To all my reviewers a big THANK YOU! I'll give you guyssomethng soon. LOL. To Michy thanks for the Lovler idea!

Disclaimer: Lily Evans and the Mauderes belong to J.K Rowling, the plot is mine alone!

She doesn't exist

James' POV

Ever since Evans (I'm going to call her that now because of what she's done to me) said she'd rather date the giant squid than me my heart has been broken.

I know she burnt the red roses (right in front of me) I sent to her on Valentines Day.

I saw how she spat at my Lovler which I sent on her birthday.

I heard the howler she sent on my birthday declare her hatred for me.

I've heard all the names she's called me, including d. head (details of how can remain unclassified).

But besides all this, I thought deep down somewhere she loved me or at least liked me a lot, but she just needed time to realize it.

But she made it crystal clear that she didn't need any time to realize what feelings she harbored for me were after the Charms O.W.L in 5th year.

It's pretty obvious she doesn't like a lot you let alone love you at all when she stands up for your worst enemy and not for you.

It's pretty obvious she doesn't like a lot you let alone love you when she calls you an egotistical prat in front of the entire year.

It's pretty obvious she doesn't like you a lot let alone love you when she declares she'd rather date the giant squid than you.

And that giant squid is disgusting to look at even though it's a sweet soul and a GIRL, I'll tell you that. With about 500 tentacles and this massive blobbing head and these two HUGE eyes, that sees even behind its massive head. I know this after Sirius dared me to swim as deep as I could possibly swim in the lake, back in 3rd year. I ate about hmm; I think it was 3 or was it 5 gillyweeds which enabled me to swim as deep as the place where the giant squid lives, it's a girl squid as I mentioned earlier named Maura, but she's really nice. But I haven't been able to visit her since; I felt like a fish for a month afterwards.

I'm off topic, but it truly hurts when Lily Evans, the love your life says she'd rather date the a GIRL giant squid than you.

On the train back home:

"Look mate, I know it hurts but every man gets hurt by a woman once in their lives" Sirius was saying

"But how could she say that to you" asked Peter with his mouth full of a Pumpkin Pasty

"Yeah and think of all the things James here has called Lily" retorted Remus

"But after all I've done for her…." I replied

"Like what, annoying the hell out of her? Have you ever thought that she doesn't seem to like you because you're constantly after her?" asked Remus

Ahhhh, Remus the voice of reason. No wonder he got prefectership with Lily.

"Nah, Evans is just a stuck up" said Peter now his mouth full of pumpkin pasty and chocolate frog

"I dunno what I have to do for her to go out with me or at least think I'm not……….." I trailed off as Sirius interrupted me

"An ego-tis-tical idiot or a d. head", you mean"

"Yeah", I replied

The food trolley came around and the guys forgot about my Lily woes.

But I didn't.

I began thinking, what in bloody hell could I do to change the mind that belonged to Lily Evans about me. But I was angry, angry at her for not seeing me, angry for thinking that way of me but also angry at myself for all the things I had done just for her, the planning of pranks, the gifts, EVERYTHHING in fact. Every damn thing I'd done was for her. Well maybe not continually hexing Snape but most of it was for her to give me attention.

But I didn't want the attention she was giving me, the angry attention what Iw anted was the friendly attention.

Then all of a sudden what Remus said came back to me

"Have you ever thought that she doesn't seem to like you because you're constantly after her?"

That was it.

I would stop going after her.

I would stop running after her to ask her out.

I would stop staring and drooling at her.

In fact I would stop everything to do with her.

I would cut Lily Evans out of my life that day.

This meant….

LILY EVANS DOES NOT EXIST.

What did you think? Its basically a Chapter about what James will eventually do.