Author's Notes:- Thanks to Stonedtoad for betaing.
I didn't intend for this to become so an AU of Season One but after I wrote the first one I kept getting ideas and I have a slight outline now.
Warnings:- Mentions of Rape.
Enjoy.
Sha're was happier here on Earth now but there was one thing that had been bothering her for a long time. And it had bothered her since long before coming to this planet.
Sha're wanted a child, and not because her society dictated that she should but because she wanted to be able to pass on all she knew to her own little girl.
Sha're's own mother had died when she was very young and it meant Kasuf had taught her. Occasionally her aunts would teach her some things that her mother should have but to Sha're it was not really a substitute.
She walked along the corridors of the SGC towards the infirmary having finally managed to pluck up the courage to talk to someone about her worries. Daniel and the team were being put through tests to see how Gate travel affected them over the next few days so they were on the base for the day. He had something interesting sent to him which she knew she'd have to drag him away from later.
"Sha're," Janet smiled when she entered the infirmary, "I'm surprised to see you here. Is something wrong?"
"No," Sha're answered before frowning, "Yes…well not really wrong…"
"Alright," Janet cut her off leading her into the office and sitting her down, "I've got to know you pretty well over the past few months and I can tell when something is wrong. So you can either tell me now or I'm going to keep on at you about it until you do tell me."
Sha're looked a little embarrassed, "Whatever I tell you, you are not allowed to disclose am I correct?"
Janet nodded, "You can tell me anything you want and I'm not allowed to tell anyone, not even Daniel."
Relieved Sha're took a deep breath, "Can you tell me why I have not had a child yet?"
Janet looked a little confused, "I didn't know you were trying."
"Almost since we married," Sha're explained shyly, "Dan'iel and I both want a child but no matter how hard we try I never…Is there something wrong with me?"
At her worried look Janet took the younger woman's hand, "I very much doubt it. You're young and healthy Sha're and it's possibly just bad luck. Is Daniel as worried about this as you are?"
Sha're blushed slightly, "He has not spoken of children since we arrived here."
"Well I suggest that you see what happens over the next few months," Janet told her, "And if you're still worried I'll do some tests. Getting stressed is not going to help."
"Thank you," Sha're smiled feeling better for having talked to her friend.
Sha're loved her husband but there were times, like now, where she could happily strangle him. He had disappeared and nobody knew where he was, not even her.
Daniel, she discovered early in their marriage had a tendency to lose track of time when he was engrossed in studying, and if he had to go somewhere to look at something he would without telling anyone. Abydos could be very dangerous to someone who did not know it and Sha're worried about him when he did this. The fight had erupted when he had disappeared to check something in the caves when a sandstorm had broken out meaning he had to stay there.
When he arrived back at their home Sha're sick with worry snapped at him, he snapped back and soon they had both stormed away not wanting to speak to each other at all.
Skaara in the end had to play peacemaker as they were both as stubborn as each other and refused to talk. Sha're explained that she feared for his safety when he went wandering as well as fearing he would leave her and return to Earth.
This was the first time Daniel realised that he was no longer on his own, that he had somebody in the world who cared and worried about him, making him promise he would let her know whenever he went somewhere outside of Nagada.
Now it looked like he didn't believe that promise meant anything. Since she'd been to talk to Janet earlier both Jack and Hammond had come looking for her husband, and now she had discovered he had left the mountain without even telling her.
Daniel's ability to disappear had been the cause of their first real fight and she was sure it would be the cause of their next one.
She heard a noise behind her as she read and Sha're turned her lips pursed in anger as she looked at her husband, "Where have you been?"
Daniel looked contrite and crouched in front of her, "I'm sorry honey but I had to go see someone without anyone knowing I was doing it."
"So I am just anyone?" Sha're crossed her arms.
Daniel groaned, "I didn't mean it like that. I know you wouldn't want to lie to Hammond so it was easier…" he trailed off with a sigh, "I'm sorry. Will you talk to me long enough so I can introduce you to someone?"
