Succubus-69 – hay there. As always thanks for the reviews. I really appreciate it and yup...I liked the Phoebe/Paige thing. In the show I think there aren't enough sisters bonding moments going on. Oh well I suppose I'll have to create them myself lol. Anyway thanks for the patients of my posts and tell me what you think.

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Oh Brother -
(unbearable/unbreakable)

The Rain lashed down onto the road, and the storm continued strong. Thunder clapped as sheet lightening lit up San Francisco. He had found himself, lately for some reason doing this more and more often. Walking down the streets alone, thinking and wondering. About Paige, about Phoebe, about it all, the life he had made so complicated.

He had been with Phoebe now for a good three weeks. Things were great when they were alone, but when he was with the whole lot of them he felt bad, bad for keeping it from Paige, bad for having to pretend when he was around Phoebe and worse when he had to act like she was a friend. It tore him apart. Something he had never felt before though was how he felt for Phoebe. There was something about the way she'd light up the room with a smile, make him feel loved by simply taking hold of his hand, make him feel whole with just a moment of there lips touching.

Right now he wished he was with her, holding her close to him instead he was walking through the streets of San Francisco towards the manor. Sure she'd be there but it wouldn't be able to be Phoebe and Rick, it would be something else. It was really difficult to sit and act like there relationship was nothing especially when it meant so much to him.

Then there was Paige, god knows how she would take this, the whole I'm sleeping with your sister who I love like know one else before. No way was this going to go down well. Then after Paige there was Prue and Piper, how would they take it, Prue would have some problem with it of that he was sure. They had accepted him as a friend and brother but anything more would certainly piss of the oldest and probably hurt Paige.

Another clap of thunder shook the city, he wrapped his brown leather tighter around his soaked form. He must have been crazy, what the hell made him take a walk when the storm clouds were visible. But three and a half hours ago he was not thinking about that, he was pissed that Phoebe had totally passed off the fact that there was a problem with them and told him that they would talk later. He just ripped his jacket from the side and left the manor. She had tried to call him more than once but he was to irritated to talk, when he wanted to talk to her she had dismissed the whole thing he sure as hell wasn't going to answer the Phone. Because he had left in such a rush though his keys to his apartment were at the manor, so he had to go back.

Sometimes he wished it was how it used to be, him and Paige and he had met Phoebe as Paige's friend maybe? It would have been easier and he would have known where he stood with that. In the past three weeks he and Phoebe had been together for only a fraction of the time he would have liked, together as a couple that was. There were so many interrupted convocations, so many kisses cut short, and dreams untold. He resented that. That he couldn't be open with his feelings, had to hide it all. It was deep, the love he had for Phoebe there for it was hard to hide. When she would walk in from work he wanted to greet her by throwing his arms around her and kissing her but he had to wait, until they were alone or could steel a moment together. He resented it.

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Paige walked in from the kitchen to the living room. She saw Phoebe sat there, knees pulled to her chest pillow clutched tight to her. "Hay dude, you okay?" She asked.

Phoebe was pulled from her thoughts as she hared Paige's voice, she just looked in her direction, "Yeah" She managed,

"Yeah, you really look it. Want to talk about it?" Paige asked taking a seat right next to her sister.

"Not really" Phoebe spoke,

"Well too bad. By the looks of it, you have guy trouble" Paige took a shot

"How did you get that from, not really?" Phoebe asked

"The way you're sat, Who ever it is you miss him"

"Well you are not wrong" Phoebe couldn't hold up anymore and Paige had hit the sot she did miss him, when Rick wasn't by her, when she wasn't in his arms she did miss him. More than she ever thought possible. She knew this whole relationship would be hard but she never imagined just how hard exactly. Having to hide from her sisters and pretend to the man she loved they were nothing more that friends was so hard. It was practically unbearable.

"So it is a guy and you miss him. It's not Jason so who?"

