I knew it would always be hard to forget about Inuyasha and I, being friends one minute and the next, not even knowing what we were. Just knowing that we kissed that left both of us confused and me mourning and just wanting to see him so desperately at Sango's going away party but now, it all seemed like a blur. Here I was, with my old friends at a huge party with music blasted and this guy Kouga guiding me along towards the steps of the porch.

" Kagome it's too crowded up here. I hate coming here…."

He thought to himself seeing all these people dancing around in small mini skirts, and beer spilling and cigarettes lit constantly and laughter echoing seeing everyone was crushed on the porch. He just shook his head, and through his fingers into his wavy brown hair and just sat softly on the grass while I stood quietly, still with his brown leather jacket wrapped around my waist.

It didn't make sense to me why a guy like him, would hate coming here when he was just sitting around with a whole bunch of girls enjoying himself? Maybe there was a lot more I was missing. After all, he did seem to live far away from what I heard. Still, I smiled and sat right beside him and it almost felt like I had known him for years which made me laugh at the thought of it.

" Why would you hate coming here? You seemed pretty fine before with all those girls, and before your brother even bothered you to get us drinks."

My knees were brought up to my chest, seeing the full shot of the moon glowing brightly and the other part of the lake way further down around the forest area. Kouga just laughed at my comment, and swiftly shook me with his arm and now I was completely forgetting who Inuyasha was now.

" Kagome…Kagome…Kagome…It's not that. Of course I don't mind coming here, just I never get to be close with my brother. The only time I can is if I'm able to come down here and come to the party. But, Gavin is always too busy to do anything with me anymore. Plus, the night life thing can get alittle sickening. But there's no one I know who will just sit down with me and listen…"

I couldn't help but break out in laughter, while my head was guided exactly between his shoulder and his neck. I wasn't the type of girl who really was crazy over guys I had just met, but I could tell right away Kouga was alittle bit different. Really, I felt bad when I heard about his brother and they barely spent any time since of distance, and the only time they'd see each other was the huge party Gavin threw every summer. But obviously it showed he was too hyped up in his summer parties to even recognize his brother, kind of what my friends were doing to me.

" I'm listening, don't worry. I guess living so far away doesn't really help. The only time you get to see him is at the parties…and it doesn't seem like he does seem to pay attention to you that much…"

Kouga just sighed, softly laying his feet flat out and glancing up to the stars hearing his brother's voice echo from the side of the house. Quietly, he stared at me for a minute and just chuckled that a girl like me would listen, and wasn't drunk or like the other girls he had met.

" Ya well it can't really be fixed that much. He still treats me like the little annoying brother no matter what. Kagome, your a lot different then any of the other girls I've met…"

I rose an eyebrow, and got comfortable on the lawn and looked directly back at the sky as we sat and talked. I didn't understand how I was really that different, but then again what he explained said it all.

" How so?"

He slightly chuckled, and opened the beer that I had been offered, and took a quick sip and placed it faithfully beside him on the grass. He shook his head amused, and looked at the other girls at the party drunk, so out of their minds and being around those type of girls was what he seemed so use to.

" Like, I've never seen a girl who doesn't smoke or drink. Or a girl who just pretends to talk to me to get what she wants. I guess I'm so use to being around girls like that, that's all. You are just the exact opposite, and believe me it's nothing bad."

Calmly I let out a chuckle and before I could make another comment, he stood before me and grabbed my hand by surprised and eagerly pulled me up from the damp grass, until I sprang to his height for a moment and now was leveled with him. His hand laced around mine softly, as I automatically gushed while his eyes were piercing right through me that was so nerve racking, yet made me stop from looking away.

" Come on Kagome. Let's go somewhere quiet for awhile. Believe me, you'd get sick of coming here every single summer. I'm surprised half of them aren't. Let's just go down there it's a lot quieter and the music won't make your ears bleed down there, believe me."

He grabbed my hand again, seeing no one would even notice while this whole party was going on. He trailed on ahead, going down the huge steep hill feeling myself ready to fall flat on my face, but easily he scooped me up hearing me screaming and grasping twigs to tree branches and decided this would be easier.

" Thanks, I thought I was gonna fall flat on my face!"

" Believe me I know. I like the fact your different Kagome. I guess maybe it isn't bad to have a change after all."

