James felt as if his heart had just been ripped out and that he no longer had a best friend, he brushed past Sirius and he quickly withdrew from Lily.
"What, What is it?" Lily asked
"James, he saw us." Sirius looked so shocked because he had just realised what he had said to Lily "I've got to go and find him and explain."
"What about us?" Lily asked her eyes filling with tears.
"Nothing, I value my friendship too much, I've just done the one thing I promised I wouldn't."
Lily ran up the stairs to the boys dorm to find Hannah and Sirius ran into the common room in hope of finding James.
"James?" Sirius whispered "James are you in here?"
"GO AWAY PADFOOT!" James shouted
"Not until you let me explain." Sirius whispered.
"WHAT'S THERE TO EXPLAIN, I SAW YOU KISS LILY AND THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT!!" James shouted back
"No, it isn't, so I kissed Lily, I can't help how I feel." Sirius explained "I didn't want to at first but I just kept fighting it because I didn't want to betray our friendship but the more I fought it the more I wanted her."
"Since when have you liked Lily?" James asked trying to hold back the tears, "You knew I had my heart set on her, and yet you still kissed her."
"I know that, but I've liked her ever since we shared that detention together in our 2nd year." Sirius said still whispering, still feeling really guilty
"She's just gonna end up like all your other girlfriends, your gonna end up breaking her heart." James shouted with tears streaming down his face. "I can't even trust you anymore."
"But James I'm your best friend." Sirius said
"I have no best friend." James shouted back.
Lily was running up the stairs towards the marauders dorm tears streaming down her face, she ran into the dorm and started sobbing into a pillow on a bed.
"Hey, Lily what's wrong?" Hannah and Remus asked (Peter had fallen asleep)
"I don't want to talk about it." Lily said muffled
"You didn't do something stupid did you?" Hannah asked
Lily rose her head slightly and nodded
"I kissed Sirius." Lily said sobbing
"WHAT!!" Hannah and Remus shouted
"And what's worse James saw us."
Meanwhile in the common room
"What? James,, you can't mean that." Sirius said,
"I do, as far as I'm concerned I HAVE NO BEST FRIEND!!" James shouted and ran out of the common room.
Sirius stood there shocked and feeling really guilty, he couldn't believe anything James had just said or that he had just done what he had just done. He wished he was in a dream and anytime now he would wake up and find that he was back at home and hadn't started Hogwarts yet.
He couldn't believe in the space of an hour he had kissed the girl of his dreams and lost his best m8 at the same time. He got his quill out from his pocket and wrote two letters one to James and one to Lily
one read
I'm really sorry, I'll do anything to make it up and be friends again. I didn't mean to hurt you, you're my best friend and you always will be. Please find it in your heart to forgive me.
The other letter read
ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS
KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
He went to the owlery and picked two school owls and sent the two letter to Lily and James. Both got their owls almost straight away.
"Hey who's it from?" Remus asked
"Dunno, it doesn't say." Lily said confused
"What does it say?" Hannah asked
ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS
KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
"SIRIUS!" Remus and Hannah said instantly and looked at each other laughing.
James however knew who his letter was from straight away and read aloud
I'm really sorry, I'll do anything to make it up and be friends again. I didn't mean to hurt you, you're my best friend and you always will be. Please find it in your heart to forgive me.
As he read this his head dropped and he didn't know how he could have been like that to Sirius, like he said it wasn't his fault he liked Lily, maybe he should just accept that it was meant to happen.
James wandered around for about half an hour looking for Sirius under his invisibility cloak, when he finally found him he suddenly realised he had the marauders map in his pocket the whole time, he saw a small dot labelled Snivellus (cleverly done by Sirius) heading straight towards them. He grabbed Sirius, covered his mouth and put the cloak over him and pointed to the map so he understood.
"Thought you weren't talking to me." Sirius said
"I wasn't, until u sent me that owl." James replied
"You guessed it was from me then?"
"Yeah I think it was the you're my best friend and you always will be' bit that sort of gave it away." James said laughing "Shhh here comes Snivellus."
Snape walked passed unaware that Sirius and James were even there.
"Friends?" Asked Sirius hopefully
"Always." James said giving him a high five.
They walked back to the common room under the invisibility cloak, through the portrait hole and up to the dorms.
"Hey, you guys talking to each other?" Remus asked
"Yeah!" They said, "I figured a friend is more important than a girl any day." James added.
Clare and Carolyn walked in
"What?" They asked
"I'll fill you in later." Hannah promised.
"Hey, where's Petes?" Sirius asked.
Remus and Hannah pointed towards his bed.
"All he ever does is eat and sleep." Sirius said.
Everyone laughed even Lily who had just emerged from behind the drapes of the bed.
"Hey have you been crying Lils?" James asked looking at her rather red, wet face.
"No, I've been having the time of my life. What do you think?" Lily shot at him. "And don't call me "Lils!"
James muttered something under his breath.
