A/N: Hey everyone. Sorry if this took a while to get up. Been busy, not enough motivation, yeah, life is evil. Well, this fits with my mood anyway, so I hope you enjoy, even though some of you hate this story, but that's okay, not everyone will love it. Have fun! 3

Her heart was pounding heavily against her chest; Emma was gripping her fists tightly, not knowing the result of the announcement. The blond's eyes trailed around the room, everyone sitting silently in their seats and staring at absolutely nothing. The two words uttered from Mrs. H's lips and the announcement seemed to be over for her, just then and there. Tears of pain trailed from her eyes as she sat there. A comforting hand was placed upon her shoulder; Emma looked back to Manny, she too had tears in her eyes.

The girl felt as if she had been the cause of his suicide. Why on Earth would he bring such negative attention on himself now. Emma had to find out what had really happened to him in Wasaga Beach. No one would ever know, unless his parents did have something to do with it. But why was Emma even thinking about this now? There was no importance to it, whatsoever. Her eyes fell to her desk as she stared at the engraved wood, the marks intwining within each other.

Emma stood up. The girl had witnessed another death that was close to her. The first one was Rick, and of course, she felt as if she was the cause of him wanting to shoot everyone at school. She remembered it just like it was yesterday.

"Hi Emma. Sorry I kissed you." He said, his words pouring into her heart as she stared at him blankily from afar.

"He's got a gun ok, let's go!" Sean said, hie voice quavering with fear.

"Don't turn away from me! Glad I found you Emma. You made my list."

"Rick what are you doing?" Toby stared at his friend, what on Earth was he doing anyway? And now? Why?

"You flirted with me. I thought you liked me, but that was something else."

"Just put the gun down ok? Anything else is just gonna make your life worse." Sean was trying to comfort him, but in all due respect, it didn't help what was going to happen next. He had saved her life, but the shock of it still affected her to this very day.

"It can't get any worse."

"Believe me it can. I know. We'll figure it all out okay?"

"Figure this all out? It's too late."

"No"

"I've already shot someone."

"Stop!"

It was all over in a mere second. Both Sean and Rick went down on the ground and that was when it happened, when the gun was set off. Emma had thought she was going to lose Sean forever, but it was the other way around. Even though she was releaved that it hadn't been Sean, the young girl was still devastated about the fact that she was almost going to die that very day. Sean Cameron was her hero again, he had saved her life and made amends with her.

Something about him, something about seeing Sean the other day made her wonder what was wrong with him. He had been acting so strangely. The Sean that had come into her house through her basement window was a different Sean, a Sean with something missing. Sean was missing something. What something could that be? She didn't know.

"Fine, tomorrow you spend lunch with those losers!"

"You know what? I will! Because at least they're fun!"

"Fun! And you! You're just pathetic."

Their breakup. Emma had been very upset about that too, very upset. She wanted to make amends with him, but she couldn't figure out how. He had completely changed, he had become a different person to her. She wasn't over him, even with that fling she had with Chris.

Still, till this day she will remember Sean Cameron and how sweet of a boy he was when he was with her. Emma missed him, now, she missed everything about him. His smile, his hair, the way he held her, the way he loved her no matter what. Tears slid down her face. The whole classroom was empty. She had been in a dreamworld this whole time. She didn't want to face the fact that he was dead, and now. Biting her lower lip, she stood up, her heart aching.

There was nothing she could do about it now. She had been the cause of his death.

"Emma, I love you, though."

"Just go home Sean. We don't need you here anymore."

He had loved her, he had still loved her. Sobbing silently to herself, the girl ran through the halls of Degrassi and out to the steps. Her eyes fell upon Ellie Nash as she stood there clinging onto Craig like a baby. She, too, was upset about the fact that Sean was now dead. Whimpering from the pain, the girl turned the other way, towards the ravine. She needed someone to hold on to, anyone. She needed to see that it was true, that it was really Sean that was dead.