Disclaimer: not mine
A/N: the lyrics are from the english translation of Kent's gravitation. that song is really cool and popular! i love it!
kyaa! sequel to accept me!
sorry for updating too slow! i was busy and mental block was chasing me..
Preview of My Heart is Lost in the Sky
chapter title: Just This Once
It was the afternoon before Christmas Eve. Everybody was busy making last minute preparations for the coming event. Shuichi's small apartment has a little Christmas tree on the corner with lots of gifts under it. They decorated the exterior with blinking lights and stars.
"Chichi! Can I light the fireplace? It's so cold!" Shinori asked after taking a bath and getting dressed. Outside, the snow was falling like angel flakes giving coldness to everyone but at the same time, warmth in every heart.
"No Shinori. We'll be leaving soon." Shuichi said. He was at his room combing Erin's hair. "There cutie Erin. Are you ready to go?" he asked his daughter.
"Daddy Shu!" Erin replied.
"I guess that means yes." Shuichi smiled and carried his daughter.
"Shinori, are the gifts ready? How about Kurosawa's family? What time are they coming?" Shuichi asked as he left the room.
Shinori checked his watch. "She said she'll be there by 7:30. The gifts are in the car. The food is there as well." He said.
"Very well. What time is it?" Shuichi asked.
"It's seven." Shinori said.
"Ok. Time to go!" Shuichi said, got his coat and placed Erin on the back seat of the car. Shinori sat beside his sister and counted the gifts that are with him. The singer got inside the car and drove towards….
NG 7:30pm
There were so many artists and musicians inside NG corporations. Every year, they held a Christmas party for everybody in the NG family. Of course, Bad Luck and their families were invited.
"Yo Shinori. Gained some height?" someone patted Shuichi's son.
"Hey Uncle Hiro." Shinori greeted.
"Were's your girlfriend?" Hiro smirked and Shuichi laughed.
"Chichi! She's not my –
"Shinori kun!" a girl waved. "Hey! I'm here!"
"Yo Kurosawa." Shinori greeted. He invited Kurosawa at NG's party since he treated her like his best friend. Well, maybe more than friends.
"I'll leave you here Shinori – kun!" Shuichi teased and walked away with Hiro.
"Kids are growing up too fast huh Shuichi?" Hiro said while pinching Erin's nose.
"Well yeah." Shuichi sighed while slapping Hiro's hand.
"I'll just go and get some drinks." Hiro said.
"Ok, I'll just go over there and greet Sakuma san." He waved and placed Erin beside his brother. "Watch over him son, I'll just talk with Ryu chan."
"Hai." Shinori said.
(A/n: is everybody wondering where Yuki went?)
Shinori and Kurosawa watched as Shuichi walked away greeting everybody. They nodded as if planning something and went to the balcony with Erin.
"Erin. Would you like to talk with Daddy Yu?" Shinori whispered once they were hidden in the balcony.
"Yah! Daddy Yu!" Erin shouted.
"Shhhh. Erin. We must be quiet" Kurosawa said.
Shinori got his cell phone from his pocket and began dialing Yuki's number. The phone rang and within seconds, Yuki was on the other line.
"Dad!" Shinori shouted, forgetting that he was supposed to be quiet. Kurosawa shook her head. "Dad! How are you? Ow!" he received a punch on his head.
"What happened to you?" Yuki asked.
"No, nothing Dad. Erin just pinched me." He scratched his head and glared at Kurosawa who glared back at him.
"Anyway, how's the party going?" Yuki asked. "Having a great time?"
"Well, yeah. How are you? What's the plan?" Shinori asked.
"Starve him tonight. Be sure you'll be here at 11pm."
"Starve? That's hard. He's eaten dessert as of now."
"Baka! Don't let him eat too much! Or my plans will be spoiled!" Yuki hissed.
"Daddy Yu!" Erin pulled Shinori's shirt.
"Oh I know! You're planning a dinner right?" Shinori blushed. "That's romantic." He said glancing at Erin.
"You think so? I – I'm honestly nervous." Yuki admitted.
"Nothing to worry about, Dad. Things are gonna be alright." Shinori whispered.
