Chapter four.

Author's note:

Ok, I know my chapters are short so I'm going to try and make them longer. I've got writer's block so this chapter might be a bunch of crapola! Sorry if I let you down!

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Ok, on with the story.

James was a wreck; he hadn't left his house in weeks. He refused to talk to anyone, and when any of the Marauders visited him, he would end up throwing something very heavy at them.

Sirius was worried, he knew that James was sad, but how long would it take to get over Lily? He went into James house and protected himself with a force field. The house was a mess; all the curtains were shut, there were broken things all over the place and all his photos of Lily were turned down.

"James? Where are you?" Sirius called. No answer.

"Hello?" no answer. Sirius walked into the bedroom; to find James sitting on the floor in the corner, he looked terrible. His eyes were red and bloodshot, his hair wasn't its usual unruly mess, it was dirty and stuck down.

"Sirius; get out." He said hollowly

"No. You have to leave this house James." Sirius said

"No, I want to be left alone in my house. I deserve to die. I cheated on Lily; Lily Evans, I spent six and a half years, trying to get her to go out with me, and then, when she finally does, I cheat."

"James, you didn't cheat on Lily. You shouldn't be upset about this, you should be trying to get her back."

"I hugged another woman. Lily was right, I am an egotistical bastard."

"Did she say that to you?"

"In seventh year. I asked her why she hated me so much, I wasn't expecting her to ---" James' voice wobbled, Sirius had never seen him like this, he had never ever been this depressed. Not even when his favourite quidditch team lost their grand-final.

"James, instead of thinking about Lily all the time, think of ways you can get her back. Don't you realize; you guys are meant for each other…"

"I used to think so too, but now I'm not so sure." James reached for an almost empty bottle of whisky and drained the last few drops.

"Think about what I said James." Sirius said, and then walked out, shutting the door behind him.

James wanted to get her back, but for the first time… ever; he was completely clueless.

Lily was doing yoga; magical yoga (A/N: or Moga, as my sister just told me, but that sounds weird to me.)

Magical yoga was a technique to help distract and calm the mind. It wasn't like muggle yoga; it was quite different. In magical yoga, a witch or wizard would sit on a hard floor in a meditation position, and chant the words 'incanterin undahk ovid.' And they would say these words over and over, slowly, until they were in a completely relaxed state of mind.

Lily didn't usually do yoga, but she hoped that it would help take her mind off James; it wasn't helping at all. In fact; it made her able to think about James even more, and images and thoughts about him started cluttering up her mind. Lily kept seeing his face, hearing his voice and smelling his scent. She wanted to forget it all, but she couldn't.

FLASHBACK

Lily lay her bed asleep; she was having a nightmare…

Lily cooed at the little baby, he was so cute; he had dark messy hair, it was almost black; and he had beautiful emerald eyes, that Lily recognized as her own. The child started to laugh. Suddenly she heard a male voice yell frantically

"Lily, it's him, I'll hold him off; take Harry and run!"

Lily grabbed her baby and her wand but before she knew it, there was another man in the room, he had a dark cloak on and a hood covered his head. He pulled out a wand and looked at her, he laughed a small, evil laugh and then hissed those two lethal words. " Avada Kedavra"

Lily saw a blinding green light and then screamed Harry's name before all she saw was darkness; Lily knew she was dead.

Lily woke up to find herself shaking and drenched in sweat. She didn't want to be alone; she got out of her bed and tip-toed across her bedroom. She walked into the common room, the fire was slowly dying out and the curtains were flapping in the wind. Lily walked towards James' room and entered, she sat down on the bed and shook him and whispered "James, wake up." James moved slightly and said "not yet Mum, it's too early…" Lily rolled her eyes. She shook him again and this time he woke up. "Lily? Why are you in my room?" he said sleepily

"James, I had a nightmare."

"So, that's normal, everyone does."

"No, James. It wasn't a normal dream, I saw my own death…"

James sat up " Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not now." Lily replied quietly as a tear rolled down her cheek, and she brushed it away.

"Are you ok Lils?"

"No, I'm not. I'm really scared." Lily trembled.

She lay down on top of his bed covers and James gave her a hug. He was happy and worried about Lily; in his point of view; they were at least friends now.

END OF FLASHBACK

James had no idea how he was going to get Lily back. He didn't want it to take seven years like last time, he couldn't bear to be without her for that long.

FLASHBACK

Lily sat in the common room, on the floor by the fire. She wondered why she had missed James' constant pranks and asking her out. Her trail of thoughts were interrupted by James coming through the portrait hole. He walked over to their private coffee machine, and started making a drink.

"Hi." She said calmly

"Hey," he replied, he walked over to her, carrying two mugs; he sat down and handed her one. He placed his mug on the floor as she took a sip of hers.

"Lily?"

"Yes James."

"I'm sorry…"

"For what?"

"For continuously annoying you, playing pranks, and asking you out all the time; I'm sorry for all of it."

Before she had a chance to reply James found himself kissing Lily, but the strange thing was that Lily was kissing him back.

END OF FLASHBACK.

Author's note: ok, this chapter wasn't that long! Sorry! It was longer than the others. Anywayz I am sick and I have writers block so don't blame me if it's really bad. Blame the person who invented blocked noses and sore throats! I spent all day writing this chapter.

Those flashbacks were so close, sorry if you don't like that.

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