"I hate you, you worthless piece of shit!" James continued yelling at his mother, she had always been gone when he needed her the most, even though she was always within reach of him, she choose to work harder and ignore him, his only escape was his father. Who loved him unconditional but then the Russia militia to fight off some rebels trying to over throw the Russian government drafted him.
"Well then if you hate me so much why don't you leave?" She yelled back at him as she approached him in an overpowering way.
James slowed down as his senses became wrapped up inside of his body, every breath made sounded like music loud and echoing in his ears as he slowly approached his mother. Hatred was in his eyes as he looked up at her and swung his fist as hard as he could right into her stomach. She let the wind escape her lungs forcefully as James turned tail and ran, he began running as fast as he could not wanting to look back, he threw the front door open and ran through the yard. When he finally stopped he was several blocks away, he had already drawn a large crowd. He promised himself that he would never again feel that way.
"James wake up, your going to be late." James blinked several times as he slowly regained his vision when he finally regained it all, he saw Ricor standing at the foot of his bed shaking his head. "Late on the first day is not the way to impress my brother."
"I'm sorry but who is your brother?" James replied as he rubbed his eyes, trying desperately to wake himself up.
"Commander Kilgrav, he is my brother, though I parted from the family after a incident with our family. But enough about history get your ass out of bed and to Nerv HQ by the way I have somewhere to get faster, so could you drive Shinji there, he will probably be ready by the time you get ready. Good bye!" Like that he was gone as quickly as he had come in, Ricor truly was an interesting character. But as he was told he rose from his bed wiping the sleep from his eyes he made his way over to the sink and turned the faucet onto cold water.
Cupping his hands he ran them under the water and splashed the cold water against his face, reaching for the towel he dried his face before looking at it in the mirror. This was the Face of James Black, an EVA Pilot, in the third world war. What a nightmare to wake up every morning to. But thus was life and he couldn't change that.
He stood up and walked towards the door, he was still fully dressed considering he only took a nap and never bothered to undress. He opened the door and walked outside and closed it behind him, as he walked over towards the apartment he ran the card by the door and took a step inside.
"Shinji! I'm here to take you to the test."
"I am ready to go, don't be so excited its not worth it."
The look on Shinji's face sent chills up and down his spine; Shinji had no emotion, then again how long had Shinji been doing this? Years, at least to James' knowledge 1 year. As they both walked out of the apartment James took the head and began walking down the stairs, as they approached the bottom Shinji stopped. James turned around to take a glance at Shinji.
"What's wrong Shinji?"
"Do you ever doubt yourself?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Do you ever just sit down and think that you cant do it anymore? You just can't stand the machines."
"What's wrong with you, get in the car we will deal with this later."
Shinji just shook his head as he followed James to his car and they both got in with some resilience, but once they were on their way the drive grew silent. It gave Shinji some time to think over the past, how everyone at Nerv had died, him and Asuka were the true pilots of the EVA series and yet, they were now kept in even though they wanted out. It just wasn't fair.
As they arrived to Nerv Headquarters a elevator was right in front of the car that they got out and boarded. When it reached the level where they were supposed to meet for the Harmonics and Sync test the doors opened. Asuka was already there waiting for both of them.
"You guys are late!"
"Sorry Asuka, I woke up late and Shinji was having problems getting down the stairs."
She just sighed as they made their ways towards their respective locker rooms. Shinji and James went into their room and began to change into their plug suits. James was quite surprised as he could hear both Asuka and Shinji speaking to themselves under their breaths. Is that what being an EVA pilot did to a person? What had he gotten himself into? Suddenly a voice filled the room from the loud speaker.
"James Since you have never done this before you will go first, all you have to do is sit in the EVA, clear your mind and attempt to move the EVA."
James shook his head softly from side to side as he walked out of the locker room and down the rest of the hall way till he arrived at the entry plug doorway, which he slowly entered and took a seat, he felt some motion from outside but then the cockpit began filling up with water. He had read about this oxygen water in the manual. He only tried his best to breathe normally. The screens around him began flashing until he saw a visual of outside the cockpit. He felt so at peace with the machine as he closed his eyes and begun breathing slowly.
He pictured himself moving his leg and suddenly to his own surprise, the leg began to move. It at first lifted up and then as he was moving it forward it began wavering. The Eva began falling down in the giant training room. This room was 1/2 a mile up and 1 mile across in a square. As he fell down he heard voices flooding the cockpit.
"Concentrate James!"
"I can't! I'm not good enough."
"Damn it, get up."
The huge crash jolted the entire room, the EVA came to a halt, the harmonics began failing as thoughts of failure swept through James' mind, he couldn't pilot this thing, it just wasn't in his ability to pilot it.
"Asuka go in there and get him up."
The gate on the other end of the room opened up as unit 02 began walking into the room, slowly making its way to the fallen EVA. Suddenly James' EVA began moving and it stood up, Unit 02 took a step back.
"Was ist dass?"
Up in the control room Ru'Thon looked at the sync ratio for Unit 03, it was completely off the chart, the EVA looked at Unit 02.
"This is good, let them fight, this will be good practice for James."
Unit 02 drew its progressive knife and began approaching Unit 03.
"James I will not go easy on you." Asuka voice flooded James' cockpit.
