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Catcher Upper: she went to sleep. now READ!

Odd, very odd dreams. Cliffs, scarlet moons, the water blood red, crashing waves below me, storm clouds parade the sky. Simple visions, not actions, flooded my mind. Hysterical laughing that was somehow cruel and evil. Two treacherous red eyes, not beautiful great like Masters, but with a blatant evil in them. I woke up shaking violently. Walter, Seras, and even Integra were watching over me with concerned looks on their faces.

"Alucard's not here, Nixa. I can't find him." Integra brushed my hair out of my eyes and smiled.

"Huh?" I groaned, kicking the hot blanket off my legs.

"You were calling Alucard for help. I can't find him but Walter and Seras sent for me. Relax, you just have a fever. You were probably having delirious dreams. Don't worry about it, Nixa. We won't tell Alucard. I know how he gets when he thinks that he's needed." I just groaned and accepted a glass of water from Walter. Integra left and so did Walter. Seras sat on the side of my bed and looked down on me with sorrowful eyes.

"Something's wrong, Nixa. I'm beginning to sense it." I groaned in agreement. It felt like everything that had been fixed before was coming undone. Little did I know then, but Alucard knew everything that was going on with me. That's why he was staying away. He knew my sanity was coming unglued again and so did I. What I didn't know was that death was quickly approaching.

"I'm just sick," I lied. "I'll be fine." I lied again. She smiled and stood up.

"I guess you're right. If I see Master I'll tell him. You get some rest, Nixa." I nodded and pulled the blanket back over me, suddenly feeling extremely cold. I was soon drifting off again into another delirious dream…but it was interrupted.

"You're fading." I woke suddenly, hearing a voice above me. Alucard sat down on the corner of my bed. The room was pitch and I could only make out his darker outline. My mind felt heavy and fragile at the same time. The world around me was spinning and I was hearing a resounding laughter inside my head.

"I know…" I grumbled, shaking from the intolerable cold.

"You're room is burning up, Nixa. You're shivering. You know that you're not just sick and so do I."

"What's going on than? My mind feels so…"

"Twisted? Corrupted? I know, I feel it all the time. You're on the brink of death, Nixa Draeluna. I was trying to be as uninvolved as possible but I just can't do that. There is only one way out of this fix."

"What? I'm willing to do anything."

"Anything?"

"Yea." My world turned upside down and began to blur. A mocking black face flashed in my vision. I gasped and began to shake even harder from the cold. Alucard sighed.

"I could turn you, Nixa." I gasped yet again. Become a vampire?

"That's the only way o-out of d-death?" My teeth were chattering. Dying was so cold…so incredibly cold.

"I'm afraid so. I'm willing to do it, Luna. We've come this far. You're a great warrior and would be an even better one with vampiric abilities."

"Uh-huh." I held tight to my head as I felt a single thread come undone in my mind. The pain was unbearable. You wouldn't think that a mental thing would hurt physically but then again, mental state is connected with physical.

"We must hurry. You will die very soon. Tonight. In a few hours."

"Yes. Go on. Just…stop…this…PAIN!" I groaned and buried my head into the pillow to scream. Closing my eyes incredibly tight, I screamed until it felt like my veins were collapsing and they probably were.

"Okay, Nixa. I've warned you." He grabbed my by the shoulders and exposed my neck. I didn't even notice when he bit into me because my mind was falling apart and I was screaming in pain over that. Alucard's eyes almost looked…sympathetic? Maybe I was simply hallucinating. Maybe I wasn't. He was helping me, after all. Before I knew it everything went black…if my mind could be any darker. I still heard Alucard talking though…

"Nixa, it will take many years to mend your mind as a vampire but it will never be completely glued back together. I will take care of you, Nixa. Just…" He faded into the darkness as well.

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