Don't Move On

Chapter 7

Sawyer sat on his lazyboy and reached over the center table, putting aside the remote control and taking the folded piece of paper. She left, leavin' me with nothin' but a damned note. Ain't this familiar. Jack. If she did this to Jack, 'course she'll do this to me. What am I talkin' about; I practically threw her out! Dammit. Damn me. Where is she? I ain't gonna lose her like this. He shook his head as if by doing such, his thoughts would disappear. Nonetheless, he tried to clear his mind as he opened the note.

Sawyer, I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say, Sawyer started to read silently, at the same time trying to remember what Kate said she wrote to Jack. There was obviously melancholy and regret in his expression, but the look on his face was nothing compared to what he felt. But the CD inside your player—track 12—play the last song.

That was it; that was all the note said. Sawyer's mind was racing, but he couldn't really pin down any of his thoughts. Deciding to just get this over with, he grabbed the remote control, the one that served as a paper weight earlier, and followed Kate's instructions.

Speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

Sawyer listened to the lyrics intently, wondering what Kate was really trying to say. To the place where I find peace again, he repeated to himself, putting his hands on his face, trying to hold back his tears.

You are the strength that keeps me walking.
You are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

"Dance with me, Sawyer," Kate suddenly whispered, as she descended down the stairs. Sawyer looked up, then stood up, then he was motionless and speechless at the same time.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Kate made her way towards Sawyer; she wished things will only get better.

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

Sawyer met her at the bottom of the stairs, took her hands, and pulled her close. At this point, he was willing to do anything, to be anything just to make her stay.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

"What's this song," Sawyer asked extra softly, trying to make Kate forget the Sawyer of this morning.

"Everything. Lifehouse," Kate replied, glad to hear that tone of Sawyer's voice.

"Where'd ya get it?"

"It was in my bag. Must be Hurley's," Kate looked up at him and smiled.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

He danced with her, held her tight, breathe her in.

'Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

Suddenly, everything there was, everything in his life, was about Kate.

They held each other even long after the song had ended. The silence was almost deafening, but it wasn't awkward at all.

"Sawyer, about what happened, I'm…" Kate finally started to speak, but Sawyer placed a finger upon her lips; she kissed it and they were silent again, still holding each other.

"On second thought, why aren't you with Jack, anyway," Sawyer asked, really wanting to know. After all, with everything Kate said that morning, the part about him being a mistake and the part about Jack were what hurt him most.

"He had helped me too much, and I… but I don't have anything to give him in return," Kate answered simply, not minding that Sawyer asked.

"O so you got somethin' you can give me then," he replied slyly and grinned mischievously.

Kate rolled her eyes, walked towards the long couch, sat down, crossed her arms and legs, and tried to hold back a smile.

Sawyer sat beside her, wishing he asked more seriously, maybe Kate would have given him a serious answer then.

"I want to be with you, Sawyer," she looked at him; intently, seriously this time. "Everyday since you left the island, I'd go to that waterfall we found and I'd imagine myself with you. I'd even have conversations with you sometimes. I know it was crazy," Kate slightly sighed. "It was funny though, those conversations I had with you in my imagination, it's kinda weird because we never fought in them."

Sawyer smiled, touched by what Kate just said.

"And when I sneaked out on Jack, it was because I knew I wanted to be with you," Kate added, surprised that she was actually baring her thoughts and feelings.

"Kate," Sawyer started, neither of them realized he used her name. "Stay with me," he continued, placing a hand upon Kate's knee, exactly the way he did that morning.

"Sawyer," Kate began, but she stopped, not really knowing what to say.

"Stay with me, the best is yet to be."

"All I can give you is me."

"And you're everything."