With an annoyed sigh she stood up and walked at his side pulling her hand away when he moved to take it. She would forgive him but not until he'd grovelled for a while.
x
Catherine smiled as Jack told her some stories about things they'd done over the past few months when she heard Daniel's voice again coming closer. She'd been so shocked when he'd appeared in her house after being told he'd stayed on Abydos, turning to see him enter with his reason for leaving Earth.
"Catherine," Daniel grinned at her, "I'd like you to meet my wife Sha're."
The old woman smiled at the beautiful woman who looked quite surprised at this introduction.
"It's a pleasure to meet you," Catherine said to Sha're, "So you're the one who stole his heart?"
Sha're blushed slightly, "You are the one who sent him to us, Dan'iel has spoken of you often but I never thought we would actually meet."
"Well, I doubt we would have if this hadn't come up," Catherine grimaced.
"What?" Sha're turned to Daniel, "What are you not telling me?"
Daniel frowned, "We've got a mission."
Sha're rolled her eyes slightly but decided not to bother saying anything. Instead she took a seat saving her annoyance for later when she and her husband were alone.
x
Sha're stood in the control room with Hammond waiting for SG1 to return. However they were later than he expected and she was beginning to worry.
"Sha're," Hammond interrupted her musings, "I have some things to talk to you about later. Once they're back come and see me."
"Of course," she smiled, Hammond always reminded her of her father and she hoped one day they would meet just so she could see them together.
Finally the Gate dialled and they entered the Gateroom to greet the team plus Catherine and hopefully Ernest Littlefield. Catherine appeared first with an old man Sha're assumed was Ernest especially the way Catherine was holding his hand next Sam and Teal'c arrived but no Daniel or Jack.
Sha're watched in horror as the wormhole started to fluctuate yet still her husband and friend hadn't arrived back. Fear settled in her stomach but just as it was about to take control of her two figures fell out of the event horizon just before the Gate shut down.
"Dan'iel," she gasped catching him in a tight embrace, "I thought you were not coming back."
Daniel gave a soft sigh before looking at her sadly, "Come on. I have to get to the infirmary."
Sha're was worried as her husband was almost completely silent on the walk from the Gateroom to the infirmary. He seemed preoccupied and his arm was tightly wrapped around her waist keeping her with him at all times.
"What is wrong my Dan'iel?" Sha're asked softly as he sat on the bed in the infirmary waiting for Janet.
"I wanted to stay there," he whispered, "I was willing to stay there to be able to keep the knowledge we found there, can you forgive me?"
Sha're felt a shiver run along her spine as he explained everything to her but as he reached the end of the story she smiled.
"Dan'iel, you believed you would have been able to unearth the Gate again," Sha're told him, "Correct?"
"Of course," Daniel replied quickly, "I wanted to be able to learn everything to keep the knowledge but I could never stay away from you for long."
Sha're smiled, "Then that I forgive you for. We still have to discuss earlier."
Daniel laughed and pulled her into a tight embrace, "Thank you. And I promise I'll make it up to you."
Sha're giggled as Daniel pulled her into the room and kissed her.
"Knock it off you two," Jack yelled from the kitchen just across from them, "There are other people here."
Sha're laughed even more as Daniel blushed slightly, even after a year living in a communal society he was still self-conscious about showing her affection in front of other people. Jack's spare room was now just that as she and Daniel had moved into their new home just the week before. It was a small bungalow, but much larger than Sha're had ever expected. She loved it and as soon as Daniel was able to get all his things from the place they had been stored they would start decorating, placing their mark on their new home.
Just now though they were enjoying some what Jack called 'downtime' for the next week after the events of recent months. She still felt a cold shiver every time she remembered being told about Apophis killing them, though had been fascinated by hearing about the aliens who had saved them.
Almost losing Jack to the strange computer creatures had made her decide to get to know him better although that was taking some doing as he was such a private person. Daniel explained about Jack's son to her and Sha're had briefly met his wife when the clone of Jack was loose.
When Jack yelled at them to come and eat Sha're slipped onto Daniel's lap. It was only a few weeks ago when she'd had the first glimmer of real hope that they would one day save her brother when the team had found Thor's Hammer. Although they'd had to destroy it to save Teal'c, a choice Sha're did mostly agree with, it meant she knew that there were ways that the Goa'uld could be removed from her adored brother.
