Chapter 6: Meant To Live

The 9 months was almost up. Everyone had been anxiously waiting and it was almost time. After Jude's talk with Tommy, he had gotten her to understand that she needed to let people help her. Things were going better. Jude had stopped cutting and began talking to people more, although she wasn't completely healed yet. She knew that deep down, she never really would be. But Tommy did make it seem like she would. He was like her older brother. Always looking out for her. She wouldn't have it any other way. Or would she? She knew she still had feelings for Tommy, but what she didn't know was if she was willing to admit it again so soon, or if he even had the same feelings for her. She knew it was unlikely. He had gone this long without doing anything, and she knew that Tommy would jump at the first chance he gets if he really likes someone. That's just the way he was. Plus, she was pregnant! But still, she couldn't help but wonder. She remembered the face he had made when Jamie proposed to her almost a year ago. He didn't look happy, no matter what he'd said. Could it be that he was-- jealous? She had to find out. She was tired of wondering. She went up to him. "Tommy, can I talk to you?"

"You are talking to me." She rolled her eyes and sat down across from her.

"I have to ask you something." He looked up at her.

"What?"

"You know a few months ago at the party, when Jamie asked me to marry him?"

"Yeah, what about it?"

"Were you-- were you jealous?" His eyes widened. Should I tell her the truth? He asked himself. He had always had a thing for Jude and, being perfectly honest, he was jealous. He was jealous every time he saw her with someone else. Especially when he found out she was getting married. He was crushed. He had to tell her. He took a deep breath.

"Yes. I was jealous. I thought I was losing you. Honestly, Jude, I love you. I didn't want you to be with someone else. But-- you were so happy with Jamie, I just thought it might be better off that way. I always seem to end up hurting you." Jude stared at him for a moment, then smiled.

"Wow. That's the truth?"

"Yeah, Jude. That's the truth. I just didn't think this was the right time to tell you."

"You had to tell me sometime."

"I know." Jude suddenly felt very tired. She stifled a yawn.

"I'm gonna go to bed. See you in the morning." He nodded.

"Ok." She got up and went into her room, and Tommy went back to his work. He had just gotten his focus back onto his work when he heard her call his name.

"Tommy!" He rushed up to her room to see what was wrong. She never called for him like that unless there was something really wrong. He entered her room to see her lying on her bed, obviously in pain. "I think it's time," She said quietly.

A/N: Please R&R for the next chapter. That was the second to last chapter, but like I said there will be a sequal.