"Thanks son."
"Anyway, what are you – Ow!" Shinori got hit on the head again.
'What?" he said impatiently.
"Shindou san is coming!" Kurosawa whispered.
"D – Dad.. I'm gonna hung up. Chichi's looking for us."
"Alright. Thanks for the help. Remember, be here at 11."
"Yeah. Bye!" Shinori hung up and slid the phone automatically on his pocket as the curtains of the balcony were being moved by Shuichi.
"Shinori, why are you outside? You too Kurosawa san. You'll catch a cold. It's freezing here." Shuichi asked picking up Erin.
"Oh, Shindou san. Shinori and I are just – just talking about some things."
"Planning your future eh?" Shuichi teased and both of them blushed.
"Just kidding. Get inside. The food is great!" Shuichi laughed.
"Ch – chichi! Um. Don't eat!" Shinori said.
"Huh?" Shuichi asked dumbfound.
"Wh – what I mean is…. Don't eat too much."
"What?" Shuichi asked, more confused. Erin giggled.
"Gah! I mean.. the food are fattening!" Shinori said like a dummy. Kurosaki shook her head on the background.
"Shinori. What are you talking about? The food is great!"
"No. Dad. I mean. Y – you're on a diet right?" Oh geez. Kurosawa bent down laughing quietly behind Shuichi.
"Since when did you become so concerned about my diet Shinori?" Shuichi arched an eyebrow.
"What? Oh no! I just want you to maintain your figure."
"Haha." Shuichi laughed heartily and patted his son. "You're weird today. Is it because you're with Kurosawa kun?" Shuichi said and poked him on the ribs.
"Dad!" Shinori blushed furiously.
"Go inside. The program's about to start." Shuichi gestured.
"Hai." They chorused.
And the party went well, with bands performing, gift giving, games, and many more.
Uesugi, you're phone's ringing… it might be him" Kurosawa said upon hearing Shinori's phone.
"Brat! Where are you! It's 11:30 geek!" Yuki said angrily on the phone.
'Waah! Dad! I'm – I'm sorry. We'll be on our way!" Shinori said and hung up.
"Kurosawa! We'll go now!" he whispered.
"Okay! Good luck!" she whispered back and waved good bye.
Alright. Here goes nothing….
He walked towards where Shuichi was standing and tapped him softly on his shoulder.
"Yes, Shinori?" Shuichi greeted, putting down his drink.
"Chichi. I want to talk to you."
"What is it son?" Shuichi wrapped an arm around his son.
"I –
"You want your Christmas gift?" Shuichi winked.
"N – no… I want to talk to you. About dad."
There I said it!
"What about him?" Shuichi replied coldly, releasing his arms from Shinori's waist.
"I – I wanted to give him a present. C – can we…. Can we go to his place for a while –
"No."
"But Dad. I"ll just give him his gift, and say my greetings and let Erin see him. After all, Erin misses him so much." Shinori reasoned out.
"You can give his present tomorrow afternoon."
"No Dad! I want it now!" Shinori said loudly and covered his mouth.
Shuichi sighed and examined his son for a while.
"Please dad. Just this once. Can we go to his place? Just make it my Christmas present."
Shuichi closed his eyes, thinking for a while and nodded. Shinori and Erin jumped and made their way to the car.
Shuichi drove silently, lost in thoughts. He wasn't prepared to see Yuki – yet. Thinking about what the author did behind his back is torturing him to death.
"Chichi."
"Daddy Shu!"
Shuichi drove faster, but he wasn't clearly seeing where he was driving – rather, he wasn't thinking about driving. He was thinking of what he will say to Yuki.
"Daddy Shu!" Erin shouted and Shuichi stepped on the brake.
"Woah, chichi. You're driving too fast! We're a block away! The apartment is there don't you remember?" Shinori said pointing at the other street.
"Y – yeah. Sorry." Shuichi drove again and parked the car on the garage.
"Erin, com'n we'll give our gift to Dad!" Shinori whispered and held Shuichi's hand while pressing the buzzer.