As they ate Sha're glanced over at the two newest members of the group receiving a grin back from Catherine. She'd been excited to meet the woman who had hired Daniel to open the Stargate and was ecstatic when the team had brought back the man Catherine loved yet had thought dead for so long.
x
"So Sha're," Catherine spoke up after dinner, "How's college?"
Thanks to Hammond Sha're had managed to sign up for several courses at the local college, she now spent most days there as opposed to stuck in the SGC.
"I am enjoying the classes I take," Sha're smiled at the older woman, "It is sometimes hard to understand everything but anything I do not know I write down so I can ask Dan'iel or Janet."
"Which isn't that much," Daniel grinned kissing his wife's cheek, he was so proud of how quick her mind was and the speed at which she was picking up everything this new world threw at her.
"What exactly are you doing at college?" Ernest asked her, he'd been intrigued by the fact Sha're was from another planet.
"I am taking classes so in the next few years I can start training to be a doctor," Sha're explained with a shy smile.
Ernest nodded, "That sounds excellent Sha're, especially considering you have only been on Earth for a few months."
Sha're found an empty seat in the library and spread her books out, Daniel had dropped her off before heading to the base, his mission would only last a few hours so he promised he'd be back in time to pick her up and go for dinner. She had an hour or so before her first class so had decided to study for a while. Now she had this Sha're had become more comfortable here on Earth although she did find that she was lonely during the day.
On Abydos she knew most people and she had friends who she had grown up with but here she knew no one, the worry of accidentally revealing something she shouldn't kept her from trying to get to know anyone.
Sha're glanced up at the clock from her book and realised she was going to be late for class, gathering up her things she headed for the lecture theatre. Looking around she couldn't see a seat and was surprised as a young woman who looked about her age waved her over.
"Hey there's a seat next to me," the woman smiled, she had short copper coloured hair, slightly tanned skin and grey-green eyes, she wore a pair of loose blue jeans and a dark purple sweater while a denim jacket hung over the back of her chair.
"Thank you," Sha're smiled sitting down.
"I'm Christine," the girl introduced herself.
"Sha're."
"Unusual name," Christine remarked, "But nice, I like it."
Sha're laughed, falling into silence as the lecture started. During the hour she occasionally glanced at Christine noticing that she was engrossed making notes quickly. A small hope that maybe she'd found someone to befriend flicked through her mind but before she could examine it much her attention was called back to learning.
x
"Are you going for lunch?" Christine asked as they were packing up their bags.
A little taken back Sha're nodded, "I do not have another class today but I have a test tomorrow."
"Same here," Christine grinned, "How about we grab some lunch then go to the library. We can study and quiz each other."
Sha're smiled and nodded, "That sounds good."
They walked together out of the lecture theatre and across the campus heading to the cafeteria.
"You're not from Colorado are you?" Christine asked as they finally found a seat, "No offence it's just your accent is…"
Sha're laughed, "No. I am from…" she hesitated for a few moments making sure she remembered the story concocted by Jack and Daniel, "Egypt. I came to America a few months ago."
"Why?" Christine asked intrigued as she ate her salad.
Sha're hoped she didn't mangle the story, "My husband is an archaeologist, he was working near my village and he was forced to seek shelter with us during a sandstorm. My father charged me with making sure our guest was alright and had everything he needed. Dan'iel and I spent all night talking. I fell in love with him very quickly."
"That's kinda sweet," Christine sighed with a grin.
"We married and I joined him working at the dig site," Sha're continued, "He was transferred back here and I came too," she shrugged, "There is not much more than that."
"You don't wear a ring," Christine noted making Sha're rub her ring finger slightly.
"We had no such custom in my home," she told her new friend.
Christine moved away from the subject and onto a new one.
x
Christine dropped her head onto the book in front of her, "I quit."
Sha're laughed, "You have done well."
"That's easy for you to say," Christine rolled her eyes; "You seem to have the book memorised."