I thought the same thing, after loving Inuyasha for awhile. I just never thought I'd be slowly falling for this new guy I had just met at the party, and forget Inuyasha that easily. It was all new for me, then again it was something that I had to embrace since loving a friend would never work out neither.

Kouga laughed, looking down on me seeing my chin against his shoulder trying to relax and take me to where ever it was around the lake and talk there about everything, and anything. He carefully rushed down the hill at full speed, hearing me let out a couple of screams as finally we were around the one end of the lake where there was alittle cottage, very small compared to anything I had seen in my life. Softly, he placed me on my feet still refusing to let go of my hand, and it was something I was beginning to like.

" That gazebo thing was built by my father before he died. I use to go to that place all the time and I've never shown it to anyone accept you, and my brother. I'd run here all the time when Gavin and I had some major fights. Stupid, but it worked!"

I just looked up into the sky, feeling all these was literally taking my breath away. With Kouga it was a different feeling for how I felt for Inuyasha. It was basically indescribable, there was no word or anything that could explain it to anyone really. All I knew is I felt safe, and secure with him and just learning about who he really was made me warm up to everything.

" Well my brother and I fought all the time. He use to go hide in the shrine keep back home. I'd always tease him and say there were demons and there and he'd fly out two seconds later."

Kouga shook his head with laughter, and patted me on the back and step by step walked against the moist dirt that was slowly transforming into mud, and softly took me towards the small gazebo that looked like it had been standing there for over fifty years. It wasn't really big either, but he slowly opened the door while I walked into small couches laid down flat, and candles that had been there for years.

" Now that's mean Kagome! Then again I would of pulled a stunt off like that if I wasn't the younger one. See, it's exactly where I left it. I had once almost forgotten about it until now."

I just laid myself quietly on the cushions underneath me that covered the whole entire area of the floor. I could feel the warm air coming through, and I could still hear the music word for word but it wasn't that loud anymore. I doubted then the girls were paying any attention that we had disappeared, and still with Kouga. It sounded like Gavin expected him to be with me for abit and either disappear, or get bitched away. But I just laid there with my eyes wide open, staring at the ceiling and slowly forgot about Inuyasha each time I looked at Kouga…..

" Damn I only got her answering machine again."

Sango whined, seeing she already her balloons up and food out on the table for her going away party. She knew it would only be her, Miroku, Inuyasha and I but she loved just being with us. Miroku sat across the table looking at Sango with her hair pulled back with a butterfly clip he had bought her for part of the going away party, while he could tell she was ready to give up.

" I called and left a message for sure telling her the exact date of when it was. The date was changed, but I gave her enough time too! Where the hell could she be? I can't leave without her being her with us!"

Sango sat quietly in the dark green looking living room, quietly falling into the leather chair as Miroku sat right across with the remote in hand, and shutting it off as soon as he saw the worried, depressing face of Sango. He knew she wanted this to work out, and she wanted her best friends to be there to spend time and wish her off, and cry with before she went away. Now this was just ripping her apart.

" Hey Sango, don't worry just yet. I'd give Kagome a few minutes. Think about it, she is three hours away and something could of slowed her down."

Miroku swiftly rubbed her back, while she nodded softly believing Miroku by his smile and the look of concern in his eyes

" Maybe your right…."

She said softly afraid that I wouldn't be able to show up. Sure enough, I knew nothing about it or even checked the answering machine to even see if the date had been changed. It seemed I had been too busy to even probably care, since I had be elsewhere with someone who took me by surprise. Sango jumped when she heard the doorbell ring, and flew towards the door with her flip flops falling off seeing Inuyasha standing there with his messy black stands of hair in his face, and him still faithfully wearing the heart necklace with pride than anything else. He had kept it on ever since I had left, and my necklace was still faithfully around mine. He stared at it caught off guard, sweepinghis feetbefore seeing Sango grimly smile, expecting me more than anyone else.

" Oh Inuyasha! Well at least you aren't the last one…."

Inuyasha's dark chocolate eyes lit up knowing by the tone of voice and seeing only them three in the house, that I hadn't shown my face at all yet. Inuyasha looked up for a moment and back down towards the necklace remembering when I fought with him, saying he would never, ever be caught daring a heart necklace. But here he was, still laced around his neck ever since we left each other for the summer.

