Shizuru stared up at the ceiling above her bed. She turned and looked at her clock. 4 am. I wish I could sleep, she thought. And then she turned and stared at the wall and let the memories come over her.
The rocks tumbling down and Sakyo staring lovingly across the distance into her eyes. Running for the exit, trying to go back to him, but being dragged on by Koenma.
I miss him so much, she thinks. And then she curls into a ball as she starts to cry. Why did you do that Sakyo? Why? You could have lived and stayed with me…we could have been together. I know you weren't perfect, but I'm not either. I would have forgiven you anything. Just to be able to love you…
Shizuru cried until the sun came up and then she showered and prepared for the day.
"Hey sis, you look like hell," Kuwabara said upon seeing her. "Did you get hit with the ugly stick this morning or something?"
Shizuru fought the urge to cry and turned and angrily looked at Kuwabara instead. "Well at least I didn't get hit by the whole damn ugly tree, Kazuma."
"Hey that's not fair, everyone knows I'm sexy," protested Kuwabara.
"Right, as sexy as a naked mole rat," Shizuru said.
Kuwabara grumbled but moved out the door and headed to school.
Shizuru looked after him and sighed. I should talk to someone. But Kuwabara hated Sakyo. Everyone did. Only Koenma knows anything and even he doesn't know how much I love him. Even when he's gone…
She shook her head and put down her coffee. Time to get to work.