Sha're flushed slightly at the compliment, "Just a few more questions," she said glancing at her watch, "Dan'iel shall be here soon."
"Can't wait to meet him," Christine grinned before taking a deep breath, "Okay, next question. Hit me."
Before Sha're could say anything she saw Jack enter the library he was looking around, confused Sha're waved him over standing to greet him freezing as she saw the expression on his face.
"Sha're…" he started stopping and licking his lips nervously.
Sha're looked around to see Sam and Teal'c behind him their faces as grim as Jack's, she backed away slightly.
"Sha're," Jack started again.
"Where is Dan'iel?" she demanded keeping back as though staying away would make whatever they'd come to say no longer true.
Christine sat frozen to her seat as Jack moved slowly to Sha're.
"Where is he?" Sha're whispered, already knowing the answer from the look in Jack's eyes.
"I'm sorry Sha're," Jack breathed, he moved quickly managing to catch her when she collapsed to the ground gasping for air, "Deep breaths Sha're, take deep breaths," he soothed rubbing her back.
"Sir," Sam spoke up, "We have her things."
"I'll let them know she won't be in class," Christine spoke up as she handed Sam the book of Sha're's she'd been using.
Teal'c nodded grimly, "Thank you."
With everything gathered Jack pulled Sha're to her feet helping her out to the car where she sat staring blankly while Jack rocked her.
"How is she?" Janet asked as she and Jack stood watching Sha're sitting alone in the corner of the garden.
"I don't know," Jack sighed, "She only eats when I make her, it took a lot to get her to even get up this morning for the service."
"We can't blame her," Janet said, "Daniel was the reason she came to Earth, without him here she has nothing to keep her here. She's lost and considering she refused to let us call Abydos she's alone."
Jack nodded looking over to see Sam and Teal'c arrive, "I better make sure everyone's fed and watered."
x
Sha're sat gently rubbing her finger where by the custom of this world a ring should sit to prove she was married but she had nothing. There was no hard evidence that he had loved her, she had nothing and it made her want to scream but she couldn't. She couldn't; it was not done for a Chief Elders Daughter to show such weakness and she would never disgrace her father nor her husband by acting like someone of lower stature.
Watching as people moved around Jack's house and garden she could catch small pieces of conversation, most about her love and she could hear how admired he was…had been.
Squeezing her eyes shut to stop the tears she jumped as a hand gently touched her shoulder.
"Sha're," Hammond said softly, "It's getting cold out here. Come back inside."
Without resistance she walked with him indoors discovering that a great deal of time must have passed since she had sat down, most people were gone and she noticed it was getting dark.
"Have you hurt yourself?" Hammond asked seeing the way she kept rubbing her finger.
Sha're looked up at him, "I do not have a ring."
Hammond looked a little confused, "No, you don't."
"People who marry here have rings," she continued, "To at least show their love existed. I have nothing."
"You don't have nothing," Hammond told her gently.
"I should get some rest," Sha're told him pulling away from the General and the others all watching her with concern.
"Of course," he nodded, "Just tell us if you need anything."
I need Dan'iel, Sha're thought but didn't voice this instead she simply nodded, "Thank you."
x
Sha're mechanically folded blankets in the infirmary knowing she was being kept busy until they decided what they should do about her. She had overheard them talking about sending her home to Abydos or even calling her father here but Jack reminded them that she didn't want this just now so she was instead spending her days helping in the infirmary while people tiptoed around her.
She heard the alarms sound announcing someone was opening the Stargate and hoped whoever it was they had no injuries, she needed peace just now. Silence reined for about half an hour before she could hear footsteps behind her. Knowing they would ignore her if she ignored them Sha're continued her work.
"Sha're," Daniel's voice called to her.
She dropped everything grabbing a hold of the bed wondering if she had somehow fallen asleep but the voice came again.
"Sha're," he whispered right behind her now, his hand sliding around her waist as he leaned his head against hers so she could feel his breath hot against her neck, "My beautiful Sha're."