" Kagome isn't here yet? Damnit! I know if anything she would be here by now!"

Miroku rose an eyebrow when he saw the maddened expression on his face more than anyone else there. They knew this was more for Sango than anything else, but Miroku wasn't stupid either when he heard the attitude and the expression carry along with it.

" When did you ever care that much? Besides, if anyone should care that much should be Sango since she's the one moving away from the people who are dear and close with her. Plus you've kept that necklace on ever since."

Inuyasha quietly sat down in the green chair with his legs hanging over the side of the arm rest, and took a deep breath wishing I'd step through that door with a huge smile on my face and practically leap into his arms with delight. He kept staring at the door anxiously waiting for a knock, or even a phone call but nothing was heard. Sango was already at the point of tears seeing it had been over an hour and nothing had been heard, and knew this wasn't like me either. Only if they knew what had been going on. I knew it would probably kill Inuyasha. But how was I so sure he actually cared? He only seemed like something he did, and sounded like he regretted. It was obvious to everyone else he cared a lot about me, and here I was up with another guy at a party where I shouldn't had been in the first place.

" Look I'm not saying I should care that much! Just you wouldn't understand Miroku…"

Miroku smiled daringly has Sango stayed quiet, feeling unhappy as Miroku stepped aside and attempting to cheer her up which only results in a unexpected but loud smack.

" Try Me."

Inuyasha softly sighed, knowing he wanted to keep this a secret but it was bad enough to keep it from his best friends. He stared at the necklace one more, feeling so stupid on feeling this way it was obvious it was driving him nuts something he wasn't use to, or never to expected to feel after that one kiss. But it seemed that it was enough to do it.

" Well when we were up there it was great! A couple of fights but otherwise it was pretty much ok. Just when we left, it struck me that I liked her more than a friend and I wish I didn't. We kissed when I had to leave, and I've been so anxious for her to come back. I really freaking hate it! It's so stupid!"

Sango snapped out of the sadness when she heard that news, and dropped her jaw almost astonished and even Miroku was practically blown away from it. Sango's eyes lit up with excitement, practically at the edge of her seat when she heard that both of us had to be something to each other in one way or another.

" That's surprising! I never thought you two could be together, after all you've guys been friends so long…"

" Exactly…" Inuyasha muttered, as the whole room when quiet, almost quiet enough to hear each other's thoughts dancing in their heads with worry and doubt. Sango hung her head low wishing I had been there, and Inuyasha worrying if I'd ever come or what could he possibly say if he were to see my face after all this. He smiled in thought, and turned to Sango that caused her to be at alarm.

" Look, I'm not freaking waiting here. I'll call her on her cell and see if I'm able to reach her, or maybe at home. It's worth a shot. If not I'll wait over there for abit. I'm sure she's coming. It's not like Kagome to miss something like this!"

Both nodded in agreement, as Inuyasha grabbed his cell phone and stepped outside finding him near my house hoping for me to pick up, or drive in. He anxiously waited as he heard the ringing.

" Kagome…Please pick up."

" It seemed like you used it a lot. I can't blame you though coming here after huge fights Kouga.I'd be the same way sometimes, but usually I sat in the shrine area or decided to walk everything like that off to get that off my mind. Believe me it wasn't that easy."

He nodded quietly, as he just looked at me sitting on his knees slightly crouched over listening to my words roll of my lips so easily. He seemed almost happy, just being around a girl who wasn't what he was use to. A girl he could actually connect with words than anything else. I couldn't blame him with him and Gavin, after all they didn't seem that close, or as close as Kouga wanted them too. I just stretched out my arms staring up at the little sun roof overhead, and seeing some stars shining through in the night sky.

He had been quiet for the longest time and so had I. I had a lot on my mind, and he just had this smile that wouldn't fade away each time he looked down on me. It was almost scary, and I looked away for a moment feeling myself blush turning at least a light shade of pink. He was sweet, but I hadn't be sure when I saw him hanging around all those girls.

He just looked straight into my eyes, as I was over come with nervousness just wondering what could possibly be next. His piercing blue eyes just gleamed, as he softly leaned over and intrigued touched the wooden beaded necklace with the black and red colors, that Inuyasha and I had exchanged during the night he had to leave. He held it partly in his palm with an eyebrow raised with an awkward smile

" I remember when all these necklaces were out. I can never find these anymore, no matter where I go. Last time I saw theses was when I lived here. Where did you get this from?"

