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Inuyasha: Feh! Author: SIT BOY!
Inuyasha drops to the floor :D
Well, here's the next chapter :)
The Youkia remained quiet, his piercing amber eyes scanning over his brother once again. "You should get some rest," he repeated coldly, but Inuyasha caught the hint of concern on his voice,
reassuring himself that his brother wouldn't kill him. "And try not to move you injured arm too much, it will only make it take longer to heal," he added, knowing how stubborn the Hanyou could be, he was surprised he wasn't trying to get out of bed already. "Ar-arigatou, Sesshomaru," Inuyasha whispered quietly, knowing that he would have long since perished without his brother's help. Sesshomaru smiled, for the first time in years, as he sat down beside the bed. Until now, his brother had meant nothing to him. He was merely something which needed to be destroyed. And Sesshomaru realized now that all of the fighting had been futile. Had he taken the Tetsusiaga, his brother would have perished. One injury was all it would have taken to turn him into an uncontrollable demon, who would have slaughtered his own friends, and eventually died by the hands of an enemy. He didn't want that to happen, no one deserved to die like that. To die not know who they are or who there friends are. It would be a punishment far worse then death; dying alone. "Di-did I kill him?," Inuyasha asked. He had collapsed after he used the Windscar on Naraku. "He's dead," Sesshomaru replied quietly, not wanting to give his brother more to talk about. Utterly exhausted, Inuyasha let his eyes slip shut again.
Sesshomaru retired to his own room to get some rest, the image of his brothers battered body still fresh in his mind. The dawn of a new day, a new beginning, and a renewed sense of anguish for Inuyasha. Have regained his barrings, he almost hated the thought of living anymore. 'How could I?,' he asked himself, blaming himself for what happened. Looking over at his mutilated arm, he sighed. He would forever bear a reminder of that horrible day, and a constant reminder of everything that he had lost. And somehow, Inuyasha couldn't find it within himself to let his life slip away. He couldn't give up like that, Kagome wouldn't want him to end like that. She would want him to keep going and fight for her, not kill himself and take the cowards way out. His mind finally made up, Inuyasha's eyes shot toward the door as Sesshomaru came in a again. "Have your wounds improved any?," he asked as he approached the bed. "No," he replied quietly, unsure of how he should act around his brother.
Before he put up a front, acting as if his brother's insults didn't bother him. But in reality, they cut him deep. They made him feel like e had failed in some way, not living up to his full potential. But now, Sesshomaru was relaxed and almost..... kind. It frightened him a bit; the stark contrast of his brother now to how he used to act. Inuyasha diverted his gaze away from the Youkia, and stared out the window. "You should try and put what happened behind you, Inuyasha. It would be for the best," Sesshomaru told him coldly. He know that brooding on death for to long could kill him. "HOW CAN I SESSHOMARU! How can I forget when every second I reminded of it. Every time I MOVE I'm reminded of it!," Inuyasha exploded, trying to get up, which only resulted in him opening his wounds up again.
Sesshomaru remained silent as he replaced the bandages, listening to his brothers hisses of pain. He knew what it felt like to bare a scare like his. He knew what it was like to wake up every morning and be constantly reminded of the day he lost his arm, as well as his pride. He had learned to live with the haunting reminder of his past, but it took support from others to get him through. Even though she never knew it, Rin had helped him a lot. She had helped the mighty Youkia forget about his problems for once and concentrate on other things. He never got to tell her how much he appreciated her before she died. A single tear trickled down Sesshomaru cheek before he quickly wiped it away. Inuyasha could smell the salty tear as it rippled down Sesshomaru's face, silently dropping onto his armor. Deciding not to say anything, Inuyasha was again lost in memory's of the past.
FLASHBACK
"Inuyasha," Kagome called quietly, as she sat down beside him on the bank of the river. "Kagome," he replied, slightly startled at how close she sat to him. "Are you all right?," she asked, slowly wrapping her arm under his and entangling her fingers in his own clawed ones. "I'm fine," he replied coldly, but Kagome could see that he was blushing. "I don't know if I survive the final battle," her told her sadly, his resilient amber orbs peering deep into the winding river. "I believe in you Inuyasha, you'll defeat Naraku," Kagome replied quietly, laying her head on his shoulder. He sighed to himself, breathing in Kagome's sweet and distinct scent. "I love you Inuyasha," she whispered into his fuzzy white ear. "I love you too," he replied to her, knowing all too well that it may be that last chance he'll ever have to tell her how he truly feels. Kagome released his hand from her own, wrapping her arms around his muscular chest and pulling the quiet Hanyou into a warm embrace.
END FLASHBACK
It was like this, that the two of them spent their last peaceful day together; merely enjoying each others company. And it was this memory that hurt Inuyasha the most. 'Why couldn't I have told her before!? If only I knew!' he cursed himself, knowing how much he missed her now. He never really knew what he had in Kagome, until now, after she's gone forever. Forever. Such a poisonous word, one of which can mean the world to someone or a word in which can bring their world to a crashing halt. Inuyasha realizes this now, but before, he was completely oblivious. He knew how much he had hurt Kagome by seeing Kikyo, but Kikyo was already dead then; she didn't matter as much as she had. Kagome meant the world to him, his entire world revolved around her, and now, his world had almost come to a complete stop. Taking in a deep breath, Inuyasha let the tears that were begging to fall slide down his cheeks. The same cheeks in which Kagome's head had rested against only day's before. Wiping the tears away with his remaining arm, Inuyasha calmed himself down.
"You miss her don't you?," Sesshomaru asked, seeing the dismal look ins his brothers eyes. He nodded in response, not willing to talk about. If he even uttered a single word, he would cry, and he didn't want that.
Kagome wouldn't want that. All of those times he had refused to let her cry over him, he wasn't about to go back on his own words. Even now, after she was gone, he would hold his word. The rosary beads which lay around his neck were yet another reminder of the love he had lost. The endless void which now filled his heart, just begging for someone to love him in return. It was nice to have Sesshomaru there, but Inuyasha needed more, he needed a companion. But, by now, he had accepted that he would never find one.
Inuyasha's breathe hitched in his throat as a wave of pain crashed through his wounds. His eyes glazed over as he looked to his brother as if to ask 'Why?'. But the look that he got in return was not of hatred, or even anger. There was pity in Sesshomaru's eyes, sympathy almost. 'But how?' Inuyasha asked himself; Sesshomaru has never lost anyone he truly loved. "I know what it's like Inuyasha," the mighty Youkia whispered, sitting down beside the bed. Inuyasha looked over to his brother, waiting for him to continue. "I know what it's like to regret every day after they day. To regret that you didn't do more, that you never took there feelings into consideration. True, I only just discovered I had feelings for any living creature, but they had always been there. Rin helped me through so much, you wouldn't even begin to understand. I never got to tell her. I.... I never told how.....," Sesshomaru tried to continue, but his new found emotions overwhelmed him, causing the tears to well up in his luminous amber eyes. Blinking the tears away, he again fell into silence, not knowing what else to say to the Hanyou.
TBC.
Arigatou: thank you
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