The door slowly opened revealing blonde locks and hazel eyes. Shuichi tried his best not to look at the writer, so he focused his sight on the ground.
"Daddy Yu!" Erin ran and hugged Yuki.
"Hey Dad, Merry Christmas. I brought your present." Shinori said, still holding Shuichi's cold hand.
"Shuichi." Yuki said softly. "Come in."
"No." Shuichi replied in a whisper. "Shinori's just here to hand his gift. Then, we'll go."
"Chichi." Shinori said and pushed Shuichi inside the apartment. 'You're my present to Dad!" Shinori said.
"What!" Shuichi asked, surprised and half – amused. "Shinori, why did you –
"Don't blame him Shuichi. I'm the one who made him do that." Yuki explained.
The singer bit his lip and stepped forward. Once they were in, his eyes wandered and spotted the dining table which has a lighted scented candle, fresh bouquet of flowers, luxurious food, expensive wine, and he swore he saw pocky.
"Dad! This is great!" Shinori said, admiring the place. "I'll just go to my room with Erin." And with that, he went to his former room and closed the door.
"You planned this, didn't you?" Shuichi said, avoiding Yuki's eyes, because once he looks at them, he'll be hypnotize by those sharp golden eyes.
Mustn't look. Mustn't look! I don't wanna be hurt again.
"Yes. I planned this."
"What do you want?" Shuichi said coldly which gave Eiri goose bumps.
"Please. Please forget everything about our problem. Just now. Just this day."
"Why should I do that?"
"I – I want – no – I need to share this special evening with you. Please. Just this Christmas. I want us to be together, temporarily erasing our problems.
Shuichi fell silent, thinking about Yuki's offer. It would be a good thing to forget temporarily, but, getting hurt again is a possibility.
Yuki noticed this deep thinking and added his last choice:
"Please. For the kids." Yuki's heart was beating wildly and hoped it would shut up for a while.
"Alright." Shuichi finally said and Yuki's eyes widened.
"Just for today." Shuichi added.
"T – Thank you." Yuki said and guided Shuichi to the dining room. Once they were there, the faint smell of roses greeted them.
"T – These are for y – you." Yuki said, handing the bouquet of flowers to Shuichi.
Damn it! Why am I stuttering! And my hands are even trembling.
Shuichi tried his best not to make any facial expression. During normal times, maybe he would just glomp at Yuki or kiss him. But no, that 'normal time' didn't happen, because Yuki never gave him flowers.
He accepted it, and knew he was blushing.
Next, Yuki pulled a chair for Shuichi and the latter kindly sat down. Yuki took the other seat and glanced nervously at the singer.
What will I do? He's not looking at me. I don't know what to talk about. What will I say? What is he thinking? I can't believe Eiri Uesugi is actually nervous to death. Shut up heart. I mean stop beating so loud. Shuichi might hear you.
"So, are we just gonna sit here all night?" Shuichi said uncomfortably.
"S – Sorry." Yuki grabbed the wine and poured some on their glasses.
"This wine –
"Yes. I'm glad you remembered this wine Shu." Yuki said cutting off Shuichi's words. "You gave this to me years ago."
"I – I thought you didn't like it, that's why you're not drinking it." Shuichi said.
"No, I'm keeping it because it's important to me. And they said that the older or longer the wine is kept, the more it will become tasty – or something like that." Yuki said, slowly becoming comfortable.
"Yeah. I get it." Shuichi said.
"L – let's eat." Yuki gestured and hoped that Shuichi will eat the food.
"It looks delicious. Did you make this?" Shuichi asked picking up his fork and eyeing the lasagna.
"Y – yes. Tohma helped me, though." He said, still not removing that stuttering difficulty of his.
"It tastes good. "Shuichi tasted while forcing a smile.
"T – thanks." Yuki passed him a small plate, "Here, try this."
"What's this?" Shuichi asked and received the plate.
"Chicken pie." Yuki said simply.
"Ah! The one you made me taste during our date when we were still –
Shuichi stopped at his words.
The one you made me taste during our date when our relationship was still ok. I liked this very much that I asked you to buy it everyday. That was what Shuichi wanted to say.
