Weeks passed by and I saw little of Master. He was always busy and whenever I would walk into a room, he would leave in a hurry. I didn't know what I'd done wrong because I remembered that just a few weeks ago he'd been congratulating me. I'd been doing better in training with Seras. We'd moved on to guns and I mastered that with ease. I love my new hobby but just wish that Master would pay more attention to me. As I have stated before, when I saw those eyes my obsession shifted. I actually miss his taunting laugh and surprise visits.

Seras saw plenty of him but when I'd come along he'd leave so I decided to ask Seras about it. When we were running on the treadmills, I thought the time was right.

"Why is Master ignoring me?" Seras seemed a little taken back.

"I've been noticing that a little too. I don't know why. I wouldn't say much more though, because the walls have ears." Seras gave me the look that indicated that Master was in the walls or outside them.

"Oh…" I sighed and focused back on running.

"He's gone." She stated when his presence had left. "He gets weird sometimes. I wouldn't worry about it. You're lucky that he's not teasing you like he's teasing me."

"Yeah, I guess so." I puffed out my air in short gasps as I felt my strength weakening. Seras could definitely run longer than me but I was determined to train to be her equal, even if she was a vampire.

A few new things had happened over the weeks. First of all, Seras introduced me to music. When I first heard it I cried. I will always remember the first song that I ever heard: Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. She looked shocked that I'd never heard music before but I hadn't. It's part of my new obsession. I always have music playing, thanks to Integra. She bought me a CD player and a few CDs. It's calming…I don't know how I lived with the pressure before.

Another thing that happened was I saw my first movie. It was cool but I love music more. The first movie that I saw was Equilibrium. I felt like the man on the movie when he heard the music on the scratchy record. It was just too beautiful. I've watched a few movies since but I'd rather be listening to the Goo Goo Dolls or Nirvana. Everything in my life has gotten so much better.

The last thing that I discovered was books. You know what's weird? I already know how to read! I must've learned a LONG time ago and it must've stuck with me all this time. I love to read almost as much as I love music. Most of the fairy tales aren't as adventurous as the stories of my life but some of them are about far fetched worlds with weird people. I love the Lord of the Rings series. This new world is awesome.

Seras has been a wonderful friend. I love hanging out with her. One night I went to her room and she was just about to leave. She was grinning from ear to ear.

"What? What is it Seras?" I laughed at the hysterical look on her face.

"We're going on that mission…tomorrow! I am so glad that you're going, Nixa! You've trained so well. I can't wait to fight together!" Seras squealed and gripped me around the shoulders in a vise like grip. I gasped for air and she pulled away.

"That's awesome! How did you find out?"
"Well, Master just came by like five minutes ago. He seemed to leave in a hurry, though. I wander why?" I knew why. He knew that I was coming so he left. I was starting to get offended by his avoiding me.

"Don't worry about Master, Nixa." She must've seen the thoughtful expression on my face.

"I'm not." I lied. It had been on my mind a lot lately. "I'm glad that we're going on this mission together." I smiled weakly and she bit her lip, drawing blood from a tiny wound that was inflicted by her fangs.

"Still not used to these things all the way…" Silence. Then, it seemed as though a light clicked in Seras' brain. "Oh! I got you a new CD…well, actually Integra did but I told her what to get." She handed me a CD case and I grinned. She knew how to cheer me up.

"Thanks. Linkin Park? What kind of music is that?"

"It's a little harder than what you've been listening to but it has a lot of good beats and meaningful lyrics. I hope you'll like it." Seras almost bit down on her lip again but stopped and smiled. "Still getting used to it." We both giggled for a while but then I stole away to my room to try out this new CD and think through my emotions right now. The sun was about to rise anyway.

I slipped the CD in and immediately fell in love. I didn't have much time to think through my emotions (not a good thing because they build up) because I fell asleep to "Numb".

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