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IS HE OKAY?

Rick was sat at the bar in P3, he had his hand holding his head up as he looked at the table across the room. A table where P, Phoebe, Prue and Piper were sat with there other halves.

Piper in the arms of her husband Leo, Paige in The arms of a now approved Richard, Phoebe with Jason and Prue with Jack. The whole table was happy. Laughing and shearing, one big happy family, Rick had got to know them over the past three weeks. He was living in an apartment not far from there and had come to know the club very well. He often spent the night and much of the early morning drinking in there.

Rick had played in the place a few times now, when Piper needed a guy to go live on Friday night, then after that the gigs had become more regular which he was happy about. He needed the money. Previously, before Rick came back to San Francisco, he had been travailing prior and the only money he needed was that in which he gained from odd jobs bar tending and what have you. He lived for the moment. In the moment. And the moment now was him sitting over at the bar watching how happy his sister was. He felt so out of it right then...that moment that he was living in was an uncomfortable one.

Rick signalled for the bar tender to send another beer his way. It didn't take long for him to comply and the fairly young bar tender headed over, "Hay Rick, is it a beer?"

"Yeah, thanks Billy" Rick answered as he took out his wallet.

"Rick, the family doesn't pay for drinks here" Billy explained,

Rick nodded his head an looked over to the table, which for the one hundredth time tonight, erupted into laughter, "Yeah, but I'm not family...I won't take off them" He explained slapping the money on the bar and lifting the bottle to his mouth.

"How come your sat over here Rick, when they are over there"

"Because, my dearest sister is with her boyfriend, my direst adopted Halliwell sisters are also with their other halves. I just feel kind of out of place over there." He then noticed as he looked back at the bar tender his worried glance, "Hay Billy, it's just something I go threw. I'll get over it and go over there. I'm fine...really"

"Okay then, be sure you are. And give me a shout if you need anything else" Rick nodded and watched as Billy walked over to another costumer.

Watching as his sister sat in the arms of a guy he barely knew...was strange to him. The past weeks were strange. Before, Paige had always gone out with a mutual friend. In most cases ones that they had grown up with of a guy she had met through him. Now this time his sister, was sitting with a guy that she had met threw Piper, her sister.

He had found himself thinking more and more about the train wreckage that was his life. He had nothing but that one girl that he had grown up with to become this. P and Rick, Rick and P and now it wasn't just them, she had more, while he stood with much less. Or was that the case? Was he been accepted by the family?

As he pondered on Philosophical questions such as, what was his reason for being? A topic way to deep for Rick to think of. especially after a few beers.

His hands moved across the bottle, he was thinking of heading home but didn't feel right leaving without a word. But he didn't have the strength in himself to stand up face his sister. Not in this state. Although over the weeks he was coping and even liking the Halliwell sisters it was making him think more and more about his place, not only in his sisters life, but in his own.

He couldn't sit here all night.

But it had taken over an hour to get away from that god forbidden table. It was a good hour and a half ago that he had left to 'make a call' no doubt he had been seen by them. He had better return to the table to bid a goodnight and be the perfect gentle man his parents had brought him up to be.

But what better way to get in P's good books after walking away for the night than...

Rick rose his arm, "Billy, a round for the table when you got a minuet"

"Coming up Rick." Billy called as he turned and began to collect the required drinks.

Rick played with the ring on his hand as he awaited the order. It didn't take that long for Billy to be over placing a tray down. "Okay then, it goes like this. Right to left...Piper, Phoebe, Leo, Jack, Prue, Jason, Richard and Paige" Billy explained as he pointed to the drinks.

"I think I got that..." Rick laughed slightly, then handed a twenty bill across the counter. He saw the look in Billy's eyes indicating that it wasn't necessary but Rick insisted, "...Keep the change" Rick added as he made his way with the tray towards the table.

He approached coming up behind Piper, Leo and Prue and Jack facing him the other four. "Guys..." He said placing the tray on the table leaning over those in front, "I got a round...It goes...Leo, Richard, Piper, P..." He stopped in realising he had got the order messed up. "okay looks like I can not even get an order right here so...let me start that of again. Phoebe, Leo, Jack, Prue, Jason, Richard and Paige" HE spoke placing each drink in front of the Person. He was thanked by each one then Paige spoke up.

"Hay Rick, thanks for that..." he knew that she was meaning more than just the drinks, she meant for accepting all of this. It was a big step.

"...but you messed up the order" Piper added, "You seem to have missed out a beer"

"Oh...guy I'm not joining you. The rest of the night you got to your selves. Rick's off home now. I'll see you all sometime...soon" He added. With this he turned and started to leave.

Paige stood up from Richard's arms...

"IS he okay?" Prue asked,

"Not by a long shot. I'll go talk to him." Paige explained as she headed towards where he had left.

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"Rick! Wait up Rick" she called to him, as he walked threw the car park, she caught up with him and noticed something was off. "Rick talk to me"

"P, I'm fine really." He tried to sound fine, but he sounded off.

"Nice try! I'm your sister...I know when you lie to me. Talk...Please" Se begged.

Rick stopped walking and turned to face Paige, "It's just...the same old shit P! You have this great life now...and don't get me wrong I couldn't be happy for you but... I just have no idea where I stand anymore. Not only with you but with myself."

"Rick, you know exactly who you are. You are a great person Rick. I love you and you know that. You'll figure it out"

"Yeah, I always do" he stopped, "Look Paige it's just me thinking about mom and dad and the past. I'll get some sleep an be fine...I'll be over to see you tomorrow." He lent forward and pulled her into a hug, "now go back and have a good night"

"Rick I can not leave you like this..."

"Like what? P, I'll get a cab to my apartment. Get into bed...sleep of this head and be up bright and early to try and find the meaning of my life tomorrow..."

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Paige walked back down the steps of the club, having just seen her brother get in a cab. He was acting off lately. She decided before returning to the table to have a breather so she walked towards the bar. She was only sitting by herself for moments when she hared a voice. "Hi Paige"

"Billy hi"

"Can I get you anything"

"Nah, I'm good thanks"

"Paige, I may be way out of line here, and I know this has nothing to do with me but is Rick okay? He seemed a bit, I don't know...off."

"Yeah, he's just going through a lot right now. It's this new family stuff, made him think...when he thinks nothing good happens."

"Just watch him okay Paige. Tonight he was acting strange...he wouldn't take the drinks on the house, he insisted on paying for them and...I don't know"

Paige understood then what was wrong with Rick, "I'll talk to him...sort this lot out. But right now I'm going to head off home. Thanks for looking out for Rick Billy. I owe you one"

"Anytime Paige...night"

"Night" And with that Paige headed back to the table...

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"Hay Paige how is Rick?" Prue asked as she saw her sister approaching.

"Rick has something up and he wont tell me. So I am pretty worried about him. Sorry guys but I think I'm going to head home...Richard sorry about this but, I have to go"

"I'll take you home, how's that" He offered,

"Nah, your okay I have my car, and I just need a bit of thinking time. Sorry"

He stood up and kissed her on the lips, "It's okay, speak to you tomorrow?" Paige nodded, "Night guys" She spoke before turning and walking away.