I had wiped Inuyasha from the mind the moment Kouga and I came here, and settled in with our talk about the past, and mostly about how much he missed his brother and the vague memories about living back here. When he touched the beads my body shivered, and the thought of Inuyasha drifted back in my mind, I had hoped finally escaped but never really did after he brought up his trademark necklace.

" Oh this? It's one of my friends. Inuyasha, he's had this for awhile actually. We switched them, and truthfully I think it looks better on me."

I joked around trying to get the load off my back about the necklace and Inuyasha. He just rose an eyebrow and laughed with a wink, and calmly laid down beside me, reaching for my hand and carefully intwining our fingers while I could only look away, while he just tried to get my attention placing his fingers softly underneath my chin to look directly at him.

" I think your right. Kagome, I'm just letting you know. Your way different from those girls. I know I've said it a million times before, but it's amazes me. Your beautiful, and it's nice to see a girl like who isn't drunk, and actually cares to hear what is said and doesn't care about money, or being too into themselves. You'd think I'd love the party chicks and all but I don't. I just hope I could find one who could actually listen, but forget that. My brother is surprised I'm not really like the other guys who would love that type of attention. It's almost like he's ashamed. Then again it's good to talk to a girl who seems real."

He softly moved over, leaning over me gently while my eyes just widened and my pulse was quickening seeing the look in his blue eyes that made me feel weak at the knees, and sick to my stomach all at the same time. His light brown bangs carefully flew into place, while he softly leaned over me and carefully placed his fingers smoothly underneath my chin and right there he kissed me. My eyes widened for a moment, it almost felt like I had been betraying Inuyasha then again we weren't anything at all. We just kissed, and it didn't seem like he loved me to begin with, all it seem like a spur of the moment thing nothing more.

" It feels like I'm betraying Inuyasha but I'm not. Were not even a couple, and besides a kiss doesn't decide that either. It was stupid that happened, he made me so confused and besides why should I care…He didn't seem to care about it, maybe for that moment. I'll probably come back with me adoring him, and him saying it was seemed like the right moment. Were not dating, were not married…It was just a kiss nothing more…"

I told myself, feeling his one hand wrap around my body and my eyes closed and my body suddenly relaxed and feeling chills run up and down my whole entire body. He kissed softly and pushed alittle harder with force, feeling myself practically dying in his arms with a guy I barely knew.

After five minutes of laying with him, and it was getting somewhere finally I heard my small cell phone in my pocket vibrating and ringing to a certain ring tone,while we broke off the kiss and I just blushed for a second and grabbed the phone

" It will only be a minute."

I flipped the phone up staring at the screen that showed all the icons and Inuyasha's name highlighted red saying it was a incoming call. I wanted to answer, but ever since the way he acted on the phone that night and how things would never work it caused me to be torn between it. I wanted to answer so badly, but something was holding back that made Kouga get impatient and annoyed alittle

" You going to answer it?"

Only if I knew that question. Stubbornly, I looked down with all the thoughts in mind and placed it down on the ground leaving it to ring a couple more times, while going back safety into Kouga's arms. The ringer kept on going, while I just stared at it and only the tone of the ringer was through the air.

" Stop ringing…Inuyasha why are you doing this to me? If you don't love me at all, then why are you doing this?"

I wondered praying the ringer would stop and eventually he gave up. I knew he was pretty stubborn, and it was almost like he knew I'd have my cell phone on and almost like he knew I was ignoring it for whatever reason. He hung up the phone while Kouga rose an eyebrow, with my arms around his neck feeling this was so wrong, but so right.

" Whoever that was obviously you didn't want to answer. Sounds needy like a boyfriend or something. Do you have one?"

He seemed to be asking all the hard questions. I didn't even know what Inuyasha was considered. This point I had been so confused, it was pretty bad. I just looked into his eyes, and shook my head even though I felt like a liar when the truth was I didn't have one at all.

" Surprisingly, no I don't."