"Yeah. You told me to buy it everyday for you. But I opposed knowing how fat you'll become." Yuki finished, grinning.
"Fat? I'm diet conscious you know!" Shuichi said with a careless wave of his hand. He tasted the pie and smiled. "It's really good!" He said.
"Ah, Shuichi wait." Yuki said, got up, picked a napkin and damped it lightly on Shuichi's chin.
"Y – you needn't do that." Shuichi said. "But thanks anyway."
The clocked ticked 12:00, formally announcing that it was Christmas.
Yuki glanced at the door of Shinori's room and nodded.
A romantic sound made its way to the whole house. Shinori tiptoed his way back to his room after he turned on the radio.
The intro sound was slow. Yuki stared intently at the singer as Shuichi was figuring out where the sound was coming from – and what for.
"Shuichi. May I have this dance?" Yuki asked reaching out his trembling hand, hoping that Shuichi will dance with him.
"Yuki." Shuichi said. "You're asking for too much."
"Please Shuichi. Just for tonight."
Shuichi made a mistake in looking through those piercing eyes. His heart jumped wildly as he realized that his eyes were locked with those golden ones.
He silently placed his hand on Yuki's, and the blonde guided him through the dance floor – the living room. While the intro was still playing, Yuki wrapped one arm on Shuichi's waist, while the other was holding Shuichi's hand tightly. He guided Shuichi's hand to rest on his shoulder.
"We never danced together before." Shuichi said while staring at those golden orbs.
"That's why we're doing it now." Yuki said staring back. How he loved to kiss that face in front of him.
The singer's voice echoed through the living room.
I stand here frozen solid
Finally still
Like gravitation, like something sharp
I will never
do you wrong again
Yuki pulled Shuichi closer, secretly sniffing his scent. He smelled of strawberry as always – a scent that Yuki loved so much that he would rather die than admit it.
Shuichi sighed while resting his head on the blonde's chest, completely forgetting their problems. He could hear Yuki's heartbeat loudly and clearly.
You get caught perfectly
in my Polaroid
You blink, frightened
when I stand beside you
You step backwards,
when my hand is about to touch yours
"How are the kids?" Yuki asked just to have a topic. They swayed gracefully at the living room while Shinori and Erin peeked through the door.
"They're fine – I guess. Erin misses you so much that she squeals every time she sees your interview on TV." Shuichi closed his eyes and sighed again.
"She squeals like you. Don't you know that?" Yuki tried his best to act normal. He felt Shuichi laughed lightly.
"So Erin misses me huh?" Yuki asked and Shuichi nodded. "How about Shinori?"
"He misses you too. I know he secretly calls you at night Yuki. What's he telling you?" Shuichi asked curiously. He looked up at Yuki and had that innocent look on his face again.
"He tells me everything that happened in school, what are his thoughts about Kurosawa, what Erin is doing, how you are and how's your work."
"He's really a tough kid. And what have you been telling him?"
"To kiss you every night and whisper to you that I miss you." Yuki trapped Shuichi in his arms and pulled him closer than ever. "I miss you Shuichi." and I love you. he added in his mind.
But that's how it's supposed to be
That's the way we like it now
That's how it's supposed to be
Like a perfect and wonderful law
Perfect and indestructible...like me
Shuichi didn't know what to say. He felt like he was trapped forever in Yuki's arms, like his eyes would forever see Yuki's golden ones.
Yuki took this opportunity to kiss Shuichi's eyes.
"Shuichi." He whispered and rested his forehead on the brat's.
"Yuki." Shuichi whispered back.
That's how it's supposed to be
Like a perfect and wonderful law
Perfect and indestructible...like me
And they were like that the whole dawn – dancing together slowly as the song finished. Their faces were like glued together, sighing contently in each others arms.
A/N: yes! At long last! I finished the preview! Pls. review!
So what do you think happened between our favorite couple? Why did they end up living separately? Whose fault was it and how will they solve their problems?
Find out on My Heart is Lost in the Sky – the sequel to Accept me.
By the way, any suggestions or comment about the fic – who is Eiri's star? I'm having a hard time doing it. hehe