Unit 03 bent down and then began running towards Unit 02 before disappearing, and Reappearing right in front of Unit 02. It punched straight at the EVA. Unit 02's progressive knife went straight down to block the punch and barley succeeded. Asuka was swearing in German. She had never seen something this fast before, especially not the EVA. Unit 03 began backing up and then disappeared and reappeared 100 ft backwards. It drew out its progressive Axe, dashing forward and disappearing and popping up in front of Unit 02 again it swung straight up. The axe cut into Asuka's left leg, as she started screaming.
"James that is enough!" Ru'Thon's voice went over the entire room and into the cockpits. Asuka continued to scream in pain.
No voice was heard and Unit 03 pushed Unit 02 down and began hitting Unit 02 in the chest with the axe. Asuka's chest was starting to separate to her, and she began screaming louder in pain. Unit 03 just continued force the axe down. Suddenly a Bright AT field appears around Unit 02 and Unit 03 was thrown back against the wall.
"Unit 03 is beginning to shut down. Should we eject the Entry plug?"
"Do it now!" Ru'Thon shouted.
Unit 03's entry plug was ejected and hit the corner of the roof. A medical team came running in, they used metallic arms to open the entry plug and pull James out of it; he was completely unconscious. They slowly put him on the stretcher. Doing the same thing for Asuka.
"What does that mean Kilgrav?" Ru'Thon turned up to his older brother and gazed at him waiting for an answer.
"It means that the EVA are learning how to take control of their pilot during times of conflict. And that we need to train our pilots more before they go into the entry plug."
James awoke next in the Emergency room on a bed in the hospital. What had happened to him, he had fallen and then remembered nothing? He looked around the room, noticing the ER equipment and then the bed to the left of him Asuka was laying down unconscious in it. Had he done something to her, she had come to help him but then all he could draw was a blank.
"Asuka are you ok? What happened?"
She made no reply but her eyes did blink themselves open as she tilted her head to look at him, he sighed softly and felt horrible as if he had done something to her. He noticed that in her right hand she had a knife with blood on it. He looked closely to her body and now noticed the left wrist had blood flowing from it. His eyes opened wide.
"Asuka's pulse is dying Ru'Thon, something is wrong down there."
"I'm on my way get a medical team there stat."
"Asuka don't die its not worth it." James said as he grunted raising his body to sit up and stand on his own two feet he feel flat onto the ground, cutting open his top lip with his teeth, he crawled over to Asuka's bed and lifted himself up onto it removing the knife from her hand. And then putting pressure on the cut wound. Her eyes widened and her hand went to grab his. She shook her head from side to side as if pleading for him to let her die.
"I wont let you die Asuka, it's just not fair."
Asuka shook her head and just tried to remove his hand but she was to weak to do it, at that moment the medical staff broke into the door and began running over to Asuka and helped James back into his bed. They took Asuka out of the Recovery room and back into the ER as they began to take care of her once again.
James began looking up into the ceiling as if looking for something that he had lost.
"Don't die Asuka."
Tears began to form, he felt that it was completely his fault that she was doing this to herself and began crying softly to himself. Suddenly someone came dashing through the doors that James had known. It was both Mike and Heather the school rep.
"Dude what the hell happened?" Mike asked in disbelief looking at his friends' lip and the overall state he was in sitting down next him.
"We came as soon as we heard about what had happened." Heather took her place on the other side of James' bed a worried look on her face as she held out her hand to James. Mike held out his hand as well, and James took both of their hands.
"I will be ok, I just got into a accident inside the EVA I don't even know what happened."
Mike raised an eyebrow and sat back down in a nearby chair. James gave him an odd look, but then his attention was misplaced onto Heather who looked at him quite worried, she put her hand against his forehead.
"Are you ok, James? Do you seriously not know what happened? Even we know what happened."
"What do you mean?"
Mike chooses to speak up now, with a slight laugh in his voice.
"Dude, you went berserk and you completely beat down on Asuka. Her EVA had to throw up an AT field to get you off of her."
"But I don't remember fighting Asuka."
The door once again opened but this time Ru'Thon stepped into the room. Mike and Heather both looked up at him and saw his white eyes gazing at them, sending shivers down both of their spines. James weakly waved his fingers at Ru'Thon who only nodded.
"I'm sorry children but James needs to rest. I'll have to ask you to leave."
Ru'Thon could only take 2 steps forward as both Mike and Heather dashed out the door-yelling goodbye to James not wanting to be caught by Ru'Thon. James looked at Ru'Thon and Ru'Thon returned the gaze.
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil. Do not worry it is not your fault the human mind is weak. The next time you pilot the EVA we will give you some Mind Medicine."
"Mind Medicine?"
"Its my own personal creation, it helps you to stabilize your mind so the EVA has less power over you."
"Hey Ru'Thon."
"What's up?"
The silence that pursued seemed empty, and the noises of people walking in the hallways seemed even louder than the breathing by the 2 men in the room. James lifted his hand up to his own sight and stared at it.
"Am I weak?"
"No, you're just tired."
"What do you m---"
With that James trailed of into slumber, the gas being inserted into his blood had finally begun to work. Ru'Thon just looked at him with concern on his face. Standing up and turning fully around he began walking out of the room. Taking one last glance over his shoulder at the boy on the bed.
"True Strength lies within you, any your ability to pilot these things, an EVA cannot be stricken dumb without hurting its overall abilities, thus we must rely on you to overpower its control."