Inuyasha fell quiet, starring off into the distance. Just days before, Sesshomaru and Koga were his enemies. The very person that saved his life had attempted to take it so many times before. He may have died by his brother's hands before Naraku's attack, and Kagome would have been slain as well. It was just so hard to take everything in all at once.
"Inuyasha," Koga barked, starring at the solemn Hanyou.
"Feh, what?"
"You've got to let what happened go. It's what Kagome would've wanted. She never liked seeing you hurt."
"What do you know about Kagome," Inuyasha snarled, slamming his fists against the ground. Despite the crushing pain in his chest, a deep growl reverberated through the air.
"Settle down, Inuyasha, you'll tear your wounds open," Sesshomaru ordered, knowing it wasn't long until he tried to stand up.
"I just meant that she wouldn't want you to torture yourself like you have been," Koga compromised, knowing he wouldn't give up.
Inuyasha relaxed slightly, seeing their annoyance. But it wasn't their problem, he's the one suffering through all of this! He's the one with battling his own wounds! Sure, he felt better about the whole thing, but it still hurt to be reminded to that horrible night. To know he slaughtered his own friends and be reminded with every stab of pain that ripped through his chest. Every time he felt his maimed arm, the sight of Kagome's dead body exploded in his mind.
"We should head inside Inuyasha, you can't risk getting your wounds infected," Sesshomaru mumbled, gracefully rising to his feet.
Koga followed suite, leaving Inuyasha on the ground. They both helped him to his feet and supported him as they walked back. Even with their help, Inuyasha was quavering in pain, the darkened stain growing on his bandages. His chest heaved, pushing blood into his mouth and trickling down the sides. It's crimson stain traveled down his face and fell onto his already bloodied bandages.
Sesshomaru knew his brother was bleeding internally, he could smell it. His brother's body was fighting to repair itself, leaving the battered Hanyou in the crossfire. Inuyasha moaned in pain as they eased him onto the bed, his entire body surging with explosive anguish. He slumped against the pillows, nearly passing out. He refused to look at Sesshomaru while he tended his bandages, not strong enough to face him yet. So much had changed, and everything was different; Even Inuyasha had change, aside from his wounds.
He knew now, how fragile life is and just how easily it can be taken away. All too quickly, he lost everything at once, but gained a few things in return. With Sesshomaru's help, he's recovered a lost relationship, with a brother who had always despised him.
"Rest Inuyasha," he ordered, before he walked out of the room with the mangy wolf in tow.
"He's pretty bad," Koga muttered, unable to disregard the gruesome sight of Inuyasha's wounds.
"He still blames himself."
"Inuyasha really loved her a lot. I was just too arrogant to realize it before . …… He probably cared about her more than he did himself," Koga whispered, cursing himself for the way he treated Inuyasha before.
"That's exactly why he isn't recovering. He's too busy dwelling on the things he never did, that he won't allow himself to rest. He's starving his body of the energy it needs,' Sesshomaru replied, his hand unconsciously clenching his own mangled arm.
"Inuyasha can't forgive himself that easily. Mutt-face never has been able to. When Kagome was poisoned, he blamed himself for it, and he probably still does," Koga explained , sensing his uneasiness when he talked about his brother. It was almost like Sesshomaru wasn't confident in what he was saying, . Even before, when the two of them despised each other, he wasn't too keen on talking about hinm to anyone.
"How come you hated him so much?"
"There were a few reasons, but none of them matter now. I've realized how childish they were. None of those reasons were ever worth it," Sesshomaru explained, flashes of the past burning through his mind.
Koga fell silent, not wanting to anger the solemn Youkai. He could sense the sadness radiating from him. It was awkward, and yet, there was a lot more pain that Sesshomaru wasn't showing. Koga knew he blamed himself for what happened to Inuyasha, hell, he even blamed himself. He should have been there to help them all battle Naraku. As the two of them headed back towards Inuyasha's room, they both fell silent again, unwilling to delve any further on what happened to the traumatized Hanyou.