"What?" Lily and Hannah asked
"Nothing!" James said
"Yeah right." Hannah retorted,
"So what if I did." James added "It's not like a little s'''' like you can do anything about it!"
Everyone in the room turned on him.
"You did not just call her a s'''''!" Sirius shouted,
"I just did." James snarled back
This earned him a slap - not from Sirius or Remus, but Lily!
James wanted to retaliate but he would never hit a girl - instead he punched Remus, he staggered back. James realised what he had just done and stormed out of the room.
"You okay?" Sirius asked Remus
He nodded slightly but couldn't move his head properly as Hannah was holding an icepack to his eye to stop it from swelling and from bruising as bad.
"What was that?" Clare asked "And by that I mean with James."
"He's jealous." Lily said quietly
"And he's just found a way of getting back at me." Sirius added "Without hurting me or Lily."
"Through me." Hannah said
"I don't think he meant to hurt Remus though." Sirius muttered
"Dunno about that." Remus muttered, winching slightly with pain. "James doesn't see who he hits just as long as he hurts someone, that's all that counts."
"I wouldn't mind." Lily said "But I hate him!"
"Okay, seriously lost here." Clare and Carolyn said
"I'll explain later."
"How about now?" They asked "In the girls dorm."
"Alright!" Lily said "You coming Hannah?"
"Yeah, in a minute." she said
The girls left and went to the girls dorm.
"I'm okay." Remus squirmed
"Fine then." Hannah pretended to be annoyed as she knew it wound him up. "See ya later."
She went to catch up with the girls. When she went into the girls dorm they were waiting for her.
"Come on Lily." Carolyn said "Spill."
"Sirius kissed me!" She whispered
"Oh my God!"
"And James saw us!"
"And James likes you." Clare said "And Sirius is his best friend!"
"I know!" Lily muttered "And now James isn't going to speak to Sirius."
"Maybe it's a blessing in disguise." Hannah stated "I mean James is a little b'''''' anyway!"
"Hannah!"
"What?" She said "I hate him! he's already tried to ruin my relationship with Remus and not to mention he asked me out!"
"Just stay happy with him long enough for him to go out with me." Carolyn pleaded
Hannah just shrugged
"Maybe this year we might actually get our dream guys!" Lily giggled
"I already have." Clare and Hannah said.
"Well we don't actually know what Paul looks like as you refuse to show us a picture of him!" Lily said
"Well he's for my eyes only." Clare responded "And anyway I spent too long trying to get him."
"Yeah, and you convinced yourself that Cath was better looking than you." Lily and Carolyn laughed. "And that he fancied her more!"
Clare stuck her tongue out.
"Looks like Carolyn is the only one who needs to be set up." Hannah laughed
"Like I need to be set up!" Carolyn commented
"You do." Lily said "If you want to go out with James, which, if you do you must be off your head!"
Carolyn threw a pillow at her.
"Hey, I got an idea." Clare said "How about we describe our ideal guys and say the most romantic thing a guy has ever done for us."
"Yeah okay." The other three said
"I'll go first." Clare added "My ideal guy would have blondish hair, a gorgeous body, great personality and be good at badminton."
"Paul!" Lily and Hannah laughed
Clare nodded
"And the most romantic thing a guy has ever done for me is...."
"What?"
"I don't know really, Paul has done that many romantic things that I can't decide."
The four girls giggled
"My turn." Carolyn said "My ideal guy would have black hair, totally gorgeous, clever, a prankster and good at Quidditch."
"James."
"Yeah."
"Most romantic thing is when this lad took me for a moonlight walk, I can't really describe it but it was really romantic."
"You want to go next?" Lily asked Hannah
"Whatever." Hannah said "My ideal guy is Remus, purely because he's kind, caring, intelligent, quite good looking and of course the fact that he is really romantic and is my fiancé."
"Most romantic thing?"
"There's two - one was when Remus asked me out it isn't that romantic but it was really sweet 'cause he didn't want to jeopardise our friendship and the other one is when he proposed."
"Aww."
"Your turn Lil."
"My ideal guy would have black hair, damn fine, clever and he wouldn't risk his friendship for a girl." Lily smiled "Most romantic am not saying as I don't want to share it."
"Aww come on Lily." Hannah said
"No!"
"Why not?" Clare asked
"Because I'm not okay!" She snapped "I'm going to bed."
"No." Hannah said "You need to tell us why."
Lily grabbed hold of Hannah and took her outside the girl's dormitory and into the common room.
"If you must know." She muttered "No guy has ever done anything romantic for me. All men are jerks anyway!"
Hannah slapped her unintentionally.
"Not all men are jerks."
"Oh yeah, I forgot Remus is a total saint." Lily snapped
"I wasn't talking about Remus." Hannah retorted "And he ain't a saint but even through all his faults, I love him!"
"Well who were you talking about then?" She asked
"Sirius." Hannah replied "No one can cal him a jerk, yeah okay he may not be perfect but he's my brother. And I know for a fact that you love him and he loves you. The only reason he won't go out with you is James."