad happened last night… and …I"

"….He found out didn't he?"

I fall into a pool of sobs. I was dead to the world till I felt a pair of arms around me. I know it's him. I know his touch, his scent, really everything. I'm not supposed to be doing this but I don't care right now. I burry my face into Koujis chest and he hugs me tight trying to comfort me.

"Kouji, he said "I started between sobs "I'm not supposed to see you anymore, I would be severely punished if he found out. And and he made me throw away all of our pictures of us and stuff. I didn't wanna Kouji, but I did' have a choice. I dunno what to do. Half a period with out you hurts so much that I really cannot bear it."

Kouji held me tight I as I spilled my heart telling him all of what had happened the night before.

"Takuya" he called after I had calmed down "I think I might have an idea"

I look up at him "whaa?"

"My mother, my real mother has moved to this side of town" he started "and here lately I've been thinking about moving in with her. I never got the chance to have her as my mother, and well dad's… really not ever a dad anymore. And she doesn't care about that stuff. Either. I'm sure"

"How do you know?"

There was a bit of a distant look in Kouji's eyes for a moment "Kouichi was gay." He said "he had told me before mom, but said that he had had a long discussion with her about it, to find out that she really didn't care. She said that the same rules would apply if he was dating a girl, ya know typical mom stuff" he smiled "and I could see if you could move in with me?"

"Kouji" I was blown away. I really was. I didn't know what to say, so I did the only thing I could think of, I kissed him, and boy did I kiss him.

"Now Takuya if you can survive two weeks, and I get the okay all will be better"

"What if she says no" I ask kind of falling back into depression

"Well, I dunno off the top of my head but we'll figure something out"

I smile a little, sometimes Kouji really just makes me feel like I'm on top of the world.

"Now go back to class before you get into trouble"

I nod and kiss him one good time again wash my face and head back to class.

(Two weeks later)

It has been a hard two and a half weeks from when my father decided I wouldn't see Kouji anymore. I suppose it could have been worse. The few pictures I kept from my father I managed to sneak them to school and put them in my locker. Though I wasn't' supposed to I stayed in contact with Kouji. There is just no way I couldn't, or would, unless I was dead. Izumi helped out with that. She would give notes and stuff to Kouji from me and the other way around. I told her, and Kouji agreed with me, that we were going to buy her dinner or something when this whole thing blows over. Of course she did the girl thing "Awww you guys" and so on.

Oh and my father wasn't kidding when he told me that I couldn't see Kouji at school either if I did he would know. I spoke to him in the hall for a few minutes between classes. I really got it at home

"Son I'm trying to help you, but you are really trying my patients Takuya. Being gay is wrong. Some day you'll thank me for this, and when I said no contact with Kouji I MEANT NO contact with Kouji"

And well I didn't got to school for three days. He beat me. Not severely though, just enough for it to hurt physically and emotionally, and isolated me. My father would set food inside my room to eat. I wasn't allowed out to the room for any purpose other than for the bathroom and shower.

But after that whole ordeal I found out how he knew. He had told the staff of the school that we weren't to see each other, and to let him know if it ever happened. How did I find this out? Well my English teacher Mr. Kirafuda let me in on this. After I was out for three days he kept me after class, for what I thought was to catch me up on all that I had missed, but actually to see if I was alright.

"Takuya I would like to see you after class"

Of course I groaned. That meant either detention for something or more work. Soon as everybody left I stood in front of his desk.

"Takuya I are you alright?" Mr. Kirafuda asked.

At first I was confused by the question. It seemed harmless enough, but it also sounded like a loaded question. So I played dumb

"What do you mean sir?" I ask innocently

"Well I figured you knew, but apparently not. You dad told the staff to make sure you and Kouji stay apart and someone spotted you and him together and called you dad, and then you weren't here for three days"

Inside I was swearing up a storm.

"Takuya?"

I smile somewhat bitterly. Man was I pissed off. I was just about seeing red

"No" I start "nothing's alright"

It was Mr. Kirafuda's turn to look confused

"I suppose you would like an explanation?"

"Only if you don't mind sharing"

"Well a while back the most wonderful thing happened to me. I fell in love. People don't agree with it. I know this. I knew what I was getting into if he found out. And I tried hard not to not let him found out. …but he did, and now I cannot see Kouji anymore because I love him."

Mr. Kirafuda had a stern look on his face. I was expecting the worst.

"That's wrong of him Takuya"

I did a double take

"Whaa..."

"I don't agree with that at all. Takuya, you have nothing to worry about from me"

I smiled a bit he was on our side, which was great, because there is a shortage of people on our side.

But everything is set in place now I'm to live with Kouji and his real mother here in a few days. Kouji told her all about the situations and immediately agreed to let me live there as long as "we behaved," so no sex with Kouji for a bit, which it's no big deal for either of us, because well, it's not even all about that. What matters to me most is that I'm with him and he's with me.

The past few days Kouji's been helping me sneak some of my stuff over to the new house. I get home from school before my father and mother and Shinya, so Kouji comes with me and grabs a box or two then heads out, and really now I'm just down to what I can throw in the large duffle bag in my closet.

As I lay down to sleep that night I'm kinda nervous. It's Friday tomorrow. It's my last night here. Though I want to be with Kouji and out from under this tyrannical rule by my father, I cannot help but to be sad. I've had lots of good memories here. There was lots of love here. And I suppose that up to a point there still is. It's just… well a difference in opinion.

Just before laying Down Shinya was in my room, he was curious as to what was going on with dad and I. Up until a little while ago we had the model father-son relationship.

"What happened between dad and you taky?"

"Well" I had to choose my words carefully. "Shinya, what do you think about two boys being together?"

He looked confused for a second

"Like boyfriend and girlfriend together?" he asks

I nod

"Well my best friend Sota has a boyfriend. He said he dun like girls at all. But I still like him."

"Well Shinya. Dad and I are not getting along right now because I have a Boyfriend."

"Why's that?"

"Well some people don't think that two guys being together is right. They say it's unnatural, and wrong."

"…"

I saw the puzzled look on his face

"Shinya you cannot get involved with me and Dad. I'll take care of it. And I wouldn't tell Dad about Sota being gay; he may not let you see him again."

"Okay" he gets up to leave

"And Shinya" I stand and hug him tight "remember that no matter what happens I love ya and my favorite little bro"

"Love you to Taky" he head out to go to bed

I haven't had a chance to talk to my mother. But at dinner I noticed that she looks at my father, then at me with a sad expression. I can't quite figure out where she stands on the matter.

I sigh as I roll over onto my side and try to get to sleep.

Scy: ooookay so I'm a total douche bag for leaving this sitting so long. And especially for writing the chapter and forgetting I have it written. bashes his head on the desk really hard yeah so lately all I do is work then sleep the work some more then not sleep. Lots of fun lemme tell you all about it.

Anyways but the good news is that I know how I wanna end the story, which is a good thing. The last um three chapters had just kinda came out with out no actual direction or anything like that. But I have a goal to get to now does a dance and now for the somewhat sad part. After finishing this story which I'm foreseeing two maybe three more chaps tops, unless I just get a crazy awesome Idea to change the plot, I'll prolly stop writing fanfiction. Its fun and all and I enjoy it, I just dun have time to do anything anymore