"Dan'iel?" she turned staring at him in amazement, he was soaking wet and looked exhausted but he was real, "You're alive," she slipped into Abydonian, "I thought I'd lost you forever, I thought…"
Daniel pulled her into a tight embrace as she cried, "I'm okay," he whispered, "I'm safe and I'm home."
x
Daniel lay watching Sha're as she slept beside him, he'd been so tired he'd fallen asleep the moment his head hit the pillow but he was sure she'd stayed awake a good part of the night. He'd been worried about her when he realised that everyone back here thought him dead. Though his love for her was the only thing he had that managed to persuade Nem to let them go.
She'd clung to his hand as Janet checked him out, scolding him for letting an alien use a machine on him but occasionally kept kissing and touching him. It was nice actually.
Sha're sighed turning over and sliding her arm tight around his waist looking up at him, "You are here."
"Yeah," he kissed her, "See completely solid."
Her arms wrapped around his neck pulling him closer, "I need some more proof," she told him.
As their embrace deepened Daniel made a promise to himself to spoil her for the next few days.
"Dan'iel," Sha're whispered later as they lay enjoying each others presence.
"Yeah?"
"Would you do something for me?"
Daniel grinned suggestively, "Anything you want."
"You are incorrigible," Sha're laughed for the first time in days, "I wanted…never mind it is silly."
"What is it?" Daniel asked a little confused.
"Never mind," Sha're shook her head resting against him again.
"Tell me," Daniel said before threatening, "Or I tickle it out of you."
Sha're gave a squeal of laughter as his fingers caught her under her ribs making her squirm away, "No Dan'iel."
"Then tell me," he laughed pinning her under him.
"When people marry here they exchange tokens," Sha're said, "I would like a token of some sort to show others I am married."
"You want a ring."
"I told you it was silly," Sha're told him.
"No," he shook his head, "It's not. I just thought you wouldn't want anything like that. Back on Abydos we didn't need anything."
"But this is not Abydos," Sha're reminded him.
Daniel smiled at her again, "Alright, considering I intend on not moving from this bed for the rest of the day, we can go and choose them tomorrow."
Sha're gave him an arch look, "You think you are lazing about while I do work."
"Let me rephrase that," Daniel smiled even more settling his body on hers, "We're not leaving this bed."
Sha're picked up her phone as it started to buzz checking the message that had come through, frowning slightly confused. Why was Silar coming to collect her she wondered, before shrugging and returned to her studying. The days where she thought Daniel was dead had meant she'd missed a great deal but Christine had happily given her a copy of her notes so she was able to catch up.
"Mrs Jackson," a voice cut through her concentration made her realise it was much later than she thought.
"I apologise," she told Silar, "I did not…"
"You got caught working," Silar smiled, "Don't worry about it."
As they walked to his car she looked at him, "Why are you here to collect me?"
"Apparently there was some crisis at the base earlier," he explained, "They're staying behind to fix things and since I go this way Colonel O'Neill asked if I could collect you on my way in."
"It is very kind of you," Sha're smiled as she climbed into the passenger seat.
"Not a problem Ma'am," Silar grinned as he started the car.
As they headed to the base Sha're listened to the music and played happily with the gold band that adorned her finger. True to his word after a lazy day in bed they had went shopping for wedding rings. Daniel somehow knew a place that specialised in very unique pieces of jewellery, Sha're had picked rings that had a delicate pattern just around the edges leaving the centre of the band untouched. Inside their rings were engraved their names and the Abydonian symbol for eternity, while the symbols for Earth and Abydos were engraved on the centre of the band just touching.
Sha're knew that they must have cost a great deal of money but Daniel refused to let her know how much telling her only that it was worth it if she loved her ring.
Reaching the base Sha're noted the extra security and a chill ran down her spine, something was wrong.
x
Jack stood at the doorway of the room where Daniel was now huddled. It had taken a bit of time but when it hit him exactly what Hathor had done to him Daniel had slipped into shock. Not wanting to alarm Sha're until they knew more he had called Silar to pick her up on his way to the base now he was getting anxious as what to tell the young woman.
