Does He Ever Get The Girl?

6. As Lovers Go

It'd been days since Greg had last spent time with Sara outside of work, and he was beginning to feel as though she had been avoiding him. At work they'd barely spoken. And when they had spoken their conversations were focused upon cases, and side-stepped anything concerning their relationship. He desperately needed to speak to her, to know what she was thinking, feeling...And whether or not what they had shared had been real, or if he had just imagined it all. He allowed his insecurities to get the better of him. He couldn't help it. Greg had never felt like that before, never cared for someone as much as he did now, and it frightened him. He couldn't bare the thought of rejection, not again, and not from her. Anyone but her he could handle, but it terrified him to think that she didn't feel the same. Had he scared her away? Had he said, or done something wrong? Had he been coming on too strong? Maybe she wasn't aware of the extent of his feelings for her...Whatever it was, he needed to know, and he needed to know now. He picked up the phone and dialed in the number effortlessly, waiting as the phone began to ring. It continued to ring, but still no answer.

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Sara stared at the phone that she gripped in her hands, at the small screen which displayed the caller's ID...it was Greg. Part of her wanted to answer, but another part of her was telling her to run, to run far away and never look back. It'd been so long since she'd been in a proper relationship, and the last hadn't gone so well. She knew that her feelings towards Greg were real, but as her relationship count rose, her confidence in men had lowered. And now she found herself wondering if she could trust Greg, if she could open up to him, be honest with him, and tell him all of her secrets. She hated herself for questioning him. He had been so sweet to her. But still she doubted the relationship they had. She escaped her thoughts as she realized that the phone continued to ring. She needed to hear his voice, and at the same time dreaded it. Was he calling to break things off with her? They hadn't spoken since the night at her place. Since then things had been strange, awkward between them. She sighed, she really didn't know what to expect.

"Hello?" She said into the receiver after finally managing to force herself to answer the phone.

"Hey Sara, it's Greg...Umm, is it okay if I come over?" He asked, wondering whether or not he should say anything more than that.

"Okay."

"Okay I'll be there soon. Bye." He said as he hung up the phone. As short as that conversation had been, it had been one of the most awkward he'd ever had. He sighed. They had so much to talk about.

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Greg settled into the lounge as Sara took a seat beside him, or rather, almost a meter away from him. He was really starting to believe that he'd done something extremely wrong. But if that had been the case, she probably wouldn't have agreed for him to come over, or even let him inside her apartment. He started to twiddle his thumbs, something he hadn't done in a while, and began to wonder whether the silence in the room was ever going to end. It didn't seem as though Sara was going to make any attempts at conversation, and so he took the first step. He needed to know what was going on, and where they stood with each other.

"Are we a couple?" He asked, almost startling her with his voice. He wondered how confident he had sounded. He'd tried his best, but the truth was he was scared as hell.

She looked over at him, almost a little uneasily. She hesitated with her answer, not entirely sure what it would be. She didn't know if they were or not, and their behavior towards each other now pointed her towards a no. She tilted her head as she lifted her gaze, her eyes meeting his, "are we?"

Both of them had their doubts about their relationship, though neither of them realized that it was something that they shared. Greg tried not to take it the wrong way, hoping that she meant something other than trying to blow him off gently by shooting the question back to him. He shrugged. "Are couples normally like this? I mean...we haven't even spoken to each other since...and are you avoiding me?" He asked as he watched her reaction.

His question almost baffled her. "I..I thought you were avoiding me." Sara replied as she raised an eyebrow. What were they, teenagers? They were two grown adults unable to communicate with each other. How could she be so stupid? Both of their insecurities had kept them apart for no real reason. "I wasn't avoiding you. I just...I don't know." She said, trying to figure out exactly why she hadn't just spoken to him, asked him what was going on. Maybe it had something to do with her fear of rejection, or her problem with commitment.

Greg found himself grinning. He was pleased to know that she wasn't avoiding him, although something was still bugging him. She'd doubted his commitment to her, as he'd done the same with her. He hadn't exactly had any long lasting relationships but he knew that doubt wasn't a good thing. They needed trust, and honesty...and he needed to show that he could trust and be honest with her. Before he could speak she decided to try to be blatantly honest with him...something she hadn't been able to be with any of her past boyfriends.

"Y'know, I guess I was avoiding you because I was afraid...I thought that you wouldn't want to be with me, that you'd decided that I wasn't worth it..." She trailed off, knowing just how much she'd put him through already, and how much weight she held above herself, believing that no one would ever want her.

"Of course I want to be with you Sara. There's no one else I've ever wanted to be with, as much as I want to be with you." He began, realizing that something he had previously thought had been true. From then on heknew that he'd never take a moment with her for granted, and every moment possible, he'd express his feelings for her, make her aware of how much she meant to him.

I'll be true, I'll be useful...
I'll be cavalier...I'll be yours my dear.
and I'll belong to you...

A blush spread across her cheeks as he continued to tell her exactly how he felt. No one had ever said any of these things to her before, and the few who had, had never truly meant it..no one like Greg Sanders. He slid beside her and pulled her into a hug. He began to stroke her hair. She hated herself for thinking the thoughts she had over the past few days. She hated ever doubting a man like Greg, and for letting her own insecurities get the better of her. She vowed to never do it again, to lay her trust completely in him. She decided at that moment as he held her in his arms, that she'd never hesitate again. She'd never doubt her emotions, her instincts, her impulses every again, as long as they were together. She felt content in his arms, feeling as though she belonged there with him, as though everything that had happened in her life had occurred to ensure her place with him there. He smiled as he looked down at her. He'd finally gotten the girl, and it felt better than he could ever have imagined. He leaned down and kissed her forehead as he whispered, "I've gotta be honest I've been waiting for you all my life."

If you'll just let me through.This is easy as lovers go,
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
And this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, what's the sense in waiting?

A/N: I really had no idea where to go with this, just went off old notes. Sorry for taking so long to update, as well any lameness, corniness and clichés in this chapter. It's hard not to fall into them, lol. This isn't the best chapter, not even a great ending. I admit it. I don't know if it should end here or not. I'm really not into it right now (major GSR mood), but if y'all would like me to continue, let me know and I can try. Maybe lemme know what y'all would like to see happen. Lyrics/title by Dashboard Confessional's 'As Lovers Go'/ Britt