Dear Diary,

It's Isabella. I know I haven't written in a while but give me a break, I'm seventeen. I am only writing now because just recently I have been told my real mother is alive and that a miracle occurred since I died! I know this may sound confusing but you're an object that can't hear, listen, or talk! I made a big show of saying I didn't believe one word I was told but in all truth I do. It's just my enemy, Sirius Black, was supposedly my best friend before I died and well I have tried to avoid him since third year. You may be asking why I was trying to avoid him. Well when I was thirteen Lucious (a/n: hisses angrily at the mention of this name) tried to make a move on me. Well I was coming out of Potions when he backed me up into the corner of the hallway. He had me shoved up against the wall and was about to kiss me when Sirius came by and stopped him. Well I kinda admired him for saving me of the git, but it was embarrassing so I avoided him. Then in fourth year Sirius and I started hating each other. Well if truth be told, he hated me and I hated him, but only because I hated him for making me like him. Does that make sense? Well lets just say fifth year I fell in love with Sirius Black and I hated him for it. And even if he were to like me back I know I would be dumped in a week. With Sirius you only get one week and that's all you can hope for. Well, that makes me scared of admitting my feelings for him. So basically when it comes to Sirius I am a

disaster.

Anyway I found out my real mom is Mrs. McKinnon the maker of Witch's Impremium. Well she seemed nice so I wrote a letter to her here I'll copy it onto this page.

Dear Mrs. McKinnon aka: Mom,

I believe and am willing to accept, the fact that you are my mom. I'd like to visit sometime (not Christmas unfortunately I have "plans") and get to know you more. Well of course only if you want to. I'd like to meet Jessica McKinnon, your daughter I believe, the third year and of course little Johnny, the ten year old. Please don't tell them of me yet unless you already have. I wish to explain about me. Enclosed is a nice necklace that contains a never-ending stock of Phoenix tears. I have of course done a little "research" and realized little Johnny is a werewolf so the tears will help. I myself understand the werewolf business and will not hold any prejudice against him. In fact, I know one myself. I also admire Jessica's grades for teachers have told me, when I asked, she's a bright student and one of the best in her year. Please tell me more about your boyfriend Andrew Simons if you will. All I know is he is a substitute here at Hogwarts. Does he have brown hair and blue eyes? I heard he does from Casey Meadows, Jessica's friend. Well I don't mean to waste your time but I've never had a mother and would like to meet one. Well I checked my calendar um would the 20th of

April is good it is a weekend so Dumbledore would of course approve. Well I am going to put a few facts about me below:

Favorite color: yellow

House: Gryffindor

Animal: dog

Subject: Defense against the Dark Arts

And much much more!

Please give me some information about you. I really want to know about you. Were my eyes inherited from your purple eyes and dad's blue ones or did he not have blue eyes? Why did he beat me? What is your job?

With much love, your long-lost daughter,

Isabella McKinnon

P.s. I changed my last name to McKinnon yesterday after I told my friends!

Well I am glad I finally got that out!

Anyway I've been avoiding Sirius whenever he tries to talk to me again. If I tell him I believe him he will want to be friends again. If we are friends again I'll start to like him more. I definently do not need that. Well that's all for now and probably ever!

With worry for her sanity,

Isabella McKinnon

Sirius' point of View.

Well there is a lot to say. James has invited Isabella and Em to stay for Christmas break because Em is Remus' girlfriend. And of course he can't be separated for a week or two! But who am I to complain I like Isabella, well love her. But since she doesn't believe me I don't know how we will get along at all without mean words and curses and hexes and jinxes. Maybe if I told her I love her she'll listen. But then again maybe she'll just make fun of me and there'll be more mean words and curses and hexes and jinxes and poisons! I was thinking what I should do on the way over to charms. Well that is until I heard two people talking. Isabella and Em to be exact. "Yeah, but so will Black," Isabella was saying.

"Would you please focus on the fact that Remus is going to be there and I have to meet one of his best friend's mum?" Em said.

"Ugh, it's just I hate Black so much!" Isabella screamed

"He's not that bad; Remus said he's a good friend!" Em retorted in Sirius' honor.

"Please, did you hear that git set "Moony" on Snape?" Isabella said.

My jaw dropped how did she know? What was she stalking me? "He what?" Em screeched.

"He told Snape to go to the Whomping Willow at full moon and hit the notch. So Snape did as told as was nearly killed!" Isabella told her.

"How did he escape?" Em asked curiously.

"Potter saved him after he heard what Black did," Isabella informed her.

I growled silently. How dare they meddle into Marauder business? "Well, still I know you have a crush on him!" Em accused.

"Ew! Hell no!" Isabella yelled.

I'm not that bad. "Come on Sirius isn't that bad," Em insisted.

"Right," Isabella said, "I'll believe that when I see it!"

"Alright ten galleons say you are together by January!" Em said, challengingly pulling out ten galleons.

"I don't have ten galleons I am an orphan!" Isabella said.

"No, Mrs. McKinnon is your mom remember?" Em told her.

"Please," Isabella said.

"Aww come one how bout ten chocolate frogs?" Em asked.

"Alright," Isabella said giving in.

"Yes!" Em screamed triumphantly.

"Come on, we have class," Isabella said sourly.

"Why are you in such a bad mood?" Katy, who had just passed, asked.

"Because I made her make a bet with me that she is going to lose!" Em informed Katy.

"I am not going to lose you are going to lose!" Isabella said.

"The day I lose is the day I like Snape!" Em said.

"Yea well start liking Snape cause that day is January first!" Isabella retorted.

The three girls walked out of my view and I thought things over in my head. I entered the Charms classroom and sat down. Why do I like this girl anyway? A note hit my head.

You are crank today- James

I am not cranky, Jay – Sirius

Don't call me that, Siri – James

Well don't call me Siri – Sirius

You called me Jay first! – James

So? – Sirius

So, you are a git! – James

Wow, good one Jay – Sirius

Thanks, wait, stop calling me Jay! – James

Whatever you say, Jay – Sirius

Sirius I said to stop calling me JAY! – James

How about Jamsie? – Sirius

No – James

How about prongsie? – Sirius

No – James

How about James? – Sirius

Yes – James

How about Prongs? – Sirius

Yes – James

How about James? – Sirius

Yes – James

How about Prongs? – Sirius

Yes – James

How about James? –Sirius

Yes I have it on auto- yes cause you are boring me! – James

How about Jay? – Sirius

Yes – James

Ok Jay – Sirius

Wait no I didn't mean it – James

Bye, Jay, Prof. is looking – Sirius

Well besides Isabella at least I still have got my friends. And a plan. Plan: tell Isabella I love her. Simple and hard.


A/n: Did you like it? REVIEW PLEASE! Thanks to my reviewers: Jousting Elf with a Sabre and

PeskyPixiePicsaPotter Thank you everyone who has made it this far into the story (although not that far)

This stories chapter estimate has gone up from 10 to 11 chapters due to this journal entry/ Sirius opinion chapter next chapter will be Christmas break!