A/N: Decided to get this up for you guys. I hope it's not that bad. Please leave any constructive criticism, I would really love to read them, thanks.

A soft breeze drifted gently through the air, hitting casually onto the young girl's face. It didn't seem to bother her at all, but once the sun came up, the glare was prying into her eyes; she definitely seemed to notice. Ellie sat up in her bed, her red hair falling in front of her face as she looked out the window. She was most certainly glad that it was finally a weekend. Too bad the beautiful day didn't match her mood as of right now. A yelp stifled from her lips as she moved her right leg to get out of her bed. She noticed a large blood stain on her bed from the blood that had leaked out of her as she slept. Her eyes drifted to the red gashes on her right thigh and tears welled up in her eyes.

Ellie had done so well with handling her cutting obsession and she destroyed that last night. What was it that made her so upset? The fact that her mother started drinking again? Or was it the fact that she was no longer going to see her father? She, at the moment, had a gruesome distaste for her father; she loathed him with every single part of her heart. Why on Earth would he go into the army, promise to come back, and then find someone else along the way?

Sometimes, Ellie didn't understand how men could be so unworthy of living. Marco was her first boyfriend, but she knew that there was something wrong with him from the beginning. The fact that he turned out to be homosexual shocked her in every way. It was so hard for her to keep it a secret from everyone, but she was relieved when he came out to everyone. Ellie loved her best friend, though, no doubt about it, there was no way he was unworthy of living. But, there was someone else in her mind that was unworthy of living.

Her thoughts flashed back to the night before, a single tear running down her face. Sean had come back to visit her and only her? He broke her heart when they went to Wasaga Beach that one fateful day. He had tried killing himself because of all the stress that was taking over him. She was so worried at the time, but if she had known that he was going to break up with her, her thoughts would deem different. Then, he wanted to stay with his parents and broke her heart in everyway. Ellie had sworn off being with guys, she hated them for doing all these horrible things to her.

Sean had changed. He wasn't the same person she knew before he left her. There was something terribly wrong with him; he just couldn't understand the fact that she was with Craig now. Why would he try coming back to her and practically raping her the night before? He kissed her, yes, but then someone about him changed, it was that same soft Sean that she knew from before. He said goodbye to her? Why? Ellie was fearing that something bad was going to happen, what? She didn't know. He cried when he left her lying there on the ground.

This was too much for Ellie to even think about. Shaking her thoughts away, the girl got to her feet and tried walking straight to the bathroom. She was limping slightly because of the pain inflicted on her leg. That was, of course, her fault. She closed the door behind her and pulled several toilet paper pieces off and ran the water over them. Slowly and gently, she washed the blood off from her leg. She could see the deep gashes she did to herself the night before. Ellie flinched as she wiped the last bit of blood out from her thigh.

A sigh of relief suppressed from her lips as she flushed the bloody toilet paper down the toilet. Ellie headed out to the living room to find her mother lying on the couch, the Vodka bottle completely empty. The redhead picked up the bottle and threw it into the trashcan. She sat down next to her mother and put her head on her shoulder; Ellie started to cry.

A tiny bird whistled it's beautiful song as it flew quickly past a body lying on the ground. It stirred. A face popped out from under the blankets, his eyes staring at the surroundings around him. He was lying behind his old house, knowing that no one would find him there. Sean's face was tearstained. He only had one more hope left. He felt that no one wanted him back. All his friends had denied him over the past few months, somehow.

It was time to try his first love, Emma Nelson, maybe; maybe she would want him back. But he wasn't too sure on that, he broke her heart, as well; he just didn't know what he could do.

He stood up and wiped the debris off of him and headed towards the street. He ruffled his hair and then smoothed it out in order to make him look decent. He hadn't even found a decent place to stay and now his clothes smelled of the stench on the street. Licking his lips, he made his way over to Emma's house, hoping to find her there.

It took him about fifteen minutes to find his way to her house, but he had some time to think for himself along the way. He thought about the day before, how Ellie had denied him. Sean was pretty upset with the fact that Ellie was with Craig and how she didn't love him anymore. All he did was leave her and live with his parents in Wasaga Beach, what was so wrong with that? She was relying on him to help her stay out of trouble, help her from cutting herself. He hoped that she was doing okay.

Sean saw the side window to the basement open and he peaked inside. He saw her sleeping there, her luscious blonde hair wrapped around her fingertips. Emma was sound asleep, Sean would feel bad if he woke her up, but he didn't have that much time, he needed to know. He crawled through the window cautiously and headed inside, taking a seat on Emma's bed.

His hand slid through her hair and slowly her eyes popped open, wide with shock. He covered her mouth with his hand as she screamed; he hoped no one heard her. Then again, no cars were in the driveway, so he didn't see why this would bother anyway.

"Holy...Sean what on Earth are you doing here?" Emma asked him, shaking his hand off from her mouth. Her heart was beating a thousand beats a minute, she was so scared at the moment.

"Emma, I just wanted to see you. I wanted to see if you still loved me..."

"And you snuck into my house to ask me if I still loved you?" She stared at him. He was beyond insane, he seriously needed some help.

"Yes..." He answered her, he leaned forward and Emma pushed him off.

"What do you think you're doing? You can't just come in here and expect me to still love you. That's completely insane. I got over you a long time ago. I don't love you."

"Emma, I love you, though."

"Sean, I've moved on, what part of that don't you understand? I'm with Chester now and I am very happy that I found someone who actually cares for me."

"But..."

"Just go home Sean. We don't need you here anymore."

Emma pried her eyes into his and he stared back at her, tears forming in the corner of his eyes. No one loved him; no one in this whole world loved him. What was he going to do? He didn't know. Sean stood up and headed out the same way he got in. This was the last straw for him. If he couldn't find love in Degrassi, then he couldn't find love anywhere. He cried, his tears falling to the ground. He had to do something, anything. His depression was getting to him and all thoughts only came to one thing...