By the time she reached him though Sha're already knew. She pushed past Jack and ran into the room stopping when she came to the edge of the bed. Sha're turned to Jack.
"Go away," she told him sharply, "And I want the camera turned off."
"Sha're…" he started to protest but she cut him off.
"Jack, do as I say," Sha're snapped her dark eyes boring into him, "Go now."
With a sigh he nodded and went to disable the camera for her.
x
Sha're had listened to Janet explain feeling sick to her stomach as she found out about the Goa'uld violating her husband. She watched until the light disappeared from the camera meaning they were alone. Slowly she sat down on the bed beside him knowing she had to be gentle or she could lose him to this.
"Dan'iel," she whispered, "I am here. Look at me."
Slowly his head came up and she could see the tears filling his crystal blue eyes, without a word he moved and fell into her arms crying.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," he whispered over and over as Sha're held him.
His arms clamped around her holding onto her as though he was drowning, Sha're stroked his hair ignoring how tight he was holding her until it became painful.
"Dan'iel," she breathed touching his cheek, "Look at me."
Daniel slowly moved to face her looking wretched, the pain in his eyes made her ache for him.
"It was not your fault. I am going to take you home," Sha're told him, "Then I will help you through this. I promise."
Nervous that he would pull away from her Sha're moved to gently kiss his cheek. Daniel leaned into her before curling into a ball again as Sha're slipped out of the room her tears flowing along her cheeks.
Sha're had went to bed an hour ago but she couldn't sleep. Despite knowing Daniel needed some time alone for the moment she wanted to be able to comfort him. He didn't want to talk to her about it but he had cried for a while in her arms before telling her to get some rest.
Slipping out of bed Sha're went to the bedroom door and looked out into the living room to see her husband curled up on the couch, it amazed her how someone so tall could make himself so small.
Taking a deep breath she returned to the bedroom and removed the quilt from their bed carrying it into the living room, she sat on the opposite end from him allowing him space.
"I thought she was you," Daniel spoke up after several minutes of silence, "She had me in her control until she tried to kiss me, I said your name and she asked me who that was. Part of me thought I shouldn't be telling her but it slipped out that you were my wife, my love and the next thing I knew you were there. Janet said the stuff made us men aroused and I couldn't resist."
"Dan'iel," Sha're leaned slightly closer to him, "She tricked you. It was not your fault."
"I just feel…"
"I know," she whispered as he trailed off, "I know exactly how you feel," Sha're sighed knowing it was time to reveal a secret to him that she hoped he would never discover, "I have been where you are."
Daniel's head came up sharply, "What?"
Sha're licked her lips, "Many years ago before we met I was sent by my father to help another Elder whose wife was ill. I was to assist during the day and return home but a sandstorm blew up and I was forced to stay there."
Daniel stared at her unable to speak as she slid closer to him.
"I was not afraid as I had known this man most of my life," Sha're continued her voice soft but never wavering, "I woke during the night to find him on me."
"He raped you," Daniel's voice was filled with barely contained anger.
"That is the word, yes," Sha're felt him take her hand, "After, he said if I told my father it would shame him so I stayed silent. Father guessed something was wrong and never sent me back to them."
Daniel stared at her amazed at how calmly she was telling him this, "What happened? Did he ever come near you again?"
"Once, just after we had married," Sha're nodded, "He told me if I did not give myself to him he would tell you that I had not been pure when we wed."
Daniel felt sick, "And?"
Sha're suddenly smiled, "I was sorting weapons that day, so I took one making sure he knew it was loaded and pressed it to his stomach before sliding it lower. I told him if he dared come near me again I would fire upon him before warning him that if he dared tell you we would be burying him in several graves. I knew even after so short a time of being your wife how much you love me and how angered you would be by this."
Daniel smiled slightly, "I wish I had your strength."
Sha're reached out and gently cupped his cheek, "It takes time Dan'iel. I cried for days but I am stronger than that and one day you shall feel that too. Until then my husband I am here for you. Always."
Daniel sighed and rested his head against hers sliding them both to lie down on the couch. Sha're wrapped the quilt around them and they fell asleep holding onto each other.