Definitely Indefinite

Chapter 4 – It's Alright, I'm OK

I Don't Own Any Of The Character's Who Were In The Television Show Radio Free Roscoe, and They All Belong To The-N, Family Channel and Decode-Ent.

If there are any songs used in this, I wrote them.

An hour later, at Mickey's, Robbie and Kim were together, sitting at a table and talking about their first day back at Roscoe High.

"This day was pretty good, just different with Travis gone and all," Robbie told her, "And I never really got to speak to Lily… she's changed over the summer."

"I'm sure she's missing you though," Kim comforted. "I mean, she's one of your best friends and it was just one day. She'll be back to normal tomorrow and you'll talk to her then."

"Thanks for trying to comfort me," Robbie said. "But she hasn't even spoken to Parker for most of the summer. And Ray says she's always tired when he's with her. I don't know what's happening to our favorite girl."

"I thought I was your favorite girl?" Kim asked jokingly, and she rested her hand on his. Just then, Ray entered Mickey's and quickly walked over to where Kim and Robbie sat. He pulled out a chair and interrupted their little date.

"Hey Brennan, nice of you to join us," Kim lied and put on a fake smile. "Why are you gracing us with your presence?"

"Guys I've got something to tell you!" Ray rushed, out of breath and panicking like he ran to Mickey's. "I'm going to tell you straight. Lily's a prostitute!" Everyone in the store turned and looked around at Ray, interested in what he was saying.

"Turn your voice down," Robbie said quietly. "Where are you getting this information from?"

"She told me herself," Ray replied. "Listen, now it makes sense why she's always been tired and never wanting the company of us during the summer. I don't think I'll ever talk to her again."

"What did you do when she first told you?" Robbie asked.

"I said I was finished with her," Ray responded, "And then I ran out… I had no clue what to say to her or how to speak… she sprung this on me suddenly."

"You walked out on her!" Robbie asked, wondering if he heard him right. "If she told you about this, she obviously needs you more than anyone!"

"I told you, I'm done with her," Ray repeated. "I don't need a girl who's a cheater in my life."

"Brennan, just relax," Kim tried to calm him down. "You can't call her a cheater just because she doesn't play by the rules. Talk to her again, and tell her how you feel and then listen to how she feels. The keyword: communication."

"I don't feel like talking to her tonight though," Ray said and he shut his cell phone off.

Later that night, Lily was in her room on her bed doing homework and crying at the same time. She had pictures of Ray spread out and she wondered if he would ever talk to her again. He's my best friend; he has to be forgiving, doesn't he? Lily thought to herself. She picked up her cordless phone which was lying next to her, and she dialed Ray's cell:

"The Customer You Have Reached Is Not Able To Respond At The Moment, Please Hang Up Now and Try Your Call Again Later….."

"Why won't you answer?" Lily asked, groaning to herself. She hung up the phone and paid attention to her notebook. She started writing down the element names and formula's on the periodic table, trying to memorize them for chemistry. Angrily, Lily changed her mind and threw the book off her bed. She had to do something that would get Ray off her mind, so she upright on her bed and picked up her electric guitar which was leaning against the wall. She started strumming away while she cried, and she improvised, trying to cry and sing at the same time:

"Would you rather live in a castle or live in a hut?

I did this for you and now you call me a slut?"

As she sang, she could barely breathe with the amount of tears flowing from her eyes.

"I tried to make money the unfair way,

I've made a lot of cash but now I have to pay"…. She continued singing as random words came to her sour mouth.

"I've did the dirty deed and now I have to suffer,

At least there's no internet video in which you'd have to buffer!

I don't want to be reminded of this,

A Time I surrendered my bliss!"

She strummed so hard on her guitar; she could feel the strings becoming loose as she touched each fret. Now she was more yelling and crying than singing:

"I gave myself up to the stupid media involved!

This isn't a mystery; nothing needs to be solved!

I'll atone for what I did eventually!

But for now I'll do things conventionally!"

She was now out of control and not caring about anything in her life which made sense. As she gripped the fret board so tight to the point of cracking, she blabbered on, screaming and crying in an outrageous manner:

"I HATE MY STUPID LIFE

I DON'T DESERVE THIS STRIFE

I GUESS THAT'S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU DON'T GIVE AND YOU TAKE

THIS WAS MY BEST KEPT SECRET BUT NOW MY BIGGEST F'ING MISTAKE!"

She threw her guitar across the room and smashed her mirror which shattered into hundreds of pieces! She fell to the ground crying and her parents ran into the room, panicking from the loud noise they heard.

"Lily, what's going on? What's wrong with you?" Her mother asked in a comforting tone. She got on the ground and hugged her while the dad petted her head in a comforting motion. "Your father and I are here for you, why don't you open up to us? Lily we always hear you cry in here and we have no idea what to do."

"There is nothing you can do!" Lily cried. "I'm supposed to walk this path, secretly and alone, it's too late to go back!"

"It's never too late sugar," Her Dad tried to be supportive. "Tell us what's going on so we can help with your reckoning." Lily turned and looked at her mom who was hugging her, straight in her eyes.

"Mom…. People hurt me," Lily sobbed. "I get hit and abused all the time and I feel like there's nothing I can do about it. I'm defenseless and trapped…"

"Honey, why do these people do these things to you?" Mrs. Randall asked. "You could call the police…"

"Mom… I would be the one arrested!" Lily spat angrily and tried wiping her eyes though more tears flowed. "I'm a prostitute… I've been sleeping with guys this whole summer! I originally had dreams about going somewhere beautiful with Ray and I wanted to make money! I got fixated with this fantasy and I became greedy so I gave up the low paying mall tour with No Man's Land then I tried to sell my body… but I ended up selling my soul! I've slept with over 50 guys and I'm asham-" Lily couldn't finish her sentence. She cried on her mother's chest and her mother cried too. Her father turned around to cover his face.

"Honey we have to take you to the hospital and get you checked," Mrs. Randall spoke through tears. "Your father and I love you, and we're not going anywhere… we'll be here for you daughter. We'll stand by you."

"I guess this isn't the best time to tell you, but I'm signed to K-Grand records," Lily said through crying, and her parents manage to laugh, feeling happy with the news. "Though my producer was one of my prostitution clients…" The happy moment went down the drain, and the three of them just wander in thoughts, not knowing what they would do next.

Chapter 5 will go up tomorrow! I appreciate the reviews I've been getting but leave more!