Okay I have no idea why my muse has gone into over drive but I am not complaining because I have managed to write another chapter. GO me! Lol

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Part 6 – SORRY! Don't be...

Paige walked from the dinning room and fought against the tears. Did he know how much that this was killing her? She walked in and met eyes with Phoebe, "You okay?" She asked. Paige plastered on a smile, but because she was uncertain about her voice she just nodded. Phoebe didn't believe her but decided to leave it for now.

They all made there way to the dinning room and took there seats as Piper came in and placed the bowl in the center of the table. "Okay guys dig in" She ordered. Everyone did...

A little into the dinner, and two mentions of the lack of milk left in the fridge but an empty carton present and other convocations of such a nature the pressure was getting to Rick...

"SO Paige how was work today?" Prue asked,

Paige looked over, "Yeah, not a good subject" She spoke, "I kind of had a bad day"

"Not the only one" Rick mumbled as he put his fork on the plate. "Piper that was great thanks." He said, then he tried to stand as his emotions were proving way too much for him to handle.

Paige caught his arm, as he was half way off his seat... "I've had it" She said as she also stood, and face him, both looking into each others eyes.

"P, let go of my arm." He said,

"No, I have had enough of feeling like this. What have I done wrong? I do not deserve this"

"Neither do I" He spoke, his tone way too calm for any of them. Something big was about to happen he was aware of this. Paige was aware of this and so was all in the room. "P, let me go...let me get up from this table and walk away before I do something that I regret"

"You know what do it! Do what ever the hell you like...I have absolutely know idea what to do to make this better"

"Treat me like that same brother I was before you found your new family..." He screamed.

"I do" Paige shouted back with as much force.

"No, No you have not being. What do we usually do when I come back for traveling." Rick stopped a moment and his angry tone dropped, to a hurt one, "I'll tell you what we do...we listen to rock music...stay up all night and I talk to you about my trip, we eat take away. Then the next day...we..."

He stopped but Paige picked it up, "You went to...by your self...you..."

"I sat in front of the grave P, for the first time by my self since they died...and I swear I have never felt so alone, so empty. I drove to our old town, our house, our school...our life P."

Paige saw just how hurt Rick actually was...for the first time she saw all the pain... in his eyes. SO much Pain. "I'm sorry Rick...so sorry. I didn't mean to..."

"No! No one ever means to hurt me P but it always seems to happen." He pulled his arm away, "Sorry guys. Thanks a lot for everything you have done...but I'm going to leave, find a motel or something" Before anyone could answer he left the room. Paige fell back on the chair, she felt like someone had just punched her in the face. She had hurt him, worse than anyone else could.

"Paige..." Prue started, Paige shook her head,

"Don't. I...let him...alone...and...I...he..." Paige couldn't take anymore, she threw her chair back and ran from the room. "RICK" She shouted. All at the table looked at one another, things were bad. That they could tell.

Paige stood at the bottom of the stairs; it was over half an hour since the commotion in the dinning room and things showed no sign of being resolved. Paige was to ashamed to go up the stairs and talk to her brother, a brother that she loved with everything. The rest of the Halliwell's were staying out the way, in the kitchen talking. After what Paige had walked in on earlier that day she had no doubt as to what it was about.

She hared someone coming down the steps of the manor, she stood up and turned around so she was facing him. He had his guitar and bag over his shoulders and although he would never admit to it he had been crying. Not because he like to put up a hard front. Usually he had no trouble crying in front of Paige but...he didn't want to make this ayworse than it already was.

"Rick...please...I'm so sorry. You will never know how much I hate myself right now" Paige practically begged for his forgiveness.

Rick got to the bottom step and was now stood directly in front of Paige, only inches apart he looked deep into her eyes. Then his hand made its way towards her cheek, "Look, don't hate yourself. I don't hate you...and I have nothing to forgive you for. You have nothing to be sorry for. Your life is moving on...P I'm still living in the past. I still expect you to hang around with your big brother. I still expect us to act like teenagers. We are not teenagers anymore! You have something you have always wanted here in this house...enjoy it. Just be careful okay." He forced a sad smile, "Hay and just because they are older than you does not mean they can push you around. I taught you how to Box for a reason"

Paige did not smile, she looked like she was about to die, "Why does this feel like a goodbye...for good?" She asked.

"Not for good, I'll keep in touch. I mean we have not spoke much since I got back...but one thing that I was going to say was that I'm moving back to San Francisco. I was hoping that we'd live together but that's impossible now. Look just give me a few days then I'll call you" He also looked like death.

"No Rick, don't do this to me. I need you!" Paige was begging now, as her hands gripped around his brown leather jacket, and pulled him close. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into his chest.

"Look P, I love you. That will never end. This stuff with the new found family...it's my problem and I'll have to get used to it. I mean I can not and will not lose you, and I can not and will not ask you to choose. P, P look at me" He spoke she did, "Do I look like I hate you?" She shook her head, "Do I look like I hate your family?" Paige shook her head, "That's because I do not, I'll tell you what I hate. I hate what a crappy life you have had. I hate that you have been put in this position. And I hate the people who gave you up for adoption. I just want you to be happy...with me hanging around here finding every little thing to moan about, you are not going to be happy. Prue is going to hate me more than she already does and ... life is not going to be pretty. Give me time to get it all sorted out in my head and then I'll come back and I'll treat you all how you deserve to be treated."

He hugged Paige and there was a lengthy silence until, Paige managed to choke out, "I'm sorry I never...today...with..."

"P, remember nothing to be sorry for. You have a life now that you can not just up and leave. Things have changed and I get that" He held tighter before stepping back, "I'll be in touch" HE reassured a teary eyed Paige. All she could do was nod.

He took her hand in his, and with his other took out the small picture with the Matthew's family on. He forced it into her other hand. "Just...don't forget this. Okay?" Paige looked at the photo. Then up at Rick, she threw her arms around him and let the tears fall.

"Never" She told him, "Just make sure you come back, I couldn't live with out you" She told him.

"I'd never leave you P" He spoke. "I better get out of here okay" With this he kissed the top of her head then headed towards the kitchen Paige following.

He rounded to corner and as he did everyone in there looked at him, "Hay guys, sorry for the trouble and I'll be leaving now. No doubt I'll see you all again"

"Take care Rick...and you are welcome anytime" Piper called he gave her a grateful smile.

Then he looked at Prue, "Hay look after P, or you'll have to deal with me" Prue nodded her head then Rick dropped his bag to the floor and walked over to Phoebe he put his arms around her, just a quick hug and she did the same then he spoke quietly so no one could hear... "Thanks a lot, you helped me more than you'll ever know. And I'll keep you to that offer. If I need to talk!" and with this he turned and took his bag hugging Paige for a last time before walking towards the front door.

Paige stood and watched as he took off in his car, she looked on until the car went out of sight. She fell back against the closed front door to the manor and slid to the floor. She looked at the Photo in her hands and cried.

so guys what do you think? thanks for reading TOTEM