Phoebe was forced to lie again to keep this from Paige, "Just...a guy" It hurt to say that because Rick was way more than just a guy. So much more than just a guy

"Well obviously he's some guy to do this to you but I see you don't want to talk about it so how about I change the subject?"

Phoebe was slightly relived, "Be my guest" She answered,

"You don't know what Rick went do you?"

So much for subject changing, phoebe thought, sighing she answered, "No sorry"

Paige looked at Phoebe funny, "Is something going on with you two?"

Yeah I'm sleeping with him and we had a fight he walked out... "No what would be going on?"

"I don't know, I mean has he said something to upset you. About me, this family...about you know...you not growing up with me or anything?"

"Paige, look Rick hasn't said anything to me"

'that's the problem' she silently added,

"you sure he hasn't pissed you off. He can be a real jerk sometimes." Paige asked worried.

"Nope, he hasn't said anything! It's just me been my moody self. I'm fine"

"You sure?"

"Yeah, I am." Phoebe gave Paige a reassuring smile, "I think that I'm going to lie down for a while. Call me for dinner?" She asked

"Sure honey. Hope you feel better later on"

Phoebe stood up from the chair and put the pillow back, "Thanks!" With this she walked out the room. Paige sighed.

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Upstairs Phoebe was now lay on her bed, only a few nights ago she was lay here with him. Rick was next to he. They had talked as if a normal couple. She missed not been able to do that all the time. Lie in his arms and just be with him. As she thought about the times with him, those without him, those she needed him...like now. She hated when they fought.

All be it wasn't often this been only there second time it still pissed her off. Since she was young she had never really known when to believe a guy truly loved her but with Rick that was all different, she was sure he felt for her what she felt for him.

She was lay on her bed, for a good hour when she hared someone walking up the corridor. Then she hared her door open. Looking across she saw him stood in the door way. He was drenched, his hair, face, jacket, jacket, jeans...

He turned around to make sure that nobody had seen him come in then he shut the door, turning around he looked at her, "Where did you go?" She asked,

"Out, I just...walked around. Thinking?"

"About?" Phoebe prompted,

"Us? This relationship is so hard! I just wanted to take a break. I walked up to the beach, around there and walked back." He moved forward, "Phoebe I do not like fighting with you, I'm sorry I think that maybe I was out of order! I just got really stressed knowing that you were so close to me and I couldn't be with you." He was babbling now, all his emotions flooded out.

Phoebe stood to her feet and walked over, she looked into his eyes, "I don't like this anymore than you. You really think that I like having to hide my feelings in front of people. It's hard and it pisses me of. But I can't, fucking change it Rick. This is how it is. We both knew it and we can't do anything about it. I love you, more than I have anyone else...but it's not just us Rick. We have t think about Paige. She's not going to take this well is she. We both know it." Phoebe said, her voice clearly angered but in a low volume.

"Just, I want to spend more time with you Phoebe."

"Well maybe we should then...I have the next two days off work. How about we spend the weekend together?"

"I'd like that. A lot." He confessed, "I'm sorry about how I acted, earlier..." Phoebe put her hand on his lips to hush him, and then she lent up taking hold of his wet cloths and kissed him passionately, he complied by pulling her close, a hand on the side of her face.

When she pulled back he sighed, "I love you..."

"I love you to. Lets forget about today...just promise next time that you walk out of here you tell me where you are going. I was really worried."

"I promise" He spoke, leaning forward he kissed her again.

Only a small kiss, then she pulled back taking of his jacket she smiled, "go get a shower, and changed. And tonight we get the manor to ourselves because there off to P3, I'm not feeling too good, and you babe are very tired."

"I am, am I?" He asked,

"You are." She spoke, "I love you"

Rick smiled, "I love you to." With this he turned and opened the door, walking off Phoebe had a smile on her face as she lay back down on her bed. God how she loved him. Hopefully things between them would get easier. She could only hope that they never got worse.

There love although Unbearable was unbreakable.