Author's Notes: I do not own CB, god does this become annoying or what?

As weird as it may sound, everything seemed to be turning back to...normal, I suppose you could say. About as normal as it could get on the Bebop, which wasn't really that normal at all. Spike and Faye seemed to be able to carry conversations once more, and all was well on the ship.

Spike sat on the yellow couch and stared up at the ceiling fan, his eyes following the blades as they spinned round and round. He felt himself get a little light head so he shut his eyes; in his mind he saw flashes of images from the past and then leading to the present. He noticed that were was a lot more of Faye then the rest, but when he thought of Julia his mind was blank and everything went dark.

His eyes flew open in shock, 'I can't forget about her, I won't let myself just forget about her...' he thought to himself.

'And why not?' the same voice he had been fighting with since he returned on the ship asked.

'Because...because I just can't. I loved her you know...' Spike's voice screamed.

'Ah ha, you loved her. You know there is a difference between loving someone and being in love...' the voice stated.

'Yeah, whatever...' Spike shrugged it off.

'No really, there is. To love someone is like saying I love you to your mom, or your dad, your brother, sister, uncle, aunt a friend just caring about that person. But to truly be in love, well now...you just know you are going to spend the rest of your living and dying days with that person. Did you really think you were going to live with Julia for the rest of your life?' the voice told and asked Spike.

Spike didn't know what to say. Was he really living in a dream world the whole time, thinking him and Julia would end up happy and leave everything behind.

'I see...' the voice said as it slowly faded away. Spike got frustrated and he picked up his glass that he had set on the table and threw it at the wall. Sitting back down he put his head in his hands thought some more about what the voice inside of him had said.

"Did I really think that? I mean with Vicious and everything that was going on at the time, did I really think that me and Julia would live together...I was so...ignorant and blind." Spike spoke aloud.

Faye slowly peaked her head out of her room and heard what Spike had said. Not even thinking if she should or shouldn't comfort Spike, Faye walked over toward to Spike and sat down next to him. "Hey Spike, are you alright?" Faye asked concerned.

"Yeah..." Spike answered annoyingly. He didn't even know why he said it that way; Faye wasn't annoying him at all. He liked knowing that Faye cared about him, but it just came out the wrong way at the wrong time.

Faye knew that tone of annoyingness, "Whatever Spike, y'know I was just trying to help you out. But heaven forbade that I do that because then you might have to actually be nice to me. Goodness gracious no." Faye said as she began to get up from the couch.

'God this was not the time Faye...' Spike's mind said in anger. "Okay whatever Faye..." Spike said trying to calm himself down. Why was he getting so upset all of the sudden, was it just that too much was hitting him at one time.

Faye turned her head around and looked at him with an eyebrow cocked in the air. "God you are so ignorant!" She screamed as she began walking out of the ship.

'All right that's it. That's done it.' Spike's mind thought to himself as he followed Faye out of the ship onto the deck. "Why the fuck do you always think I'm such a lunkhead, stupid fucker, ignorant bastard?" Spike asked Faye.

Faye turned around and began walking toward him, "Want to know why I think that of you? Hahaha, well gee maybe it's because that's the way you ACT!" Faye screamed into his face. Both of them stood there staring at one another with the coldest of stares. And finally Faye spoke again.

"And why do you think of me as such a bitch, shrew, slut and a whore?" She asked him as she poked at his chest at every word she said.

"Because that's the way you act." Spike said not taking his eyes away from her. Faye dropped her head; she didn't really know why she was so shocked. She always knew Spike had thought of her as nothing more than a whore, she didn't understand why they didn't just put her out on the street to get some money. Faye felt tears of pain, suffering, hatred spring around her eyes.

Slowly Faye lifted her head up and looked at Spike square in the eyes. Spike noticed the tears that were about to spill over 'God damnit...' he cursed to himself; he did it again. He caused her to cry again.

Suddenly he felt a swift smack on his right cheek, "Well I'm sorry you think of me that way..." Faye stated. Spike shook his head, "That didn't even hurt" Spike said slowly to Faye, 'but it hurt somewhere inside of me...'

"Well good, maybe that's a sign that you really are dead," Faye said as she looked away from him. Spike grabbed her by the arms and looked her directly into her eyes, like a death stare of some sort.

"If I was dead you wouldn't be able to feel this," he said as he squeezed her arms.

"Ow, Spike you're hurting me." But her cries seemed to be falling on deaf ears. He began to squeeze tighter, and tighter.

"SPIKE!" Faye screamed. Suddenly Spike was out of his trance and he saw what he was doing, he let go of Faye and saw his handprints on her arm. "Faye...Faye I'm sorry I don't know what the hell came over me..." Spike said slowly as he looked down at his hands.

"It's okay...you just scared me there for a minute..." Faye said as she rubbed her arms trying to reduce the pain that still lingered. Spike looked up at Faye and saw true fear in her eyes, as if she had seen a monster unleashed. Ever so slowly Spike walked up closer to Faye and wrapped his arms around her.

'What the hell came over me?' he asked himself, waiting for the voice to reply. But it never came, 'so what the hell, when I ask you something you don't answer but when I don't want your 2 cents you come.'

Faye slowly leaned into Spike and grabbed onto his jacket. Spike tightened his hold a little more, but not hard enough that'd it'd scare her.

'I think you're falling in love with her...' the voice stated.

Spike sighed and thought to himself, 'Yeh I think so too...'