AN: After 43 chapters I'm sure you know that I do not own Cowboy Bebop and I never will.
It had been a couple of days since Faye had left the Bebop. She wondered if Jet and Ed were worried about her. She wondered if they went out on their own and got themselves groceries. She laughed to herself.
Turning her attention back to thematter at hand, Spike was currently sleeping on the couch in the living room, snoring loudly. She thought it'd be a good time to call Jet and see what's up and how things are going. Grabbing Spike's communicator she went into his bedroom and tried connecting to Bebop's signal.
"Bebop," said a burly voice.
"Hey Jet," Faye said almost excited.
"Faye? I'm guessing you found him?" Jet asked.
"Yes, but how did you know?" Faye asked curiously.
"Because I knew he'd be there, that's why I asked you to go out and get groceries. Too bad we actually needed them so Ed and I had to go out and get some ourselves because we knew you wouldn't be back anytime soon," Jet said and laughed a little.
"WHAT! You knew he was here?" Faye yelled, then heard Spike stop in mid-snore. She waited to see if Spike started up again, and he did. He slept like a rock.
"Hey, don't be mad, actually you CAN'T be mad. I did this for you," Jet said in defense.
"Yeah, I guess you're right," Faye said in defeat.
"I know I'm right thank you but when are you two coming back to the Bebop?" Jet asked curiously.
Faye actually didn't know if Spike wanted to come back to the Bebop, I mean he had no reason not to want to come back but it'd be because he wouldn't want to endanger Jet, Ed, Ein, or her. She sighed to herself.
"I don't know if Spike will want to come back…" Faye said a little discouraged.
"What, why not?" Jet asked.
"Because he doesn't want any of us involved in this shit that's going on now. Earlier today someone attacked us at his apartment, so people are still out there looking for him. And I know Spike, he won't want any of us to get in the way, or get hurt." Faye said and peeked out the doorway of Spike's room and looked at Spike sprawled out on the couch.
"Faye, we've been with him through this entire ordeal. I think he should at least trust us to not get in the way." Jet said.
Faye wanted to tell Jet that Spike wouldn't return "home" because of her. He wouldn't want her to get hurt or get involved in this mess even more than she already was. But like Jet said they had been with him through this entire ordeal. He couldn't possibly just push them away and try to take this on by himself, could he? Of course he could, he was Spike Spiegel. He could take on the entire world if he had to, and alone at that. Faye took one last glance at Spike snoring on the couch then turned her attention back to Jet.
"Yeah but this is lug head, stubborn, green moppy mess head, Spike Spiegel we're talking about here," Faye sighed, "I don't know, I'll get in contact with you later this week and let you know what's going on alright?" Faye said.
"Alright, hopefully see you two soon. It gets a bit lonely with Ed when all she does is talk on her computer and her dog." Jet said.
Faye couldn't help but laugh, she felt bad for leaving Jet with Ed and Ein, "See ya," Faye said and clicked the communicator off.
"Lug head, stubborn, green moppy mess head, Spike Spiegel huh?" a voice from behind Faye said.
Faye rolled her eyes already knowing it was Spike and that he hadn't really be asleep the entire time either, he probably woke up when she yelled at Jet on the communicator.
"Oh shush, you know you're stubborn and a lug head," Faye said as she walked past him and into the bathroom to look at herself in the mirror.
"Yeah I knew that but I didn't know my hair was messy," Spike teased as he followed Faye into the bathroom.
Faye smirked, "Did you hear me talk about anything else?" she asked.
"Just that you don't think I'll come back to the Bebop," Spike said leaning against the doorframe.
"You won't though, will you?" Faye said turning around facing Spike.
Spike didn't answer; he just pushed himself off the doorframe and walked back into the living room. Faye felt something inside of her tug.
"You won't come back for the same reasons?" Faye asked Spike following him.
"For the most part," Spike said as he sat down on the couch and turned the TV on.
Faye walked over towards Spike and stood in the way of the TV, "Well what are they then?" Faye asked curiously.
Spike tried moving his head to see the TV but every time he moved so did Faye's hips, "Answer me." Faye demanded.
Spike shut the TV off and stood up so that Faye and him were facing one another, bodies almost colliding into one another. One more step from the either of them and they would be in each other arms. Spike brought the back of his hand up to Faye's face and then let it fall.
"Spike, please, don't ignore me." Faye pleaded.
"I don't want to endanger anyone on the ship. I don't want to endangeryou anymore than I already have." Spike said while starring straight at Faye.
"I know you don't want that to happen but we've all been through this with you, we won't get hurt we all know how to take care of ourselves. We're not 12, well Ed might be around that age but I mean Jet's like her father he wouldn't let anyone touch her." Faye said and continued to stare at him as well.
"I don't know if I can promise I'd always be there for you," Spike said and broke the stare between the two of them. He looked out the window and continued, "I don't know if I would always be there to protect you from things, I don't know if I could be there for you when you wake up from a nightmare, I don't know if I could be there to hold your hand while we're walking down the street, I don't know if I could hold you at night and not feel like I have to be on guard all the time for the fear that if I let it down that someone may come and take you away." Spike said and looked back up at Faye.
"I can't promise you that I won't leave again," Spike said and began to walk away, heading for the door.
"So you're going to let your fears take control of your life? You're not going to allow yourself to be happy? You're not going to allow yourself to actually care for someone because you're afraid they'll be gone the next day? I'm in danger every time I walk out of the front door Spike; I have so many people after my ass because I owe them so much damn money. I'm not worried about what danger you have to bring to the table because I know that I can take care of myself, I can take care of my part of the bargain, but only if you're able to take care of your part." Faye practically yelled as she felt herself loosing control.
Spike turned around and looked at Faye, "The last time I let my guard down Faye I lost someone very important to me, why would I make the same mistake twice?" Spike didn't ask Faye, he told her.
"So you leaving me, it's like loosing me all over again." Faye said as she began to walk toward Spike.
Spike had the door open and ready to leave her again but something inside of him was telling him to stay, something inside of him was making him stay. Faye walked up behind Spike and wrapped her arms around him, "I don't want to make the same mistake twice and let you leave again," Faye said as tears ran down her cheeks like little streams.
Spike hung his head low and shut the door. Turning around he placed a hand on Faye's chin and brought her face up, he saw so much emotion in her eyes. He slowly wrapped his arms around Faye's body and Faye let her head relax on his chest.
"I've got a lot of learning to do," Spike said into Faye's hair.
Faye smiled, "I'll be here every step of the way," she whispered.