Softly, he just leaned me back down against the floor until I was perfectly flat with it. He placed his arms over to the side hovering over me, feeling his nose practically press against mine with our lips just inches apart. My eyes danced with nervousness replaying what he said over and over again, feeling him getting friendlier by the minute while I froze up, and my eyes wandered away from his.

" I can't do this…"

I told myself shoving him in alarm, almost like a wake up call. Like a person who had been late for work and rushing to get the hell out of there and get to there on time. I shoved him hard not realizing it, while he just stood up and watched me fix my bra strap and me dashing outside the door.

" Kagome what is matter with you!"

I just looked at him with pity. I felt like I loved him a lot, but it just wasn't the same as it was with Inuyasha. I finally managed to fix my bra, and grabbed my cell phone and faithfully stuck into my pocket and looked at the brown haired guy feeling like such a jerk, while I waved off.

" I'm sorry I have a boyfriend!"

I couldn't blame him for being confused. The way I felt and saw it Inuyasha and I kind of were even if we hadn't sad it. I saw him standing there, knowing exactly what he was going to do was going to run after me and make me explain it all. I just had fear running through me while he looked at me with a confused yet heart broken look.

" I thought you said you didn't Kagome?"

I bowed my head down, and said a few words before I decided to dash it and dash away from the party and everyone else and just go straight and wait for the girls at their place

" Long story. I'm sorry Kouga…I'm sorry…"

When I saw him the way he looked I couldn't stick around any longer I just couldn't. I dashed off without a warning at high speed feeling the necklace bounce of my neck and chest while I had finally made it to the side where the party was still going on.

" I'm such an idiot!"

I told myself over knowing I had shredding this poor guy apart, and he'd likely follow me back to the scene and make me explain the whole entire story. The last thing I wanted to do was confront him. I just rushed past the outside crowds seeing the girls and Gavin almost in the same spot, now with more drinks in there hand and all their laughter lingering in the air. I just tried to dart off, catching a glimpse of me in a look of panic that caused Ayumi to drop her beer knowing she wasn't tanked and worried when she saw me almost with tears flooding my eyes.

" Gavin I'm sorry…I might be back to drink some more I don't know. I just saw Kagome pass by, I'm going to see what's wrong with her…"

Gavin nodded seeing Ayumi darting after me, and Gavin seeing his younger brother completely exhausted looking, and had the most pitiful looking face he had ever seen in his life. To know he was with me, and now seeing me lying and taking off without a warning or even really stick around to explain it. Gavin rose his eyebrow, while his younger brother stumbled over with him dying for air to get inside his lungs.

" Hey what's amatter with you? I thought you and Kagome were fine?"

Kouga leaned against the side of the house with a broken hearted look on his face, knowing he loved me, and the fact he knew it was love instead of lust. He felt he connected with me, and loved that I was different and wasn't any girl he really expected either. He was obvious he had his heart set on me, and there I was tearing him apart.

He grabbed a cigarette from Gavin's hands knowing he had only smoked when he was highly stressed out. He lit it, watching the embers burn and looked at the other two girls barely there but yet still open ears to him and Kagome.

" I don't know. I know I liked her, and the fact she wasn't drunk or smoked either. We were fine until she lied saying she had a boyfriend and just took off like that!"

Gavin placed his arm around him and sadly patted him on the back, knowing his bother was never in love and could see this was really hurting him. He just shook his head, and had a small smile.

" I saw Kagome dart off. Ayumi went after her. I'm sure they are going back to Yumi's house from where they are staying. I'll give ya the directions. I mean if this Kagome chick is really worth a lot running after and making her explain it, then go for it."

Kouga nodded getting the directions and headed of following straight after me.

" Damn no answer! I can't believe her!"

Inuyasha thought to himself knowing he waited quietly on the shrine steps watching the leaves slowly falling feeling like a fool for waiting for her like this. Then again he knew this wasn't my normal behavior and I had always kept my word for my friends. He knew how important Sango's Going Away party had been, knowing she'd be a far distance and it would be hard to see her. He just looked at the sky waiting an extra ten minutes and eventually got up and looked at the shrine area, and slowly walked back.

" She didn't show. This is never like her. She didn't answer her cell phone, or even came. I just wanted to come down so I could let her know I care about her and that kiss wasn't just nothing. She's probably just confused as I am right now. I guess it's just celebrating Sango going away now…Kagome, where the hell are you?"